
“I want to love you simply,
with a word that cannot be spoken
wood to fire that makes it ash
I want to love you simply;
with a signal that the cloud could not deliver to the rain that made it no”
sapardi Djoko Damono -
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My name is Dhewi Nurul Aidina, my family environment includes a family environment with a fairly thick religious level, I do not like to be said alim, because it can only be judged by Him. Not judging from the mortal human eye.
Every day my body is always covered with scarves, want it at home or outside the house, my body is always tightly covered by the hijab.
And because my body includes a tiny then the hijab I wear can close up the hips.
Maybe because my appearance is what makes me look striking because in my village still relatively few who use this hijab model.
Similarly to the men, they became seen to keep their distance from me, they all became more respectful to me, maybe this was also the influence of my appearance.
Then my face, I think my face looks a little judes, I also do not know the effect of my hijab or is already innate from the sononya.hahaha.
But behind that I was pretty sure of the smile I had.
Almost everyone who has seen my smile will be stunned. Yeah, they all used to say that I had a sweet smile.
I am now in 3rd grade at Nusantara Islamic High School, one of the private High School who is quite accomplished in my district in Central Java.
Since Junior High I started using this model of hijab, so from Junior High I have never felt the name dating.
Although my parents never limited me to be friends with anyone whether it was a boy, girl, muslim or non-Muslim.
As long as my friend does not lead me to things that are forbidden by religion, then I may be friends, as a result I have some non-Muslim friends, and we all respect each other.
My parents were just simple farmers but quite respected by the surrounding residents, because my father was also a teacher who was quite old and often filled sermons during Friday prayers.
I am the last of 4 children, My First Brother Named Anton, he is married and lives in the next village with his wife.
My second sister Chick, I call her mbak iis, for a woman of her age in my village only mbak iis unmarried, does not mean she belongs to a spinster, not that she belongs to a spinster, it's just that he has a principle that one day will find a soul mate that suits his criteria, which is simple, hardworking, and loves his parents.
From that I also imitate the principle of mbak iis.
Then my third brother named Naji, he's the person closest to me even though we often fight because of trivial things, I'm sure that's how he shows his affection for me.
Every morning I have to go to school using public transportation, indeed the distance from my home to school is quite far, it takes 30 minutes and just arrived at the Terminal closest to the school.
From the terminal I had to walk to school and it took about 10 minutes. Actually it could have been from the terminal I was looking for a taxi driver to take me to school, but I also had to save pocket money for lunch and my return trip later.
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This morning I went to school as usual, but there was something strange, from last night my upper canaanite eyelids twitched until just before bedtime, and this morning my eyes suddenly twitched again.
If my mother said it was a hunch that I would meet someone important in my life, but my father said it was just a moving muscle, do not be too trusting of myths, he said.
Arriving at the Terminal I got off the public transport and started walking towards my school.
My steps stopped in front of a food stall, I saw a young man who was sitting leisurely with a coffee and smoking, his face like a stranger, but I forgot who he was, who he was, where have we met, and why do I seem to feel close to that young man.
Because of the young man I was walking while he kept thinking and automatically this footsteps became a little slow, as a result the school gate was closed tightly. Yeah, I'm late for school because I thought about this guy.
After undergoing the ritual punishment for being late, I also entered class, the first time in 3 years of High School I was late for class, I also remembered my mother's words this morning, that twitch in my eyes was probably a premonition for me to meet someone.
But who is he? Is he really the one who will give color to my life?
Today I did not focus at all on all the lessons, I was always imagined and curious, who was that young man this morning, who was, brazen new first look he even makes me fail to focus all day.
Arriving at home I immediately locked myself in my room, I also lay beautifully in my bed, while thinking about him.
From my assessment of the guy I gave him 8/10 from his looks, and from his physique, I think he's tall, definitely higher than me, and that's what I like. >////<
Then his face looked calm and radiated a wise aura even though I knew he was still my age but somehow he looked more mature than his age, and from the way he talked to his friend this morning I found out that he was a well-mannered young man, different from his friend who looked messy. The mysterious young man spoke and smiled with his friends, very gracefully.
