CEO And Ustadzah Tomboy

First Night of Joseph and Laila

(Pov Laila)

Tonight is the second night for me with the man who has always been the idol of the heart, who always filled my days and has now become my husband since yesterday, I have also prepared if He asks me to fulfill my duty as a Wife. But apparently, just like on my first night, he just said sorry.

"Laila, I'm sorry if tonight I haven't been able to fulfill my duties as a husband, I hope you understand my Prasasa" she said as she passed her pillow, then slept on the bottom floor with the atmosphere., and I can only watch him ignore me, or maybe He's tired.

I can only keep my grief under the blanket that wraps my grief and to my disappointment. I don't want to ask him first to fulfill my rights because I don't want to if He calls me Aggressive, so let time rule things out.

Yusuf has been my darling since I was in Junior High School, while He was third grade High School, We are in the same foundation. As He passed before me, it felt like a great rustle and, when He greeted me, it felt like a breeze was sipping into the recesses of my heart, but instantly I gasped when the one asked me at that time was Arini.

Arini is my classmate, We are close friends, I admit She is indeed very beautiful, because her father is indeed a Pakisfan, Arini is friendly, cheerful, and strong, and her caring is high.

She is the student with the best achievement , after graduating Junior High, She was put in Pesantren by her parents for five years, so I feel calmer, I feel calmer, for I must not see Joseph chasing Arini again .

Arini knew from a long time ago that I liked Joseph very much, because He was the place where I confided in Joseph about all my feelings. But after Arini graduated from Pesantren He instead taught in religious school, TPQ where I and Joseph taught.

Truly, I have raced almost all the time with the hot and envious condition of my heart to see Joseph approaching Arini in front of me.

How I'm not jealous to see Joseph approaching Arini, Arini is beautiful, I actually want to be beautiful like Him too, but it won't be Maybe, He's smart, I might as well, I might as well, but not as clever as He was, Arini had everything that could be ascertained He who Joseph chose, rather than Me.

In a condition of the heart that seemed always depressed by my own feelings, I could not control and take care of my health and my mind, and,, until I was treated at the Hospital for dropping too much thinking about it. Once again Arini was a good friend, I could never defeat him in any way except to make use of his kindness.

"Laila, why did you become like this anyway, your body was so thin gini, what makes you like this anyway, even though you are usually always cheerful and diligent in maintaining health , we used to do sports together." Guman Arini when he visited me at the hospital.

"Rin, you're my best friend, you know, if I've loved Ustad Yusuf so much, I've fallen ill because He always ignored me and ignored me Rin, I'm lacking what Rin, I'm missing, my love for her is sincere Rin, "I cried out softly to Arini, I purposely felt sorry for her so that He might love Joseph as Joseph approached her.

"Yes, I know how much you love her, but not just because of a man you get this acute bucin to go to the hospital because of love , Yuk you must rise up do not want to be defeated by the love "Arini encourages me.

"Rin, can you help me ? " my door

"What?" Arini said sambari held my hand tightly.

"Please help Me so that Ustad Yusuf will repay me" I have mercy on him.

Selfishly, I am selfish because I only care about my feelings, without wanting to know if Arini really loves Joseph too, which I know, I love Joseph very much, and Arini is my best friend, am I wrong if I ask my best friend to give up .

When Arini said that Ustad Yusuf would propose to him, I was shocked and it felt like my defense was weak, I couldn't do anything anymore. But as Arini promised, she told me that she would do anything to help me.

I was happy when Arini suddenly disappeared without any news, and he didn't even tell me where, obviously, Joseph's proposal was canceled, when he was weak like that, Yusuf who felt left by Arini without news came to me asking for the whereabouts of Arini, but for me this is precisely an opportunity for me.

"I don't know where Arini is, but maybe he went with his girlfriend because his parents didn't approve of him" I replied to Yusuf, and He just kept quiet, it appears that He has been devastated since Arini's departure, even when teaching He is often wrong, perhaps because Arini's mind is too much.

Now Joseph is my husband, but why do I feel I cannot have his body or his heart, should my marriage be like this next?, O Lord, help Me, please, soften my husband's heart so that He loves me and would be willing to take me as his wife.

O Lord, Is this because of my selfishness, Is there really no Me in his heart, Is his heart only filled with Arini, sometimes I feel hate Arini, why He can be loved by Joseph in such a way, Is his heart only filled with Arini, until He did not see how much I loved him long ago.

I also began to sink into my thoughts of lamenting my sadness, shrouded in disappointment that whack, until the dream also picked me up in the marriage bed this warm but cold spread throughout my heart and body.

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(Joseph Pov)

Ever since Arini left me, my life has felt like it was no longer intact, like my wings were broken, and no longer able to fly, especially when He was proposed and got the blessing of his parents in front of me, truly this heart was completely broken into pieces, as if a broken mirror that could not possibly be connected again.

Not yet I had time to treat the wound, I also had to get hurt again, like the piercing waves that hit the heart when I heard the news of Arini's marriage and was able to make me destroyed as destroyed.

About the dowry that anyone will be amazed to hear, also able to make me down, as if I was plunged into the core of the earth, yes.., it turns out that Arini prefers men who will not be able to compete with me, What is my day, which will never be able to turn the foam into a tapestry.

Now, when I have married Laila, I still cannot forget Arini, not at all.I know that by not fulfilling my duty to Laila, I sinned, but I will, how else, I know, in my mind and heart there is still Arini, I'm afraid Laila is disappointed if I mention Arini's name in front of her when I fulfill my duty,

I really sinned against my wife, Lalia, who I left in the delivery bed alone, 'cause I still need time to get over Arini, by moving away from her first, just to take care of his feelings and rearrange my heart.

"I'm sorry Laila, I still need time to be able to love you, I hope you understand, But I'm going to learn to love you because you're my wife."