Crying To The Moon

I'M SELF-AWARE

Monday is the beginning of a saturating day. Oh my God, I had to go back to my routine to study in a class I didn't like. That day we were all at the school ceremony, I lined up at the very back of the line due to misfortune. I'm in line with Jack and Linda and Vani.

Huh shit thought I in my heart should line up near them, not at all a good start. I heard the three of them giggling about what they were laughing at. It had been half an hour, and I was hungry, because I had no time to eat breakfast. My head is a little dizzy in the sun. But all of a sudden I saw Linda was very pale, I didn't ask her I'd let her know what I cared about. I stood up and tried to hold on until the ceremony was over. But when in the middle of the ceremony, I saw Linda who was very pale suddenly fainted and fell to the ground. At that time, classmates also bothered to seek help to be taken to the UKS. I just kept quiet pretending not to know, Jack looked at me cynically while carrying Linda and I slapped her with a sine look. All right, he thought I was satisfied because he fainted. Hahaha let me not be evil, I just don't want to help him alone.

After nearly an hour of ceremony, we all entered our classes. I was alone in class and with no one to accompany me. All my classmates they were busy chatting with each other, and seemed to care less about me sitting alone. No one asked me to talk. I just kept quiet and watched them. I know, this is very uncomfortable. Jack is still not seen returning to class. Since the teacher hasn't arrived yet, I went to the cafeteria to buy breakfast. The canteen was located in the front area near the park and to get there I had to pass the classes and the UKS room.

I walked in a hurry and someone pulled my hand hard. I turned my body upside down and tried to release the grip on my hand.

"Elena, are you satisfied to see my boyfriend pass out, huh?" ask Jack suddenly

"What the hell are you, let go of my hands quickly."

"No, I won't let go of your hand before you tell me why you didn't help her when she passed out. And why are you throwing a cynical look at me ? You're satisfied he fainted, are you happy?quickly answer me, stupid Elena."

"No, I don't have a feeling of satisfaction if he faints. I'm used to it, I just don't want to help her. Many people have come down to help him, including you. So why would I bother to help her. I won't be considered really, I'm in class as if nothing." I replied with a satisfied smile.

"Jack, I won't beg you, nor will I apologize to you at any time because I wasn't wrong. The one who should apologize is you, you often scorn me, scold me, and laugh at me. You are aware ? Actually, that's weird for all of you. You are also a weirdo, you always look for attention in everyone. With your stale sense of humor, or with your totally unfunny demeanor. Now you want to be the bad luck hero of your arrogant boyfriend ?! Now let go of my hand."

"How dare you fight me, you freak. Just look I won't stay silent, I'll definitely get back at you as soon as possible" Jack said, releasing his grip on my hand

Jack let go of my hand. My hands are red and painful. But I didn't care, I kept walking to the school cafeteria and bought two loaves of bread.

Arriving at class, almost all my classmates looked at me, I just bowed. What is my fault, I thought to myself. I opened my bag and took out my textbook. The teacher arrived at the class and the class became quiet. This time it started with a math lesson. My teacher explained the material, and occasionally told some students to come forward, working on the blackboard.

I daydreamed, suddenly Jack raised his hand and said to the super killer math teacher that I was going to come forward to work on the problem.

Oh no, Jack pranking me, I can't do that, I really don't know what the answer is. Jack looked at me with a cynical smile. I slowly came forward trembling as I wanted to cry. I took the marker and saw about it, I tried to work on it. But baby, my answer is wrong. My teacher scolded me in front of my friends and I was so embarrassed. I just fell back on my bench. I saw Jack, Linda, Vani and Cipta all laughing at me slowly.