CHASING ANITA'S LOVE

Loving is painful

Anita stared at the clock of the wall hanging in the guest room she now occupied.Anita did not intend to go out of the room, she wanted to calm down and thought for a moment contemplating everything that had just happened to her.

Anita covered her face with both hands, "it seems that I have not been allowed to be happy," she mumbled softly.

However, Anita loved her husband very much, but today's incident was a slap for her, and Anita felt a deep pain.

"Am I strong enough to survive under these circumstances ." Anita shook her head .

The life lived was very complicated, only two years later he tasted happiness now had to suffer again, and this suffering felt heavier than he had been through before, Was he able to survive? Anita did not know, too many pieces of the incident that she had to arrange from the beginning in order to get a definite answer

Anita is silent about what happened a week ago when her husband didn't come home, and it looks like her best friend Lina knows but doesn't want to say it.

Anita knew Lina did not want to hurt her by delivering the news, but Anita regretted why she did not know from the beginning.Husband's relationship with LiLian may have been this one year, because LiLian was almost eight months pregnant.

Anita laughs softly in light of her foolishness not knowing who her mother-in-law really is.

There was no crying for Anita, there was only regret for her stupidity.

"I'm a fool who's not good at reading situations."

"I hope it won't happen again, I won't let them hurt me again, I have to end it my way, they won't expect it including my husband,let me look defeated and miserable in their eyes, let them look down on me, I will not care about them anymore, just end up here.

"Do I have to sacrifice my pride to fight for my husband's love" Anita murmured.

"But it will be very painful and face insults like this one afternoon."

Anita picks up her cell phone and immediately calls her best friend Lina.

"Hallo Anita darling," lina's right across there.

"Lina.I already know everything, even if you know it first from me, thank you for trying to keep my feelings from getting hurt, I like you who can keep someone's secret, I love you who can keep someone's secret,but you're wrong Lin as smart as if storing a carcass someday will definitely smell too," said Anita flat.

"An..not I mean cover it, I can't say it yet, I also just found out and it hit me a lot An, especially you," said Lina sobbing.

"Already Lin.I know what you mean, everything is clear, I already know my mother-in-law, I already know who LiLian is and I already know my husband."

"An...you're good, right?"asked Lina with a worried tone.

"Lin.if I say well, I'm a hypocrite, at this time I destroyed Lin, my body was intact, but my soul was broken to pieces, you certainly already know I'm Lin."anita answered while sobbing.

Only Lina is the place to complain when she wants, where she takes out the uneg-uneg in her heart, impossible on her mother, because it will make her mother suffer.

"An please don't cry, I can't hear it."Lina said with a raucous voice restraining her cries.

"Yes .yes.yes. Lin I will not cry, I must be strong, I will face all this and I will come out of this suffering and humiliation, turns out love hurts Lin."

"What do you mean Anita."

"My resolve is complete, I'll leave all this behind."

"Lin ..Keep those negative thoughts of yours, you think I'm going to end my life for the sake of people who easily destroy my dreams, not Lin, don't think that small, I'm still Anita who used to be, I'm still Anita who used to be,and so the untouchable Anita trusts me."so Anita was flat.

Lina breathed a sigh of relief, and threw away all the prejudices that were in her brain."Thank goodness, then, An, I'll calm down."

"Lin.will you help me tomorrow?"

"I'm ready to help you, my dear."

"Can you pick me up at noon tomorrow at eleven."

"Can .An.where are you going.?"

"Get out of this house!"

"What do you mean An,"

" I'll explain everything to you tomorrow, don't forget tomorrow at eleven, now I want to be ready first,bye...Lin." Anita disconnected the phone.

Lina just gawked at Anita's words, she didn't know what her best friend was planning, but she'll know tomorrow.

Anita put her phone on the bed and put some of her clothes in her bag and letter into her little bag.

"It's all done, from tomorrow I won't see you anymore" he murmured.

Anita looked at the picture of her husband,

"Bang, it turns out that loving you hurts a lot, I can't keep you bang, I know you're worried, but you should be able to choose, but it seems like you can't,and I can't fight to defend our love, maybe this is the best way so you don't worry anymore, you have to let go of one, I know you love me, I know you love me,and it's very hard for both of us, but I don't want you to be said to be an unfilial child to a parent, especially considered an ungodly child, forgive Anita bang, our fool got here."said Anita lirih.

Anita laid her body down, her thoughts drifting at LiLian and her husband who might be currently happy.

Anita smiled wryly, thinking about the life she lived.Two years will be a sweet and at the same time painful memories for her, deep wounds will be healed?Anita did not know, indeed, something painful and must be lived.

Anita hears her mother-in-law's affectionate call to LiLian which is deliberately broadcast so that Anita hears.

Her mother-in-law deliberately made her hurt, Anita already understood the purpose and purpose of her mother-in-law with LiLian.

"I will grant your wish, I know you want me to fall down, get hurt, and suffer, and you know I can't fight you, but remember every treatment I've received this time ,I will remember all my life, I cannot repay you, but I will rise in my ways, and you LiLian I know who you really are, I know your secrets, but I will not open your disgrace,people who love you will be disappointed later." Anita said.

Anita laid her body trying to close her eyes but could not, the shadow of her and Hardi during the quiet and peaceful household ark, deeply disturbed her mind

Remembering the intimacy they have been living becomes something very painful to remember.Anita is not sure to be able to walk on the path of tomorrow.his eyes are very broken, enough himself and God who know how his condition is today.

Anita determined, tomorrow she must be strong, either in front of her in-laws, LiLian, or her mother-in-law.

"Oh Allah, my Lord, strengthen this heart against all this" he asked, closing his eyes.