Every memory of it I also remembered the main character of the Korean drama "Goblin" (Kim Shin) played by Oppa Gong Yoo.
I did not feel that afternoon I fell asleep until the afternoon before, thinking of a guy until he forgot to eat lunch.
"Wiiiiie, Dhewiie, look for Christina ahead."
Mom called from my doorstep.
"yes, wait, tell him to wait."
Christina Destie is my best friend's name from childhood, yes she is one of my non-Muslim friends, even though we are different beliefs, but we never dispute it, we also know the boundaries that we must take care of when together.
"Tumben played here des?,"
I asked to say hello to Desti, because it has been a long time since she had been home since she went to school outside the city.
"Yoi nih, tomorrow is Sunday and Monday is off at my school."
Desti answered with a mocking smile, because he knew my school was not on Monday.
The name of private schools is that, there likes a local policy that makes it different from other schools.
"Eh, Wik tomorrow afternoon maen anter me to Pipin Yok's house?"
Pipin is the name of the best friend of the Desti era of Junior High we three often play together. Even though Desti and I were not one Junior High, he often took me to his friends' house, so I also had many friends from different schools.
"Well, tomorrow is Sunday?, you don't go to church first po? Or want to skip it again first? hahaa."
"That's why I miss it, I'm going home from church." Answer desti with serious pretentiousness.
"Yo wes, tomorrow afternoon you pick me up."
I answered not lazily, because I was thinking of the guy this morning.
Her smile has not disappeared from my memory.
"Eh des, this morning when I left for school, in the front shop of the terminal, I saw a guy, and that makes me until now to think of his cake he is not a stranger, I've seen him, he is, but I forgot where."
"Po's handsome?" ask Desti with his comfort.
"That smile is like Gong Yoo's oppa."
I answered while embarrassed.
Desti couldn't hold back her laughter because she knew that I from Junior High included having affairs with guys.
I didn't know my mom heard my story the same.
"Tuh, right? Actually what I said, if the right eyelid twitches for a long time, it means you will meet someone who you have not seen for a long time, and maybe that person will change the course of your life."
"Ciyeeee, Dhewi has started to know a boy..."
Ejek Desti while laughing
"Gak papa kok wie.., if the guy is a real guy, I agree, as long as he's the one responsible like your father."
////flussh suddenly my face reddened hearing my mother's words just now.
"Your mother has agreed wik, you live, can remember who he is, not funny if you are dating a random guy??uhhhaha..."
Desti was still mocking me, then he said goodbye because it was getting late.
The next day at Pipin's house.
I last played to the flat house if not wrong class 3 Junior High, the house still looks the same as it used to. only the sofa chair looks new.
I looked at Pipin's acoustic guitar hanging in the corner of the living room.
Suddenly there was a memory from Middle School when I looked at the guitar, it felt like there was a special relationship with the young man yesterday that I saw.
"that's the guitar that used to be a pin?"
I asked Pipin to confirm my memory.
"Ho'oh, the guitar of Junior High, my father bought me a guitar for school work,
even now, I can't play guitar."
Pipin replied with a friendly smile.
Pipin is indeed a friendly girl, she always smiles at anyone, there are scars under the eyes of the cheeks, but the scar does not make her face look scary, even on the contrary she looks very sweet, but the scar does not make her face look, especially with his friendly smile.if I'm a guy, maybe I already have a crush on Pipin.
"Emang why tho wik? why are you suddenly using that guitar?"
Pipin asked me, Desti looked just as curious.
"No, but it feels like the guitar has a special connection to the guy I saw yesterday at Terminal."
"Huhahahahaha....."
Suddenly Desti laughed and patted my back hard.
"Cowok??"
Pipin asked curiously seeing Desti's laughing reaction.
"So gini pin, our sister the quiwik is again in love at first sight, the same random guy he saw in the Terminal pas want to go to school yesterday, from the day after school, my thoughts continue to be the same guy who looks like Gong Yoo" he said."
Answer desti while patting my back.
"Gong Yoo?? Kim Shin??"
Pipin asked while looking curiously at me.
