Daily Notes for God

at first the chaos in my parents' household

My name is Nikita, I went to school at National High School in Jakarta, my family's life is very happy, there are all, what I want must be there immediately.

Without me realizing that our family life is very far from God. I think "I am far from God only my family fortune is abundant, let alone we are close to God " . But I just ignored it.

one day, I woke up in my sunny morning rushing me to take a shower to go to school. I always drive with a driver .

"ma..,pa.." I said goodbye to school (while kissing both my parents).

At school I had two best friends; rea and Yura they were my best friends.I was also called a "queen" at school, because of my beautiful face.

one day, after school I saw the house was a mess, I heard a commotion in the room mama, papa .(running into the room mama, papa)

I asked Them; "ma.., pa.." What's up ? why is everything falling apart?( mom can only cry while hugging me).

" What's wrong why you cry"

" Your papa Nik.your papa" (talking while crying in my arms).

" your father cheated on a woman younger than my mother" (looking at me with a very sad and hit face).

instantly my body was fixated and unable to move crying in my heart and could only stare at my two broken parents. And said in my heart "God why should my family be God" .

Dad came out of the room and left my mom.

" pa.. pa... where are you going?.?.do not stay with me and mama pa..". ( papa just looked at me while pushing me down).

Papa went somewhere. I ran to see my mom in the room crying incessantly.mom hugged me and said ;

" Nik. wrong and lacking mama what yes, how can your papa cheat behind mama "

(I could only shut up and cry while tightly hugging my mother).