Confession Talk's

Hope And Feelings

Hami stared at the white room, his gaze could not be separated from a girl who was now lying weak with a pale face and a body wrapped with bandages on her body.

Hami plays back his memory when Heera is challenging death, even he had time to protect Hami and try to make Hami not worry about him.

"You who used to love to kill, now you're the one who's been killed. Remember every sin there will be someone to repay, congratulations to your death Lee" said the word continues to revolve in Hami's brain without intending to disappear even for a moment.

"The fallen will be very happy if they fall quietly, not even thrown away and trampled until no one hopes that he will return to stand on foot" Hami said softly as he looked at the unconscious Heera.

"You are beautiful, only they look at you one eye, without thinking that there is a wounded heart, and fragile with time and destiny that continues to scorn you to sin"

"Lee Heera, please hold on, because there's still someone who wants you in the world, and stretch out his hand for you to stop by, please don't go Lee Heera"

 

It had been about a week that Heera was unconscious and made Hami even more worried, a few days ago there was someone who happily donated his blood to Heera and made Hami also his father to be a little relieved, apparently, someone still cares about him.

That week Mingyu was also made to worry about Heera's absence at school, coupled with Hami who never went out of class and always looked empty in the future, Mingyu and friends of Hami's friends worried about the girl of Japanese and Korean descent.

Mingyu and Hami's classes were next to each other, making it easier for Mingyu to meet or supervise Hami.

This morning Mingyu was already determined to meet with Hami, she walked into her class to put the bag then she came out towards Hami's class.

From outside the classroom, Mingyu can see the dreamy Hami as is his last habit.

With wide strides Mingyu walked closer to Hami's table, of course Hami was stunned to find Mingyu walking closer to him.

"Hami can we talk?" Mingyu looked at Hami with eyes that demanded that Hami must obey his wishes.

Inevitably Hami obeyed the will of Mingyu and at this time they were in the rooftop, and all they did from earlier was sit down.

"What's wrong?" hami asked with an air of no friends.

"Heera why isn't this week coming in?" mingyu asked awkwardly when she knew the response Hami had given.

"It's none of your business" replied Hami sarcasm.

"It's my business because I'm a friend of Heera's as well" Mingyu tried to defend herself.

Hami looked at Mingyu lightly and humbly, as if he did not believe and did not want to believe what Mingyu had just said.

"Since when? What proof? Don't you exist? Please don't dream that you're friends with Heera, Heera even always cares about me as her best friend, how can she accept you who isn't even who she is" Hami asked in a condescending and cynical tone, I don't know if Hami felt unacceptable that Heera was friends with anyone other than herself, she felt like she had been betrayed.

"Yesterday night, I accidentally met Heera and had a little chat, and when I offered myself as her friend, she accepted me and made me her friend from then on, he even smiled at me, do you still not believe it? If you don't believe it then just ask Heera!" Mingyu tried to defend himself back.

"HEERA WON'T BE FRIENDS WITH ANYONE BUT ME!!!" Hami shouted making Mingyu flinch in shock and retreated one step back.

This was definitely not the Hami he had known all along, as the Hami he knew was a graceful, shy and extremely gentle person, as well, he does not know if the other personalities in Hami are very creepy and look like someone who is very rude and has a big ego.

"Why can't I be friends with Heera?" Mingyu asked with a heart and kept her distance when she saw Hami's hostile response.

"Since Heera will only be friends with me, even if she doesn't consider me anymore, then I'll make sure no one can be friends with her including you KIM MINGYU" Hami suppressed his every word and made Mingyu shudder in horror with Hami currently before him.

"Until now, I'm the only one who will be his friend, only I will protect him, and I'm the only one in his eyes" now Hami's tone turned soft with a clear look.

"Why.hiks-" wait if Hami is crying at this time.

Mingyu looked at Hami who was holding back her cries, as it appeared that her body was now shaking violently.

"Why are you Evil has taken Heera from me, even though torment, I have tried to make Heera look at me again, but torment, still can't, and you're not who Heera hiks is, why can you take all of Heera's attention, why did you take Heera, WHY?!?!" Hami was crying.

Mingyu never knew that Hami had fought to death so that Heera's entire attention would only be directed at him, but his efforts failed because Mingyu who arbitrarily seized the position of Hami as a close friend of Heera and of course Hami did not accept it.

Mingyu hugs Hami and apologizes repeatedly, she feels very guilty to Hami for having snatched away her best friend, but Mingyu also tries to befriend Heera because she is curious as to who Heera really is. Yeah, just curious.

