CUTS

Who Goes and Returns...

Dr. Guney sighed after doing an examination on Cut in the ER room. Cut was rushed back to the hospital for fainting upon reaching the mass grave area.

“How, Doctor?” ask Mr. Cek Amir to panic.

“It's okay. He just wasn't ready to accept any of this. Only time can make Cut able to accept all this. Our job is just to wait.”

Five minutes later, Cut opened his eyes again and was immediately greeted warmly by Mr. Cek Amir and Mak Cek Siti. After getting approval from Dr. Guney, they immediately returned home. Cut's feeling was empty seeing how things were out there after all these months he didn't get out of the hospital.

Life must go on because time will never be repeated. Cut began to rearrange himself to face all the sadness of loss. Slowly but surely, the sadness will disappear by itself coupled with the existence of Iskandar who became the antidote for him. Mr. Cek Amir and Mae are still looking for little Rendra on holidays. They have returned to routine as before the disaster happened.

“Assalamualaikum.”

Degs…

Cut knows for sure who the owner of this voice is.

“Walaikumsalam.”

Cut answered the greeting slightly stammered as he glanced at the guest. Cut was playing with Iskandar while Intan was washing clothes in the back. Only the three of them were at home at the moment. Mak Cek Siti and Faris have gone shopping while Mae and Pak Cek Amir have gone looking for little Rendra.

“Halo Iskandar?”

The baby walked towards Rendra limped. Rendra sits himself next to Cut. “How are you doing?”

“Good,”

Cut looked at the interaction of the two men of different ages with mixed feelings. “You should be so with your father.”

Cut was determined to see his son so close to a foreign man. “It looks like he is easily familiar with everyone.”

“We often meet when you are in hospital.”

Degs…

Again Rendra did the same thing as when Rendra was small.

A small smile is created at the corner of Rendra's lips when he realizes that his opponent is being misbehaved. However, he still tried to approach slowly even though he actually could not wait to have this woman.

“We're out, want?” tanya Rendra made Cut gasp.

“Ke-where?”

“Jalan-just around here. No need to worry, I don't wear a uniform. Aceh is at peace, no more shootouts.”

“Come!”

Rendra pulled one of Cut's hands with the other hand holding Iskandar. Cut gasps, “Sa-I said same Intan first.”

Cut releases Rendra's grasp and walks into the kitchen looking for Intan. “Dek, Brother invited out with Bang Rendra. Iskandar also tagged.”

“OK!”

Cut frowned at the cousin who looked relaxed in response to his words. “Go and enjoy the life that God still gives to Brother. Boys not all bad.”

Cut shook his head slowly then stepped out following Rendra who was already standing in the doorway. Intan's words kept haunting him.

“What's up? Have you been daydreaming all this time? Something bothered your mind?” asked Rendra as the two walked towards the front field of Pangdam's house.

“No.”

“Tell me! I'm ready to listen.” Cut confused where to start. Too much is haunting his mind right now.

“Abang no tasks?” great-grandson Cut and managed to make Rendra laugh.

“From yesterday you were silent because you wanted to ask that? If I am a task there is no way I am here with you guys.”

Cut squeezed his fingers to hear Rendra laugh as if she was laughing at him. “We sit here only!”

“Boy, let's play ball together. Let your mama think of a good question first.” Said Rendra then invite Iskandar to play with a small ball that had been in his grasp.

Cut looked at the two and again his tears came down. Flashes of the past with Faisal again appeared.

“Where are you? Don't you miss him? Look at her! Your son is happy with a stranger. Don't you want to play with him? I-i'm sorry! If I hadn't told you to leave, we might still be together. Are you happy with your son there? Do you not miss our son? Bang Fais, please! Meet Iskandar! He also needs his father.”

Cut wiped his tears quickly but Rendra managed to see him. Rendra is in a dilemma to face this woman. His decision to file a move did not go easy. Meanwhile, trying to get the heart of the woman is also difficult.

There's not much they talk about. Rendra realizes one thing if the road will not be easy to get Cut back. They returned because Iskandar had begun to fuss from exhaustion until he fell asleep in Rendra's arms.

Intan greeted their return with a smile. He wanted to take Iskandar but Rendra prevented him. “Let's Just Brother!”

Rendra followed Intan and put Iskandar to sleep on the swing. Everything Rendra did did not go unnoticed by Cut's black bead. After Rendra's departure, Intan invited Cut to speak with a serious facial expression.

“Kakak would know if Bang Rendra approached Sister there must be a point?” Cut frowned at the cousin sister who looked different at this time.

“Don't say Big Brother doesn't know if Bang Rendra wants to approach Big Brother again. Continue the plan Brother next what?”

This time Cut could only sigh. Intan's question is quite difficult to answer at this time because he has not thought in that direction.

“Sister doesn't know.”

“What's your next big brother plan?”

Cut stared fixedly at his cousin's sister as if implying deep anxiety. “Kak, it's not just us who lost. Everyone experiences the same thing, some even worse. Brother, have you seen how the condition of every tsunami victim patient in the hospital.we should all be able to rise from this disaster.until when do we continue to grieve and cry for those who have returned? They need our prayers not our cries. And that has become their destiny. Just look at the condition of Brother. No one believes that Brother can be healed like now.  In fact, the Doctor just stared resignedly when he saw the state of Brother first time.”

“But indeed Brother is not yet called by the power so regardless of the situation of Brother at that time. Sister can still be helped.”

“Sister hasn't thought of anything now, Deck. There are a lot of things you still have to think about. Especially getting married again. Sister is not ready for it.” Lirih Cut's.

“What Brother still hopes Bang Fais returns? Are you sure Bang Fais will be back here? Even his existence we do not know. Just accept Bang Rendra and live happily with her.”

“Yes, live happily with the man but leave Iskandar to us!”

 

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