Between Maghrib and Isya
Father's Will
After the hospital is done. We also left the hospital.
"Mamaa... ", I have not stopped crying while in the hearse
My mom just replied with a tight hug
After a long journey, we finally got home. The house I missed. However, this is not the kind of situation I want.
"Dad... We're home. I promised that we would go home together. Yes, Nara's father's promise has been fulfilled, but not with this condition that Nara wants. Ahhhh... Nara wants us to go home with a good father condition, we are the same as opening the door, the same as entering the goods. Nara wanted to hear my voice when I called Nara to help her with the suitcase. But why yeah, why did dad even go deluan. Where's dad's voice. Why did you leave without telling Nara", I said in my heart
Fardhu kifayah was done as soon as possible. Today my father will be buried.
The Prophet said in the hadith of Abu Hurairah RA:
عَنْ أَبِي هُرَيْرَةَ رضي الله عنه عَنْ النَّبِيِّ صلى الله عليه وسلم قَالَ: أَسْرِعُوا بِالْجِنَازَةِ فَإِنْ تَكُ صَالِحَةً فَخَيْرٌ تُقَدِّمُونَهَا وَإِنْ يَكُ سِوَى ذَلِكَ فَشَرٌّ تَضَعُونَهُ عَنْ رِقَابِكُمْ
"Go take care of the body. Because if the corpse is a righteous person, you have quickened the good for him. And if the body is other than the pious, then you have put the ugliness on your shoulders." (HR Bukhari no 1315 and Muslim no 944).
After we finished the bath and sholatkan, we went to deliver to the final resting place.
"Gue still can't believe it. Is this a dream?", I said in my heart while pinching the pinch of my hand to ascertain whether this is a dream or not.
I never let go of my mom's arms. My mother also certainly still can't believe that my father left so soon without saying goodbye.
"We're the same still doain dad ya baby. May my father be placed in the best place by Allah SWT", my mother said strengthen me.
"Yes ma", I'm still loyal to my tears
After the funeral was over, we went on a pilgrimage before leaving.
"Aayaaahhhh's... Nara kangen daddy. Nara apologizes, Nara was angry with her father, Nara never listened to the words of her father, Nara also apologized for the attitude of Nara who likes to make father angry. Nara always doain dad", say me while holding my father's headstone.
My mother hugged me back so tightly. "Udah darling. Nara has to be sincere dad yes let me calm down there. Let's go home" my mom asked
We left the place, but my cries were still faithful to accompany me.
***
The morning was the same, the sun was still shining from the east. But this morning I did not hear from my father. Usually we always have breakfast together, chat at the dinner table, rebutton smoothies. "Morning father" I won't say that anymore.
"Nara, let's have breakfast first baby. You haven't eaten since last night" said my mother
There is no reply from my mouth. I still look faithfully at the view outside the window. But it's more like imagining a time with my dad.
My mother went back into my room to bribe me.
"Nara Ayok eat first. I'll be sad when I see Nara's sick" my mom said.
"Ma... Nara kangen daddy. Why the hell did you leave without saying Nara first", whine me
"Nara reminds me of my father's last message to Nara. Nara should be able to learn more religious knowledge" continued my mother
"Yes ma. But Nara does not know whether or not to realize the wishes of the father", I replied
"Yaudah, nih Nara breakfast first yes", said my mother while feeding me
***
After a week of father's departure.
"Mama's nara wants to nanyak. Where does Nara want to go to school?", asked my mom
"Nara doesn't know yet" I replied.
"Nara remind dad of the message? How's it? Nara want to? That was my last wish, baby. Nara wants you to be calm and happy there?", explained my mom
"You ma, but Nara wants to go to public school ma" I replied
"Parent's choice is the best choice for your child. The pesantren belonged to your grandfather. So you'll be there safe, baby. Nara wants ya.", Pinta my mama.
"Well ma if that's what mama and alm want. Daddyh. Nara wants you to be happy there", I said a little pouty
"Thank you dear. Mama is sure Nara will also be happy to be in the theater later. Tomorrow mom will call umi Henni to be registered with the boarding school", answered my mom while kissing my forehead
"Well if Nara's there, who's the same mom here?" asked me
"You don't have to worry about your mom. Mama can take care of herself. Ntar mom can stay at home oma. Let this house of mama rentain let there be our income" explained my mama
"Oh that. Mama lives in an oma house that is still in this Surabaya area right?", Ask me again
"Yes, baby" answered my mother
"Oh yes ma. Nara wants to do a lot. What is it that I'm sick of?", I asked curiously
"Maybe it's time you knew the truth, baby. Actually, I have heart failure, baby. It's been a year ago that my father endured his pain, baby. I'm sorry we didn't tell you, because we were afraid you might come to mind. Yes, dear, the important thing is that you do not endure the pain anymore. We wish you all the best" my mom explained
"Mama... Why don't you tell Nara the hell?", ask me again while hugging my mom
"I'm sorry, baby" replied my mother
"Dad... Nara will realize the desire of the father so that the father is happy there. Nara will also look after Mama here. Nara believes that the choice of father and mother is the best for Nara", I say in my heart
"Parent's choice is the best choice for your child. Because the ridho of God lies in the ridho of the elderly"
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