After Hami had calmed down, Mingyu let go of his embrace and they returned to their original position of sitting down without wanting to continue.

Heera looked at the sky with a sad look and of course a swollen face because of crying.

"May I be selfish? I want you to just look at me, look at me, smile at me and berate me. Is it really hard for you to come back to think of myself as existing and important in your life. I really don't want to be a friend who gets hurt even though the pain I'm experiencing is not as painful as the suffering you're going through" Hami sat in and then the clear liquid fell back from Hami's beautiful eyes.

Mingyu continued to observe Hami, whether it should be as fast as he continued to cry, even though Heera was just friends what was wrong.

"Don't you want to go back to class?" mingyu asked who was not responded by Hami.

Mingyu was silent and looked straight ahead again, actually if he wanted to he would leave Hami only if he did that, actually, he would get trouble from both Hami and Heera and he didn't want that to happen, and his plan would also be a waste if it were to happen.

Say that Mingyu is evil and heartless because she has such intentions because it is the true nature of Mingyu.

Mingyu was actually a nonchalant, cold, indifferent and unfeeling personality, he was also someone with high curiosity.

And because Heera's attitude seemed different from the other students made Mingyu's curiosity run high.

The break bell rang but there was no sign that Hami wanted to leave the place.

The careless Mingyu stood up leaving Hami alone and Hami also seemed unconcerned with Mingyu who had been lost behind the door connecting the rooftop with the stairs.

Lama Hami was silent with a position that did not change at all, the rooftop door opened and again showed a Mingyu figure walking towards him with bread and a box of strawberry-flavored milk.

"For you" Mingyu offered Hami the bread and milk he had bought.

There was no movement from Hami that made Mingyu so self-conscious about Hami's behavior.

Just as Daja Mingyu wanted to open his voice, Hami spoke first and interrupted Mingyu to close his mouth again.

"Mingyu, what kind of person do you think I am? Please be honest" said Hami.

"I thought you were a sweet, kind and friendly girl, but after seeing your attitude, I thought that you were also someone as hard, possessive and selfish as possible" mingyu replied in a doubtful tone at the end of her sentence.

The two fell silent again and no one wanted to open the conversation, either Mingyu or Hami.

 

In one of the rooms in the hospital was a girl who was lying weakly in bed and did not intend to open her eyes or move her limbs.

Next to the bed was a faithful High School man waiting for the girl to wake up from her long sleep.

"When are you gonna wake up? Are you going to leave me alone and be ostracized by them? Didn't you promise to take care of me? Are you going to deny it, Brother Heera?" the man named Lee Hanwoo looked at his brother.

He held Heera's hand while it was held unconscious, carried Heera's head and moved it like it was stroking her.

After being satisfied Hanwoo lowered his hand Heera gently stroked the hand that was usually used to protect him from the torment of his parents.

Hanwoo hated the situation where he had to see Heera lying unconscious in a hospital bed and it took weeks for Heera to wake up, and Heera became like that too because of her brother who had his own grudge with Heera.

"There was a time when I was weak to see my loved one get hurt and I promised I wouldn't let my little Hanwoo get hurt" the memory continued to spin in Hanwoo's brain which made him shed tears.

Heera rarely went to the hospital but once Heera was admitted, it would be a long time for her to leave.

Heera was in the hospital for at least two months because of the deep wounds, even Heera had arrived at the surgery several times.

Hanwoo realized that Heera was like now because of her, the older brother held a grudge also because of her, and the thing Hanwoo hated the most was knowing that Lee Heera's true weakness was her.

Since childhood Heera always protected and defended himself from the tantrums of his father and mother, even his brother, and his brother, Lee Hanyuk was angry and whined to Heera that he should stay away and not deal with Hanwoo anymore but Heera refused on the grounds that she was sorry for the small and weak Hanwoo, it made Hanyuk angry and intended to repay Heera for ignoring him.

"May I regret meeting you? Can I be disappointed to see you smile? And may I cry to see you who's always been tormented?-" Hanwoo shut up for a moment to stare at Heera's tightly shut bead of eyes.

"I'm so sorry to have been met by an angel like you, I'm disappointed at the fake smile you've always given me, and I'm so sad when you risk your life because of me, why do you have to be my brother" Hanwoo lowered his head deeply while still clasping Heera's hand tightly.

Hanwoo's heart was now very sick from seeing his beloved brother never wake up.

Crying is the only thing Hanwoo can do right now, he just keeps saying that he is in the game and can make Heera heal just like that.

