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04. regret always at the end not at the beginning

 

hi I diva I'm a middle child I have a twin brother deva she adek me and also an older brother name her divo. I live in a family that is quite capable of my papa mama who is quite busy but not busy either... and I have an aunt I've regarded as my own parents she's been so kind to me.

 

one morning I opened my bedroom window and breathed in the fresh morning air.

aunt: non diva.non (while knocking on the door)

morning does not wake up (with a voice.

that's so soft).

diva: yes bi.I woke up.

aunty: a non bath was turum made

breakfast breakfast.

diva: ok, bi..

aunty left and I rushed ready to go to school. After ready I went down and there was already papa mama deva and sis divo. they had breakfast without waiting for me. I also sat down papa trus said

dad: wake up va..

diva: it's pa

papa: why did he wake up in the morning

brother same adek you anyway.

diva: yes pa. sorry last night sleeping

kemaleman on duty.

(suddenly divo nyahut)

divo: hah... is it really a task? ato don't

do not stay up because of drakor

ama kpop you or something.

diva: really doing the job.

(there was my mood for breakfast and I went straight to )

diva: I want to go.

(no one cares what I have there.they have a happy family without me).

aunt: ehh non... no further breakfast?

diva: no bi. no appetite(all

smile)

aunty: this is non-supply.ntar eaten fitting

at school, focus on learning

diva: yes bi. thanks..

aunt: leaving is not with the same master

the other non?

diva: gak bi's..

aunt: heart in the street non..

(why I don't go with them I'm lazy with their babble sick ni ears horrors they also don't care if I want to go with whom!)say me in my heart.

just want to get out of the house to arrive in front of already defan (neighbor me and my school friend)

defan: morning va... want to go together??

you don't go with your papa

don't you?

diva: morning. iy mo departed this. not them.

happy that there is no me.

I mean, what is va? there will be me

hayo left with me.

diva: come..

we went to school on foot because the school is also not too far out quite the complex and turn straight and go to school.. if sister ama deva emang ushered the same papa and mama use the car.

I was used to diginiin dahimun😌.i was always different from kaka ama deva. I also do not know my fault where. mama and papa more dear ama kak divo ama deva.while I may just load aja.one day their treatment was so real and I was even more sure that my mom was equally papa never loved me

tuesday, March 31st had a place on my birthday and the 17th deva mama gerayainnya and many guests who came. but what?? only deva who became the center of attention while I what. I was very bored.kalo mama equally papa ngadain event at home surely no one will care about me. during the celebration I went to the room because I felt useless to be there mama and papa was busy serving guests by bringing deva and telling her greatness I know deva superior than me she good at math and mama papa's favorite kid.. deva always gets 1st place in class and kak divo is not losing great he is good at Indonesian and also mtk they both always participate in the Olympics and are always champions... while I am more into sports and most do not like mtk. happen next week I compete in silat and kak divo debate competition while deva participate in the Olympics.this is my first time in the competition.

well come back again to my birthday.yg more precisely his birthday deva event anyway.I was just in the room.I was so sad but I'm used to it because every year always so..

arriving

tock..tok...tok (sound of people knocking on the door).

diva: who??..

this is me va defan..

diva: oh.ngapain you?

defan: open first the door of his room va

cook up so I'm standing outside

your room door?

diva: oh.ok

(defan entered my room while carrying a birthday cake even though small but it was so funny and beautiful with the words hbd diva. sweet seventeen.).

diva: paan nih fan???

refan: (singing song happy birthday) congratulations

diva's birthday may long life and

always happy.

diva: what is fan?(?I still can't believe it

I am so happy, Defan

my best friend since childhood because of home

he's in front of my house) thank you very much

fan. (without my tears being noticed).

defan: kok nangis sih va (while mengelapin

my tears) happy dong.

diva: huhu yes fan thanks a lot huhu...

(crying)

defan: don't cry anymore dong this is your birthday

the 17th right. cepet do'a before.

inflatable candle.

diva: yes fan (berdo'a in the heart of "yaallah

may your mom and dad be the same

diva. diva wants to love mom and.

papa's no more than that" blowing out the candles)

defan: loh va.kok not down this anyway right.

are you the same deva?

diva: it's a fan like not knowing.every

this year is gini. it is not a birthday ny deva

me

defan: (looking at the diva with taste

pity) patient va still there me

hehe

I am grateful because there is a defense he always comforted me. that night even though I felt very sad because my mother was equally papa did not say congratulations on my birthday.. how to say care not.why I so hope stupid you diva (self-actualize).

day passed and tomorrow during the race.I went to the room mama and papa. it turns out they were in the guest room with deva and divo (indeed yes I am not considered in this family😌)

diva: pa ma, tomorrow the diva silat race comes

yes pa ma??

papa: can't diva tomorrow papa mo see brother

you are indo debate competition.

diva: mama how??

my mom: can't! mom wants to see deva

olympics (with such an answer

chilly)

diva: 😞yaa can't ya pa ma? okay diva

just want it to doang.

divo: already va will not win.

I'm the same deva versus aj(with the tone

taunting).

