Choosing the Wrong Lover

Episode 4

The narrow and dark room was so stifling. Along with the sheer scale of Michael's deception of me.

I hugged my knees lamenting fate, but I did not blame God. This is all because of my own selfishness that is too ambitious to get the man of dreams without knowing the origin.

My heart kept screaming, remembering the words of Mom and Dad and even Bang Kasman as well. I am so sorry I never paid attention to all their words.

Oh Lord ... I want to go back in time, enjoy the simplicity with the family and accept Bang Kasman.

Michael, however, has not been captured. Some pictures of him I've handed over to the police. I clenched my hand, wanting me to deal a blow to him.

What is my power now, the happiness that I once adored even brought disaster.

***

Suddenly the police opened the cell for me. Not to be released but to attend the trial.

Arriving at the trial venue, various questions began to rush at me. My case apparently arrived at the KBRI. It seems that the House of Representatives was also present to accompany me and appeal, but got a rejection.

The judge ruled that I got a Hanging to Death Penalty.

My world is about to collapse right now. I just have to count the days to die. A circle of tears ceaselessly dripped from this fertilizer.

The trial ended, as if I still could not believe what happened. My heart and world are broken. The Judge's decision was like a flash of lightning striking this helpless body.

I was taken back to the cell, a room so stifling. My chest is as if squeezed by the walls of the cell barrier.

Closer to God, that's what I do every day. The rest of the time, I used to worship while hoping to get a miracle. If not, it is enough to ease the burden of my sin all this time.

My days go by with the fear of death. Time is ticking so fast, a week is like a day.

***

Today the House of Representatives visited me. He hugged me and promised to do all he could to save me from this punishment.

I nodded my head while crying. He also told me that my family had been contacted and they all knew about this news.

My crying is breaking. How devastated they have been to get this news. As for Bang Kasman, it might laugh at me who has hurt his heart.

Unable to hear about the family, I decided to re-enter the cell.

They will be disappointed to have a child like me.

I remember the Father who had heart disease. What if you hear this news?, various kinds of questions slip into my mind.

Now I have very little time left to execute. May I find a way to get forgiveness soon.