Don't Call Me Beautiful...!
Chapter 21 Promise Me..
''Ref... don't...!"
It seems that he did not listen to my words at all, although I tried to hold him back but of course his energy was stronger than mine...
He curled my body from above, he kissed my lips back, gently, and suddenly something burst into my lower body...
''Aghrh..."
It hurts a lot, no matter what happens to me,,,
"Arief let me go, this is wrong.let go...!"
As powerful as I was trying to get him to release his body from my body, but in vain he was too overpowered by something we should not be feeling right now...
The pain I was feeling gradually improved, and was replaced by a very strange feeling, somehow I really enjoyed this mistake, Arief was so in control of my body that something felt loose from both of us, I don't know what it was, but it seemed that because of that Arief's consciousness began to recover, he finally released my body..
My tears are not stopping, I regret that the most precious thing in the body of this ugly duckling is gone, it is gone, it is gone, taken by the man who has appreciated me the most all along..
"I'm sorry I'm beautiful...!" Arief held both my hands.
"This shouldn't have happened Rif, this is wrong, we're even still in gray uniforms, this is wrong." I just kept crying, picking up my clothes that were strewn about irregularly,,,,,, I said,,,
"I'm sorry I'm beautiful I'm sorry, I love you so much, I can't help it. I'm sorry baby" she pulled my hand, like she didn't realize she wasn't wearing a thread yet.
I was embarrassed, seeing our bodies as both innocent.
Without answering I immediately went to the bathroom to clean myself...
In the bathroom I flushed my body with as much water as I could. I sat languidly under the shower..
I am so disgusted to see my body that is no longer holy, what should I do after this? I'm confused I'm scared.
My body trembles incessantly, what else does that part feel so painful, so sick, you stupidly beautiful, why do something like this, this is wrong, this is wrong....
I tried to calm myself down, and immediately put on my uniform again
I don't know what to do after this, when I came out of the bathroom, Arief was wearing clothes again, waiting for me restlessly in front of the bathroom door...
He grabbed my wrist and pulled me into the living room, I sat down with tears still melting on this cheek.
''Forgive me!, I promise I will take responsibility" He rested and his hands clasped tightly onto mine.
"With what you're responsible for Rif, even we're still in school" I turned my face away.
"I will marry you, if you want, we can marry in series, after graduation I will marry you officially, I beg you forgive me!"
"With it easy to say like that, Rif, what about our parents? they must be angry"
"We can explain everything slowly"
"what if I'm pregnant"
"it's impossible, but if it's true, I beg you to defend it, he's our son, the fruit of our love, let's not hurt"
I was really confused by the current situation, she was so convincing to me, throwing my anger at her.
"Please promise me Rif, you'll never leave me…!"
"Yes who, I promise, whatever the circumstances may be, I will stay by your side"
"for a while, it's a secret we're both Rifs, don't you tell anyone, I'm scared."
"Are you sure that? I'll tell my parents, and I'll propose to you"
"Later, if something happens we think about it again, for now let it be like this, I don't want anyone to know, if you stay here, and don't leave me"
He hugged me, and promised he would never leave me..
I went home with a still-chaotic feeling.
"I'm taking you home"
"no need, just rest you're still sick, I can go home alone"
"I'm better, I'll take you home"
He got up to pick up his jacket and motorcycle keys in his room, then pulled out a parked motorcycle in his garage..
Once again I could not refuse the man, whatever he said I always did, somehow I was always devastated by his words..
On the way he put my hand on his waist...
"Which you're sure, will keep this a secret"
"Yes, I'm scared"
"But I'll take responsibility, I'll admit it to your parents"
"Don't they get angry, I don't want to add weight to their minds, we'll think about it again, right now I just want to be like this "
"Well, if that's what you want, I love you so much, since before we were together, until now when you were all mine, my love will increase"
He held my hand with one hand, while the other held the control of the matic motor, which he was currently driving.
"Please promise me, don't leave me..!"
"I promise you Beautiful..."
He runs the bike very slowly for whatever reason, it looks like he just wants to linger to convince me to forgive him.
It's not his fault, I'm wrong, it's given him a chance to do something that religion has strictly forbidden...
I have committed adultery with the man I love so much, with whom I love so much, he is the only man who values me as a human being, but now he has taken something in me.
He drove me to the front of the house, my house is still very quiet, but the clock has shown at 3 pm, it looks like mom and dad have not come home, as well as brother Rama, he often goes home at night, he often goes home, because he went to college while working..
"Nobody's home, you better go straight home.."
"i'll just wait outside"
"Go home Rif, rest you're still sick"
"I've healed that"
"I said go home, go home" my eyes glared sharply at his eyes...
"yes, yes, don't be angry! i'm home!"
He finally left too.
"be careful Rif..!"
"yes" he had put on his helmet, and was getting ready to ride his bike, but he turned around and came back to me.
"I'm sorry I'm beautiful..!"
arief once again held my hand.
"yes, I forgive you"
He smiled and gently rubbed my head, then kissed my forehead...
Arief which woman will not be happy has your romantic lover, as good as you are, as sincere as you are, as smart as you are, and as perfect as you are, even you want to accept me who is like this, far from perfect..
After Arief left I stepped into the house.I saw a photo of my father and mother on the wall, instantly, my tears dripped...
"I'm sorry mom!, sorry!"