The doorbell rang when Mingyu wanted to get out of the school area and Hami pulled her and forced her into her car.

Mingyu initially refused but Hami had already pulled Mingyu in and the car they were riding in drove in the direction that was definitely opposite to the direction of Mingyu's house.

"Where do you want to take me?" Mingyu asked who was a little angry at being pulled over by Hami.

There was no answer from Hami and it made Mingyu snort dislike, neither Heera nor Hami turned out to be completely no different Mingyu thought.

The car they were riding stopped at a hospital, Mingyu was of course confused as to why Hami had brought him to the hospital.

Hami tells Mingyu to get out of his car and tells Mingyu to follow him.

"Heera" that one word managed to make Mingyu surprised, why could Heera be sick? That question filled Mingyu's brain at the moment.

Hami stopped at one of the hospital wards that Mingyu believed was where Heera was being treated at the moment.

Cklek~

"Heera I-" Hami's words came to a halt when he saw someone else in the ward Heera occupied.

"Hanwoo?" the one who felt called turned his head and found that Hami was also someone he did not know.

"When are you here? Are you truant?" hami asked who realized that Hanwoo was not wearing a uniform like him.

Hanwoo just nodded then looked towards Mingyu with a look of astonishment, Hami who knew that immediately opened his voice.

"Include him Kim Mingyu, Heera's classmate" Mingyu bowed to give her a greeting.

"Mingyu introduce him Lee Hanwoo, se-"Hami hasn't finished speaking yet but Hanwoo interrupted him first.

"Sister Heera's boyfriend" Hanwoo cut off before Hami finished his words.

Both Hami and Mingyu were similarly shocked by what Hanwoo had said just now whereas Hanwoo himself seemed unconcerned by Hami and Mingyu's reactions.

Hami who had just realized that Hanwoo said that because Heera also put on an ordinary expression again while Mingyu was still cool in his mind.

Hami hit Mingyu's arm so that he would stop daydreaming, while Mingyu who was daydreaming was of course surprised by Hami's treatment.

"Hanwoo can come out for a minute?" hami asked heartily because Heera's sister really does not like to be ruled except by Heera.

"Hmm, I tipped Heera, I want to go home" with that Hanwoo came out of the ward occupied by Heera and told Hami who was surprised by Hanwoo's response.

Hami thought that Hanwoo would refuse his orders as usual, because other than not wanting to be ruled by others he also definitely did not want to be far away from Heera.

Let's say that Hanwoo is the type of sister who tsundere with her brother, because it is in fact like that.

Hanwoo was the type of child who was the most difficult to express his emotions because of something, so Heera preferred to be with Hanwoo rather than with Hami.

Hami blinked his eyes many times then he realized with his attitude just now, with that Hami turned his body towards Mingyu and apologized, after which Hami looked at Heera who was still reluctant to open his eyes.

"Are you bringing me here because of this?" mingyu asked to make sure.

"Aren't you wondering where Heera is now?" now Hami asked back.

Mingyu scratched his nape that was not itchy from being confused to answer what and Hami seemed unconcerned by Mingyu's attitude.

"Is it okay to bring me here?" mingyu asked in the end.

"Indeed why? Didn't you just say that you were Heera's friend, so what's wrong" it was Hami's answer that made Mingyu fall silent again.

Mingyu turned to look at Heera just as Hami was doing right now. Heera's calm face made her think of someone, the person who once filled almost the entire space in her heart.

Hami moved from his seat and it surprised Mingyu who was seriously watching the unconscious Heera.

"I want to go to the toilet first" said Hami then moved out of the ward.

Mingyu looked at Hami's departure and then returned to observe Heera's calm face.

"Nobody really knows who's doing the ruse here. The same of us want to satisfy an ambition with the same path of completion but very different goals"

"You know about my ambitions and I don't know all about you, it sounds weird but I'm starting to hate you"

"You're too similar to her Lee Heera-" Mingyu muttered.

"But may I hope that you'll be okay? At least I still sympathize with you" with that Mingyu moved out of the ward occupied by Heera.

While Hami himself is still loyal to be in the toilet, more precisely he is now faced with a large glass that is installed neatly in the toilet.

Hami actually still did not accept Mingyu being friends with Heera, but he was more strange with Heera's attitude that easily accepted Mingyu as his friend.

During this time Heera always rejected every student who wanted to be her friend, no matter their attitude sweet or missed good, because indeed Heera had her own reasons not to be friends.

