CITY SITE: ALPHA & OMEGA

Episode 5's

Barry: How long do you not want to see me? It's a week Megs. We need to meet.

Omega nanar looked at the screen of the phone which now displayed a message from Barry. Already a week after the incident ‘Barry was rumored with Gracia directly on radio’. It's not that Omega doesn't miss or don't want to solve this problem with Barry, but he doesn't know how to deal with all of this.

The one thing he has in his life is to know how to end something when it starts. The decision to start with Barry he chose with only one path of completion. Of course the wedding. Unfortunately, Barry didn't seem to think the same way as him.

Omega hates knowing that she must prepare herself for a different settlement in her relationship with Barry. Which woman will be strong in a relationship that contains only insecurity, no confidence, even no trust in her partner? No exception

Omega. It took him three years to realize that he was not a strong woman who could be slammed, trampled, hugged, and then knocked down again.

But this is Barry.

Barry, who for five years has always been by his side. He is the first boy-best-friend she has ever had in her life. When they were in New York, Barry was the one who always entertained him. Omega never told anyone, but the decision to go to New York was actually an escape for him. Escape from a dark shadow.

There was once a time in Omega's life when he entered into a condition called first love. He was too young and naive at the time. Forgetting that he should always know how to end something when starting out. Omega is not ready. He forgets how to end his first love and is forced to be trapped in a relentless nightmare at the time.

Run.

And Barry made him stop.

Ironically, at this time Barry actually makes him want to run. Omega cannot stop.

The only thing that prevented him from running away from Barry was the existence of the man in his life. Barry is a well in the mirage for Omega. Like when you walk in cold snow then find a warm, ownerless outfit at the end of the road. It's also like a rainy day while you want to go home soon. Barry's an umbrella you found not far from where you're sheltering.

He's not home. He's just an umbrella.

The umbrella you keep at home. Or an umbrella that you will eventually take with you anywhere.

Barry's not his house, not his goal to go home. Unfortunately, he needs Barry to get home. Omega can't be without Barry. Rain, cold, is he strong? At least with Barry, he would only be buffeted by the wind and slightly startled by the lightning.

The radio incident a week ago gave him some insight into this. New enlightenment on the analogy of an umbrella and a house. It hasn't come to a conclusion as to how she should choose between an umbrella and a house.

The answer is obvious. It’s home. Omega knew that, so he was afraid to answer Barry. He's afraid to meet Barry. Omega was afraid to end it all with Barry. Very afraid that the umbrella would be taken from him then he had to fight with the rain, cold, wind, and lightning alone.

Is he ready?

Omega phones vibrate.

Barry calling's.

The woman was surprised. He threw the phone to the bed next to him. Tears drop from the corner of Omega's eye. Head dizzy. Not now Barry, please. If he really wants to save our relationship, please don't let him come to me now. The corner of Omega's heart prayed expectantly. He sat down on the side of the bed and started crying again.

Crying has become a routine activity for him this week. Working like a robot in the office from morning until night, then coming home like a zombie only knows one way and once he gets to the apartment his first job is to sit behind the door and cry. Crying for himself. Crying Barry. Cry over the relationship and Omega is still crying now. After working with the office all day. Still the same, Omega came home and cried again. Tears came down as if they were endless.

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After crying, Omega decided to take a bath. Well even in the bathroom later he will definitely cry again, but at least there is a splash of water that can dissolve the cry with him. At least he's not very pathetic. Even looking at the shadow of himself he did not dare. It felt like they would even laugh at his figure who was so cowardly and could only cry.

An hour more Omega spent showering themselves with water, hoping the cold of the water would make his brilliant brain sane again. He dried up and started wearing clothes. Then his outstretched hand took another towel to wrap his wet hair. She never likes to dry her hair with a hair dryer.

Crying out. Yes, all of these activities are still done Omega while the fun. So stupid.

After finishing with the activities in the bathroom Omega opened the door and stepped out. As soon as the bathroom door opened he saw a scene that made him want to die alone. Barry's figure is near the work desk which can be directly seen from the front of the bathroom. Barry was sitting in a work chair facing one shaft with Omega. His eyes were staring at the Omega.

“I miss you,” said Barry full of pain.

I'm just as sad, Barry. Omega's heart whispered, but his lips were twisted. He just froze. Tears fell again from his sea blue eyes.

Barry just saw his lover full of wounds. He knew enough to not touch the woman who broke his heart now. They both knew that Omega would hate Barry so much that the man dared to hug him no matter how much Omega felt in need of that hug.

“Sorry I entered without excuse, but we really have to talk,” Barry said again. Ah, Omega realizes Barry's not wrong. Omega should not let him know the password to unlock the door of this apartment. Omega should also not give Barry an access card to enter the apartment whose elevator can only be entered by residents with the access card. Again. Omega always blames himself.

Omega slowly walked towards Barry, but not to approach him. He walked to the desk. He pulled the drawer on the left end. Barry who was sitting to the right of the girl had now turned his chair towards Omega.

Omega's hand heavily picked up an object in the drawer. Barry's house keys. Red apple hangers with NY symbols adorn that key. A symbol that always reminds the two of the city where they first met. Omega smiled bitterly stroking the red apple.

After being content to keep all the memories in it, Omega stared at Barry. Barry stood up from his seat. He pulled Omega to sit on the chair he had previously sat in. Now Barry knelt before the woman he loved so much.

