Don't Call Me Beautiful...!

Chapter 33 Papi's coming home

''Rif.. don't...!" he said while pushing my body away from him.

I didn't care about everything she said, my mind was overpowered by demons, my brain was numb, only my feelings were alive, the feeling of wanting to have the girl I loved so much....

this feeling of belonging to an adult finally poured out completely, I released the seed from my body for her.

For a second, I finally woke up from everything....

"I'm sorry I'm beautiful...!" I clasped his hands together, hoping he would forgive my mistake.

"This shouldn't have happened to Rif, this is wrong, we're even still in grey uniforms, this is wrong." he just kept crying, picking up his clothes scattered on the irregular floor,,,

"I'm sorry I'm beautiful I'm sorry, I love you so much, I can't help it. I'm sorry baby" I still want to apologize for my demeanor.

I don't know what's going to happen next, which is for sure I feel very guilty for what I did.

If I had not followed my passions, perhaps none of this would have happened, I would now be the most sinful being in the world for taking away one's holiness, and that's the person I love the most in this world.

I cannot imagine what will happen next.I leave all that fate to God, if only God would punish me, yes I will sincerely accept it because I am really wrong....

I kept trying to apologize to him...

''Forgive me!, I promise I will take responsibility" I rest assured and clasped his hands tightly.

"With what you're in charge of the Rif, even we're still in school" he said.

"I will marry you, if you want, we can marry in series, after graduation I will marry you officially, I beg you forgive me!"

"With it easy to say like that, Rif, what about our parents? they must be angry"

"We can explain everything slowly"

"what if I'm pregnant"

"it's impossible, but if it's true, I beg you to defend it, he's our son, the son of our love, let us not hurt" I plead with all my heart.

"Please promise me Rif, you'll never leave me…!"

"Yes who, I promise, whatever the circumstances may be, I will stay by your side"

"for a while, it's a secret we're both Rifs, don't you tell anyone, I'm scared."

"Are you sure that? I'll tell my parents, and I'll propose to you"

"Later, if something happens we think about it again, for now let it be like this, I don't want anyone to know, if you stay here, and don't leave me"

From now onward, you are my responsibility, allow me to take care of you more than ever.

The day changed, as I promised I would take responsibility for her, especially now that I know, she actually contains seeds from me.

There was once a person who instigated us to negate the life that was in his stomach but I didn't want to I was really angry to hear that person was intent on rotting like that.

Even if I have to be removed from school, or even scribbled from the family card by papa for making him ashamed of my behavior, I can accept it, he said, maybe even if everyone was against your relationship I'd elope with him. For sure I'll never kill our son, I'll hold him back anytime.

Unbeknownst to Beautiful, I continued to fill her savings with my own money.

Itung-itung saving, for later childbirth although not how insya Allh enough for the cost of giving birth to buy milk and diapers our child later.

Imagine I will have a child very fun, there will be a small child who welcomes me when I come home from work...

"Hore papi's coming home, did papi bring a toy for me?" haha is so adorable with my son.

Then I held her up, and kissed her puffed cheek.

"Yes papi's favorite, papi bring cars for Ade, uh dolls"

And I'm confused what to bring, I don't know what gender, but hopefully twin girls and boys, so it will be more fun....

When in the bench of Junior High I and beautiful ever dreamed if later we married and have children, Our son will he named Kaede Rukawa, his favorite anime character,,, and,, Yes if it's true boy I'll allow him to name her with Kaede Rukawa.

Not if Rukawa is very handsome like me, and also very good at playing basketball as well as me, then our son will definitely be a great child like me of course.

If she's my daughter who has the right to name her, what's her name? I'm still confused, we'll see...

Mami is just as smart, surely our child will become a genius child and can boast of his parents...

I really can't wait for his birth, I'll be the first to accuse my son later, I'll invite him to play together, I'll teach her to swim so that she's not like her mama who swims only in stone style...

My son will also get the best education, he will I go to the best school in the country, but of course I will not force my will, like my father forced me to become a TNI.

I'll free her to choose whatever she likes as long as it's good..

speaking of papa, surely he will chop me up for having dared to impregnate people's children, or else he will directly kill me with his rifle. yes just in case I will tell papa all when he only wears t-shirts and pants just relax, not when he is wearing his official clothes, before my son was born I went first..

My mind went too far to think about what my son would be, when what I should have thought was how to tell my father and man about all this.

Yes I will try to string words together, so that it becomes the right sentence for me to convey to Papa and mama.

I wrote that sentence then I deleted it again, I wrote it again and then I scribbled it again, I wrote it again and I tore the paper and all I threw in the trash..