For example, like Heera's ketkel named Kang Taebin, he used to always be sweet and considerate with Heera so that Heera wanted to be open with him even she always followed Heera at school, but after learning of Heera's true identity and getting the threat Taebin finally starts to stay away from Heera, it's just that Hami sometimes caught Taebin watching Heera from afar of course.

Hami thought that Heera wanted to be friends with Mingyu for sure because of something she was so afraid of, but could it be because she wanted to trap Mingyu for playing Heera?

Hami's head felt dizzy from thinking about it, he washed his face then came out of the hospital toilet.

 

In a magnificent mansion there is a young man throwing all the goods in his room brutally until the whole room looks like a ship broke or even worse than that because the entire room has been all damaged. 

"FUCK YOU LEE HEERA!!!" his anger to make both parents disturbed with a thunderous voice belonging to the child.

The young man then sat on his soft king size mattress and tried to neutralize his anger.

"For this time I'm grateful that you can still live Lee, I'll always take the time to play with you, just wait for Lee" after saying the word, I'll always take it, he walked out of his room to meet his parents.

Lee Hanwoo was in the hospital rooftop, he had lied to Hami that he would return to his house, indeed who wanted to be at home that was a crazy psychopath.

In addition, Hanwoo did not want to go home because he did not want to hear the babble of his parents who always compared him to his brother.

Hanwoo admitted that he was the most useless child among his family, indeed, which child is happy when he is used and demanded by parents to kill innocent people and who have committed great sins, but isn't killing also a huge sin?

It was getting dark and Hanwoo still felt at home in the rooftop without feeling the slightest cold, because he had been used to it since childhood.

Hanwoo used to always run away from home to avoid useless babbling his parents, and his habit is what makes him always wander in the dark and also the cold of the night, but that's exactly what Hanwoo needed.

For so long he was on the rooftop leaning against the wall, until a notification on his phone interrupted him.

Hanwoo ignored the notification which was actually a message from his older brother, Lee Hanyuk but it seems Hanyuk really wanted to bother him deliberately proved that he just kept sending messages to Hanwoo.

Hanwoo continued to heed the message from the brother to a message that made him quickly get off the rooftop and run towards the Heera ward.

Ordered to say that her brother is currently in the hospital or rather in the ward occupied by Heera, Hanwoo is very worried if his brother will try to kill Heera again.

Brak~

The door opened violently and the first thing Hanwoo saw was completely incompatible with what he was thinking at the moment.

He looked at Hanyuk who was sitting in the chair while holding Heera's hand and don't forget the glare he was looking at for Heera.

Hanwoo walked towards Heera with a flushed face due to restraining emotions, he threw out Hanyuk's hand which had been holding Heera's hand.

"DON'T YOU EVER HOLD BROTHER HEERA'S HAND!!" He was silent when his sister snapped at him.

"Aren't you happy now that you've made Brother Heera come back to this damn place? Now what are you doing here? Do you want to kill Brother Heera? You are indeed\-"

"Indeed why? I'm here because I want to meet my cousin, can't I?" Hanyuk cut a word from his sister.

"Since when did you consider him a cousin? Didn't you just consider Brother Heera a toy?" Hanwoo said with a dismissive tone.

Hanyuk laughed at Hanwoo's words just now, as if he was not provoked and considered his sister's words were all on target, but if to assume Heera's cousin maybe Hanyuk had to reply to his sister's babble.

"Didn't you see yourself? You don't care about Heera and you prefer to play with your phone, what do you call Heera's affection?" reply Hanyuk who was also underestimating Hanwoo.

After saying that Hanwoo suddenly fell silent and could not say anything else, his brother was right if he was more cool with his phone than listening to Heera speak.

Quite a long time silence dominated the two until the sound of a notification from Hanyuk's phone broke the silence.

Hanyuk hurriedly opened his cellphone and clearly stated the name of the father on the screen who told him to go home immediately.

Hanyuk re-entered his phone after he finished replying to a message from his father and then smiled lightly at Hanwoo.

"You're right that me, dad, and mom just think Heera's a toy, so I'm here to make sure that my toys are okay" Hanwoo tries as hard as he can to hold back his emotions.

"See you to my sister, I hope you're home today" with that Hanyuk stepped out of the ward and told Hanwoo who tried to die to not be provoked by his emotions and also Heera who was still lying weak in a hospital bed.

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'No one knows how someone will feel. Two friends who feel mocked and a sibling relationship are vulnerable due to problems. Finally there will only be hope that tells a feeling that is not reciprocated, also regret that intersects with being too hopeful for a feeling"