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02. Birthday words far from my life

I'm meiza zahra, a teenager who this year I'm 16 years old.I don't know what the god of the day of birth is?, you know?,but why do they always celebrate their birthdays happily and surrounded by people close to them while giving boxes of different sizes there are large, medium, and large,and small.what is the so-called birthday gift?.I don't know because I never received it. I also don't know how the taste of blowing out the candles on the birthday cake, I don't know because I never received it,receiving gifts and congratulations from people because every birthday I am all ordinary nothing special no cake no congratulations let alone a birthday gift. I used to dream of people around me saying happy birthday to me.. but now open it again that I hope now I just hope they can remember my birthday only I've been very happy..I just want to congratulate you as a gift..

but what I can do. I'm used to myself even more comfortable alone than being in the crowd.I'm used to all this.I don't care anymore.I'm tired of this life.. during these 16 years of my ordinary life there was nothing interesting to tell me. I just lived a very ordinary life.The things I used to do were just studying, learning, and doing,doing homework and other things that we usually do to live.of course you know what it is. I never feel the warmth of family, friends, and people closest. I don't know what the purpose of life is??why do I have to live??the question always comes to my mind and mind.Ter sometimes I think life is unfair.But I can what? want to change this destiny? this leaves this life? I can't all that is out of my control.Honestly sometimes I envy my friends who consider life is a game of bodo time.. I also want to be like that but I can't.. Have you ever felt helpless and useless?? that's what I think I feel I'm so cowardly and I'm so stupid.. I'm selfish I want to be happy like my friend, live life without having to be a burden. isn't that such a selfish thought? I've always convinced myself that life is full of hard trials so I have to be strong.The world is hard where good people are always bullied.. people just want to win want them selfish they don't care in any way the most important he is in power which is important he can oppress and humble people who live his simple life/they only look at the status of power and wealth.they will do everything by 3H.

HALAL

ILLICIT

so it can be said here to prey or be preyed upon, but not everyone is so there are people who are so good that they are looked down upon. we can do good and also do bad but we must first know which people should be treated well and which people should be treated badly.. so you must act according to your state of mind and heart. multiply doing good because it will benefit you from doing evil "what we plant is what we will reap" always do good guys.and protect those who are oppressed as much as we can😇😇

sorry if this story is not too interesting.but this is just the thing that is in my mind and heart.thank you for reading it❤.

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