I went straight into the room and it hurt me so much I cried. I didn't realize it was morning.. I wonder why my aunt didn't wake me and I just remembered my aunt's day off because her son was sick. I cut the dining room and saw that papa and the others were already there. I think knp papa and mama gk wakein I pdhl today I race. and I also remember oh iy deva and kak divo kan jg race.. time at the dinner table papa and mama nyemangati deva and divo. meanwhile they forget that I also participated in the race. ya gpp lah already usual😌.delesaj breakfast I immediately leave..

when the match there was a coach who was watching and excited me. I don't think I was a champion.. after finishing the trophy I immediately went home and displayed my photos and trophies in the living room.there are many photos and the Deva Cup ama kak divo.. and this is the first time I display my achievement trophy photo ama. gk long after that papa mama deva and kak divo came home there Deva nangis lecturer and it turns out he lost..

diva: ma pa see I won the race

divo: your copotin photo! you want to show off

mentang mentang won. gk see Deva sad.

because you lost.. You want ledekin?

diva: really! I didn't mean that!

father: already!already! diva copotin photo your am

your cup!

the pain of seeing them talk like that..

suddenly Deva fainted..

divo: look Deva fainted because of you!!

papa mama and sis Divo rushed Deva to the hospital and left me alone.

aunt: wahhh... Non win huh?! happy non...

diva: yes bi. (without expression).

I went into the room and cried why they all hated me so much...

at night, I accidentally heard my mom and dad talking.

mom: how is this pa?! (sobbing

egret)

papa: it's okay ma.

nyembuhin Deva and found a kidney

suitable for deva..

mama kept crying...

so Deva's sick and needs kidneys? whether

deva kidney failure?. I'm the same she's twins must be my kidneys match her?!.. yaudah tomorrow I'll go to the hospital and donate my kidneys to deva.. if it can make mama papa and others ny happy🙃 I live or not also gk ad use. I decided to make my kidney ngedonorin sma deva..

NEXT MORNING

diva: (later aunt) bi. bi...

auntie: yes non? what was?

diva: bi this letter please love me mom and dad

yes(stringing out the letter)

aunt: what letter is this non?

diva: not what bi.. ☺ please convey to

mom and dad bi..

aunt: where are you going? this is ap mail? (worried)

diva: diva wants to see deva bi. not what aunty.

don't open it. Remember your love.

and papa..

aunty: good non ntar aunty convey. non heart.

on the way home mrs don't be too late..

diva: gak bi diva nginep.diva go first.

I went to the hospital before I went to Defan's house..

diva: (pressing the bell of the house defan)

the door's open

is it you va? whynot?

diva: I don't know what to do. Mo just said I was.

go first you take good care of yourself.. ☺

defan: what the hell is va? go where?

diva: to the hospital.yaudah I go first yes..

remember message me😄

defan: go to doang hospital.kyk mo go.

far aj.. want me to take you?

diva: no need fan..

byby.

defan: ok heart yes. (gaze at diva a little.

worry)

diva goes and Defan talks

defan: that's the kid why the hell?. kayak mo go far

aja's...

until the hospital, I talked to the doctor and asked the doctor to keep secret who will donate this.

doctor: (talk to diva's parents) sir..

alhamdulillah, there are those who want to.

ginjal ngedonorin for mother's child and

this man will donate a second

his kidney

diva's parents were shocked...

papa diva: who's the doc? I'd like to meet

nya.

mama diva: yes doc... Who is it?

doctor: the person does not want to show

identity of mrs buk sir..

diva's parents: yaudah doc.

thank you so much..

how much do they pay doc?

doctor: he's not asking for any compensation sir..

the diva's parents were shocked to not believe and the doctor immediately started the operation. After waiting for a long time the operation was successful..

papa diva: bi. aunty...

auntie: yes sir.?

papa diva: where's the diva? why not at all

visiting sister?

aunty: it is not a non diva to the hospital and

staying there?

parents of divas are confused because divas do not go to the hospital at all, and indeed when parents and kaka divas go home at all do not ask for the existence of divas.

mommy diva: to the hospital? absolutely no bi

where is this kid?!

aunty also remembered the letter delivered by diva.

aunt: mister.mrs.when going to the hospital.

non diva wrote a letter.

the old charcoal diva received the letter and the papa diva read the letter

**pa... ma. maybe when you open this letter the diva no longer exists. I just want to say sorry if all this time the diva is just a burden mom and dad.. diva is just a burden on the family. honestly ma pa. I miss your affection. I envy the diva and brother divo who got your affection. ma. pa.. I love you guys I never hated you guys. Even though sometimes I feel angry with papa and mama because of the affection that papa and mama give the same deva and sis divo but diva, but diva, do not get it. I want to be useful and make papa and mama happy just once. if with deva health can make you happy then I willing ngedonorin kidney I make deva.. GOODBYE MAMA PAPA. do not cry the departure of diva. diva does not want to be a burden mama and papa again.. I LOVE MAMA PAPA.. KEEP HEALTH.. AND SORRY DIVA..

- GREETINGS DARLING DIVA...

the diva's parents sobbed and rushed to the hospital..

diva: doctor! doctor!.. Where is my child?! (run screaming and crying calling the doctor)

doctor: are you the parents of the child?

ortu diva: where's the doctor?!

doctor; it's still there, sir, it hasn't been buried.

this kid wants to be buried

by his parents..

the old man of the diva cried sobbing to see the diva lying down and was no longer alive.

they called diva.they regretted and apologized with diva. they embraced diva. and continuously apologized because they had differentiated the diva..

but what is the power of all this has been too late. 😑.

free too, they regret that the diva has gone and is calm there.he does not need to be sad anymore because of his lack of parental love..... 😶˚˚·(˚ ≫ ≫ )˚˚˚·

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