"Random Gundulmu des, ancene bedhes arek iki"
I replied while slightly cursing to the desti who always mocked me, indeed from the beginning we have a special call, indeed,
I call him bedhes (monkey) Timuran Javanese because I used to live in Malang East Java, then the Desti often call me by the name of kuwik (quick) because even though I am a girl I have a running speed above the average girl my age, especially if it fits mango nutmeg in a neighboring house.
In my childhood and desti often scolded neighbors because I follow mangoes with boys.
But that was once, now I have no treatment for mango nutings anymore hehehe.
"Yes pin, his smile is very similar oppa Gong Yoo."
Answer me a little embarrassed.
"Keep, what does this guitar have to do with oppa?" pipin asked with a smile looking at me who was shy
"Don't know the pin it feels like this guitar has a special relationship with oppa."
I also remember the shadow of the past there were two guys who had borrowed this guitar, one fat tall, one skinny tall, one thin, and I felt sure that skinny guy was the young man I saw in front of the terminal that morning.
"In the days of Junior High I was the same desti ever come here, trus there are two guys, one fat tall, one skinny tall, they borrow your guitar this pin, they borrow your guitar, and I'm sure it's that skinny guy whose smile looks like an oppa. You want no pin?"
I asked expectantly for Pipin to remember as well.
....... Pipin and Desti were silent for a long time, trying to recall memories that were not important to them, but that was quite important to me. And I'm pretty sure of the strength of their memory, they're class stars from Junior High.
They always rank in the top 5 in their class. Although I am the same, but the difference is that they attended SMP Negeri 01, where SMP is a favorite SMP , while I only attended SMP Negeri 03 which of course rival classes are far different from favorite Junior High School.
"Maha...."
Finally the first Desti broke the silence with his savory laughter like cassava chips.
"Owelah. kuwik kuwik"
Answer Desti with a meaningful smile to me.
"Who's dhes?? pipin asked Desti because he was curious, because as the owner of the guitar but he did not manage to remember it.
"that you know, the Sukma is the same Akbar, I'm pretty sure it's them, because in the past of Junior High I was only a few times dhewi ngajakin here, and once again mergokin sukma ngapelin you, he asked to be escorted with Akbar, and when I came here, Akbar again maenin your guitar, maybe told the Sukma to add a romantic feeling when you say."
"Hahahaha really.."
Reply Pipin with a smile of his own smile remembered the old days,
sukma likes him, But even a little Pipin never thought of going out with the tribe, because Pipin had a promise with his Father that he would not be dating before graduating high school.
"I agree that Akbar's smile is pretty cute, but if he looks like Gong Yoo's oppa I don't agree, he's skinny first, like, don't know if now he's more handsome. "
Pipin replied with a meaningful smile to me.
"Hahahaha.. the same Akbar GongYoo, Far donk wiiik, Your eyes began to have problems huh?"
Ejek Desti
"Don't that dhes, whose name people fall in love with ya, like ***Cat Taste of Chocolate."
Pipin defended me, but I knew he was following Desti around mocking me.
From them I know that it turns out that Akbar is one of their same class and also it turns out that Akbar is quite smart among guys, he often entered the top ten in his class which contains selected students. His name is also a favorite SMP must be a heavy rival.
I was a little surprised to hear their story when it turned out that Akbar did not continue school and had to work in Jakarta to finance his sister's school.
Pipin recounted that he had recently met with Akbar's neighbor who was also a friend of his junior high school age who told him about the current state of Akbar.
The three of us were silent for a long time after Pipin selelsai told about Akbar's situation, I knew that at a very young age, Akbar had been given a great burden of responsibility for children his age.
But behind this pity, there is a sense of pride that arises from my heart, because I believe that Akbar is a responsible young man.
"No, your Gong Yoom oppa seems to fit your mother's requirements."
Suddenly Desti broke the silence with a mockery that was fixed on me.
Pipin Smiles meaningfully, while Desti complacently mocks me who is in love.
***
Monday tomorrow is the first day of enrollment at Islamic Nusantara High School, although I am not a member of OSIS, but I am often asked for help by teachers, either to just keep the school cooperative, but I am not, to approve students who arrive late, even tomorrow I am asked to help in the Admission Post of New Educators.
And Tomorrow is my first picket day with Wulan, my classmate.