Dating After Marriage (HALAL)

It is hard to forgive

"Sir .." call Jel.

"Why?" alex asked, he could see there was doubt on the lover's face.

"I'll talk,"

"If you say I'm not surprised, but, if you say I'm 'go on a strike', then I'm surprised, I'm surprised,"

Jel shook his head, he was serious about speaking to the lover, but was responded with a joke.

"What are you talking about?" tanyakanya.

"You don't get angry!"

"angry? You're cheating on me!"

"Not connected, who wants to cheat try, have one boyfriend just made me dizzy, let alone increase, ouch ... Don't love me" Jel scolded.

"Eat him don't be overshadowed, it's just me that's on your mind" Alex relaxed.

"I'm not, so I'm talking, you're always kidding, this is serious you know" Jel grumbled.

"Seriously? Let's just see me look at your serious face, since I just saw your sweet face, tuh," joked Alex increasingly upset Jel.

"I want to go home, I'm lazy to talk to you, but I'm rarely serious, arrived seriously invited to joke that, who is not upset try,"

"Yes, yeah. Just get angry,"

"Udah ah, bete me,"

"Sorry yes! Sorry, we're serious this time, okay!"

Jel just kept quiet.

"What do you want to say?" tanyanya seriously.

"There's no more joking around, right?"

Alex nodded his head.

"If we weren't meant to be a match, how would we be?" lirih Jel with a sad look.

Alex does not know what to answer, he is also confused by the relationship that is being lived with his lover, seeing a relationship that only runs in place makes him often ask, what can their relationship continue, can their relationship continue, or her second relationship just stops here.

He admitted that he loved a careless girl who was almost similar to his sister, a dozen years of him was colored with silly behavior and happy laughter from the lover.

It is true that all are handed over the same above, but, whether he can if not match with his lover, and God prefers another soul mate for him.

"Sir .." call him again.

"Yes" said Alex who was aware of his daydream.

"What are you thinking about again?" tanyanya full of search.

"I'm thinking about our relationship, I'm confused to answer your question."

Hearing Alex's words, Jel bowed, he also did not know what to do for the sake of the continuation of his relationship.

"Already, we just go first, the rest we give the same above," he continued.

Jel nodded his head.

"Hey, look what the hell's down there, there's a coin falling huh?" alex Goda.

Alex chuckles, he is always anxious because he has succeeded in tempting the lover. With a laugh, Alex remembered something.

"Ehm, how's Papa doing?" ask carefully. How many days he had not contacted Papa Jel because of the number of jobs, and without Jel's knowledge, Alex often contacted Papa Jel.

Hygiene ...

Hygiene ...

Jel looked at Alex blankly, he was always lazy to talk about his Papa, often Alex asked or invited himself to visit his Papa's house but was always rejected. Jel is not ready to talk to his Papa, especially now his Papa is always with his young wife and also his son.

Alex who wants to make Jel make peace with his past never gives up, various ways are always done, so that the Son and Father can chat and discuss the problems that occurred during these years.

Not getting any answers, Alex flicked Jel's forehead so that the girl was not just silent. "A habit, if asked, must be silent."

Jel rubbed his forehead, he was always annoyed with Alex's flick.

"How are you?" ask him again.

Jel flicked his shoulders, he pretended not to care. Deep in his heart, he longs for the father who is always there for the family, when his father has not married his young wife. In front of others he can lie, but not in front of Alex because the lover is very aware of Jel's nature.

"You're not cut out to be a great liar" exclaimed Alex with a flat face.

Jel smiled bitterly. "What a knowledge!"

"You don't miss the same, Papa? When can you make peace with your past?" tanyanya, still put on a flat face.

"I miss" he muttered, but Alex could still hear.

"If misses? Why never speak directly,"

"I'm not sure of myself, brother,"

"Babe, the problem is faced instead of avoided, how many years have you punished, Papa. Do you think silencing him for years can make Papa happy with the attitude you show to Papa all this time," Alex always gives understanding to Jel, he said, he hopes this time his lover does not rely on his selfishness.

"Yes I know, I was wrong, I was selfish, it was not appropriate that a rich man could be faced with a problem like this," said Jel self-blame. He is also confused by his heart and logic that are not in line.

"You are not a bad boy who can be said to be an ungodly child, you are just a child who has not been able to make peace with your past, try slowly talking to, Papa. I'm sure you can."

Jel sighed, he still could not accept the lover's proposal. "The word 'forgive' is, unlike when we easily pronounce it,"

"Yes, but that's not why you're having trouble forgiving someone else's mistakes. Sometimes we have to understand that everyone must have done something wrong, including you," said Alex.

"Even if he does something fatal!" Jel said it with a trembling voice, even calling the word 'Papa' he could not.

Alex can feel the pain experienced by Jel, he did not have the heart to see his lover who held back his tears not to come out, he always tried hard in front of the people around him.

"I forgot to have Papa or not," he turned his gaze carelessly so that Alex could not see that he had wiped the tears that suddenly came out. "Calling that call alone, I really don't know anymore" he continued.

Alex was silent, he was more and more claustrophobic to hear Jel's words, he could not see the suffering of the lover.

Seeing Alex no response at all, upsetting him. "Why silence? Pity me? I don't need your pity, I still have a God who can strengthen me,"

"If you have God, why not humble yourself, to forgive those who have hurt you" Alex exclaimed softly.

Matt check, Jel can't answer. He was lost in a minefield, but could not move at all, the words he issued as if a deadly weapon for him.

Jel swallowed his saliva over and over again, occasionally he cleared his throat.

"Babe, is it that hard to forgive, is there no second chance to, Papa you," he said seriously.