“Meg...” Barry seemed to be starting to understand where this conversation was going.

Barry's eyes begin to dim with a lot of bitterness along with the sound of Omega constantly being heard, “I enjoy using that umbrella. The question is, if the umbrella lost the same rain and heavy rain made some of its sides hollow, do I still have to hold the umbrella? When the form of love I feel from you actually turns into something similar to the thing that haunted me first, what can it still be called love?”

“Everything changed, Megs,” Barry replied without certainty. He himself is confused. Confused by their condition this second. How did those who were so happy get to this point? No one in this couple understands.

“I need you, Barry. You're one of the reasons I can still breathe to this day. The pain in the chest that I have been experiencing all this time, can all be instantly gone with you right next to me. Just you, Barry.”

“Then I will continue beside you, Megs.”

“But I ruined myself, Barry. Surviving the same you made me a person who always felt small. Your world is too vast while I'm too weak to run along with your rhythm around your world. There was one point where I wanted to rest, but you kept running”

Barry's vision began to blur because tears had pooled in his eyes,

“Then we will both rest, Mega.”

“Then you will self-destruct, Barry.” Omega closed his eyes.

“Do you think you're the only one who needs me? I need you too, Mega. My world has never been the same since I knew you. My world will never be the same again if you go.” Barry spoke up. His voice vibrates. Himself frightened. Afraid of losing her love.

“I'll never go Barry, because I'm always here. You were the one who left all this time.”

Barry shook his head. Omega must be thinking complicated in his own way— as usual. Always like this. Omega always traps himself in his strange thoughts and Barry lags behind on his own. So Barry finally spoke, “What's the problem? You want me to announce that we're dating? Fine. I'd say that to the media, to my fans, if necessary to the whole world. Don't go, Megs.”

Omega smiled wryly. Barry doesn't understand or pretends not to understand? “That's not the case, Barry. You should know that.”

“Terus what? About Gracia? Okay, he always teases me, he likes me, but I don't like him and never do anything with him. All the news in the media is a lie. You can ask Leo, Iwan, Cloud, Ian, or anyone else. I never cheated.” Barry kept talking.

Unfortunately for Omega that is not the core of their problem. Omega stroked Barry's head. Letting Barry's stiff but always cold hair touch his skin. The same sensations, Barry. Omega talk plan, “You know that's not the problem we're talking about.”

Barry gnashing. His black eyes are red.

“We never changed Barry. You're still a good Barry, honest, who you are, and full of warmth. I am also still a Mega like this. Mega who always needs Barry's warmth, needs Barry's honesty. Unfortunately our world is spinning and constantly changing. The situation is not the same anymore as before,” Omega is still weak.

“So what do you want now?” Barry's voice sounded hoarse.

Omega pulled Barry's right hand. He opened Barry's palm and placed the key to the man's house there.

“I want to stop running, Barry. But you can't stop running. You have to keep running until you find home to go home and rest. I'm not going anywhere. I was always at this point, our farewell point. You can find me there whenever you need me.”

Barry shook his head and tears had already flowed out of his eyes. “How am I supported to live?”

That should be my question, Barry, not yours. Omega continued whimpering to himself in his heart. “You're a reliable runner, Barry. I thought all this time you made me stop running, but I was wrong. You accompanied me on the run and I gave up. We may run together, but we will never get to the finish line together because from the beginning our starting line is not the same.” In the end that sentence came out of his little mouth.

Barry's hand touched Omega's face. The girl lets him because she knows Barry is trying to photograph the last memories as much as he needs to stock up until Barry finds an Omega replacement. Without having to touch the figure in front of him, Omega had already inventory everything Barry had. His hair, his black eyes, his ears, his thick eyebrows, his nose, his little lips, even up to one earring in his right ear. M. The initial nickname Omega.

“You do not need to return my apartment access card and I will also not change my password. I know you're a gentleman who won't use things irresponsibly. If you need me, you can come anytime. As long as you tell me first and I am ready to meet you.”

Barry was only able to nod. It's all done, right? The woman he loved no longer wanted to fight for their story. What else is left? So Barry put the house key in his right hand back into Omega's hand and said, “You can also keep this. You’re always welcomed in my home and my world, Mega. I will continue to run and hopefully later at this point again I can meet you with new conditions that will not hurt anyone among us.”

Omega forced his smile.

“May I?” Barry asked in a stifled voice. Omega nodded before Barry sent him in the saddest embrace in the history of their story. It was so tight that Barry never willingly stopped Omega while he had to keep running.

Tonight it's all over. Three years Omega and Barry who will never be four. The three years Omega and Barry were supposed to be forever were finished. Not because they both lost, but because they both knew that to win they could not continue together.

Because winning is not about who you win with. Winning is about how you win without hurting others. Because victory in this relationship means that none of them should be hurt alone.

Barry will probably keep running and Omega can only stare at him from here. However

Omega is sure, by running, Barry will find that all this time he has lowered his speed just to keep up with Omega. Running alone will make Barry realize that he is not home to Omega and Omega is not home to Barry.

Their four years that will never exist will be an everlasting existence. In these four years they will always remember that the most mature decision was ever made at one time in their lives.

Omega crying. Ja. She's sad. Ja. But one thing Omega won't forget. She's relieved. Ja.

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