Branching Love

Heart Diary

The next day during the break time Risda and Bintang went to the cafeteria again together when they were busy eating came Rita saying 'may I join you again".

"Please" answered Risda.

Um "allow it if I become your friend".

You can answer the stars.

Oh yeah Rita looks like you're not in the room with us huh.

Yes, I'm in room VII/2.

Flashback Off

The star pulled over his car on the beach to drip his heart that was mourning, pain and disappointment mixed into one.

The star came out of the car he was driving and sat on the front hood of the car while his eyes looked at the stretch of waves that were rolling and chasing each other.

The star did not think about his health at that time he let the night sea breeze gust over his skin. Hours later, the stars sat alone with empty eyes staring at the vast expanse of ocean waves.

In the heart of the Star continues to monologue with his own heart and fight with the contents of his own mind.

Risda Zay Akli you are my first love, every third of the night I always put your name up.

Risda I admire you in silence, I dare not express my feelings for you because I know you are not the type who easily falls in love let alone fall in love, you keep your heart so much that to avoid disappointment that may come later.

Risda I'd like it if your choice is not me as long as you're happy with your choice, I'd like it if your heart is occupied by it instead of me.

Risda is the first love of the Star, it has been more than seven years Risda occupies the heart of the Star.

The star let the water from its eyelids drip out drop by drop, after drop, there is no expression of regret from the heart of the Star why he loved Risda so much only a very disappointed feeling that became the mastermind of the sadness of the Star is a difficult feeling to classify his first love to love someone other than himself.

...*Jarum rotates in the direction of different numbers and then meets again in the same number. The changing day will still continue to bear the same name that is from Monday to Sunday, the changed day of the week, from week to month, from month to year, from month to year, from year to year to century. Memories and times are not always in place only memory memories will always cross the mind*. ...

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After the Star gave permission to go home Risda went into his room and sat in a chair where he used to contemplate or reveal all the peculiarities inherent in his heart. Risda opened her diary and a black inked pen for Risda scratched the ink on the white diary sheet.

Hiding the fact that this heart you already have is my choice, hiding the fact that I have loved you is not an easy thing to go through.

I should have been able to share this feeling in my heart with my friend but I did not do enough of this heart and God knows how much love has grown in my heart.

I want to express this love in my heart to you but I have no power

To look at you in silence without words as if to express a feeling, without speaking yourself is like having expressed love.

You know this heart used to freeze but now that it has melted with your presence, my heart has opened to love you.

I kept silent not because I was unable to express it but that I was at stake if I did, but do you know how loud and shameless I am with a bright skyline of your name and ask you to be my halal friend until the Hereafter.

You will not know, sir. It's okay, sir, I can understand him.

Blame me for loving you so much

It looks ordinary

Your wealth is not as rich as the sultans

And your physique is not as stout as my dreams

But

Your firmness and your religious understanding made me love you sincerely from the bottom of my heart.

Risda closed her diary with a smile on her sweet face, Risda asked all the expressions of her heart in the diary with the intention of someday if God wills, Risda's love was avenged by Albert, Risda, Risda will leave the diary to Albert as a sign of how much Risda loves Albert

Ahmad Alfarisi Albert Risda Zay Akli's first love. First love is beautiful not, but if it cannot be possessed it can only be admired in silence, how tormented the heart. That was what Risda felt at this moment.

Risda kept her diary and writing utensils to a special book and pen storage after which Risda tidied up the mattress in her room to rest her body again.

Risda lay on a mattress after previously covering herself with a blanket up to the chest.

Risda imagined at the moment of debate between him and Albert that always happens during a meeting zooming meeting in class, even trivial problems in the issue, small problems so big, so big, from large to complicated so that Risda dizzy and claimed to lose after that always Risda apologized for considering himself disrespectful and asked for clarification on the topic of the problem.

Risda laughed giggling alone in her room when she remembered the silly debate with a dim light accompanied from the living room that penetrated the lighting to Risda's room.

Risda wondered why every debate between him and Albert sir there was no other student or student who helped him, they all silenced like a statue that was silent without a sound.

Risda was surprised to find that it was late at night Risda hurriedly closed her eyes to rest.

Adhan shubuh mumbung melodious, which was echoed by muezzin in the mosque.

Sayup Adhan's voice sounded up to Risda's ear

Risda realized from the eight deep sleeps, Risda sat herself on a soft mattress in her place while collecting her consciousness again and waiting for the Adzan to finish in my seat.

After the adzan was finished being proclaimed, Risda hurriedly stepped into the bathroom to clean themselves and take ablution water for the shabuh prayer, after the Risda shabuh prayer continued its activities by reading the holy verse of the Qur'an, dhikr and be overcome by pouring all his heart into the Almighty.

The clockwise direction shows at eight in the morning when the online lecture activity began coincidentally this morning the lecturer who taught Mr. Albert the Risda's heart, of course, Risda is very excited about Islamic law courses because he can meet the idol in silence.

Oh sweetness my dear today, handsome speech that came out of Risda's mouth when the handsome face of Mr. Albert appeared on the screen monitor labtop Risda, good thing Risda did not meng on the microfont at the meeting zoom, so Albert didn't know what Risda was saying just now.

Astaqfirullah said Risda after waking up from his words just now

O Allah forgive Your servant, O Allah, please keep this heart from being beguiled by a momentary love. Oh God help me.

Risda was so afraid of his sin against God, but how else Risda was just a sin-stained ordinary man, who was still very stupid in managing his own heart, he said, though his own heart that manages it without the intervention of other people, but why should deviate melepelggar in the wrong direction.

Risda knows there is nothing wrong with falling in love, which is wrong if the love comes before the relationship that is pleasing to God.

That would be a mistake if not controlled well.

SERIATE.......