
Hearing Indra's tone of voice that looked angry accompanied by worry that began to mix, Kinara lowered her head not wanting to look into Indra's eyes that looked so scary.
Rayhan stood staring outside the room where Kinara and Indra were quarreling and heard their screams, although Indra's intentions were good because he was so affectionate and worried about Kinara, but Rayhan still felt guilty for saying that to make the brother's sister at odds.
"Sister." Said Kinara softly, clear lips began to run down her cheeks.
Honestly Kinara didn't want to involve anyone in her problems with Tamara. Kinara thought this matter should not involve anyone else. Because, maybe Tamara does not want it, all Tamara hates is herself (Kinara), because all the problems that occur are starting from Kinara herself, he said, so in this matter Kinara hoped that others would not have to interfere because it would not solve the problem, because the root of all this was herself and Shan.
"Both Brother or Rayhan, you will not be able to solve this, because the hatred Tamara has for me has been very large and burning. The two of you will not be able to solve this problem, as this matter is only between me, Tamara and Shan. Brother take it easy I have no trouble finishing it, it's just that I need to wait for Shan because only Shan can explain everything to Tamara."Kinara half-shouted.
Kinara spoke again. "I beg you ! Brother, don't act." Kinara looked down sobbing full of pleas.
Hearing Kinara cry made Rayhan unable to hold his steps to enter the room, it was seen Kinara was looking down making his heart more bitter.
"I beg you not to interfere, let's wait for Shan to return ! let him explain everything to Tamara, please don't get involved with her enough me, I beg you ! I beg you !" Kinara said in the middle of her cries.
Seeing Kinara getting more chaotic Rayhan slowly approached and directly hugged Kinara.
He repeatedly kissed Kinara's head.
Kinara is a strong woman, no matter how complicated the problem is, as difficult as it is to face it she continues to advance alone without thinking of involving others even though it is her brother. Less than six years since Shan's departure, Kinara has always been under various circumstances and threats of hate speech from Tamara, but during that time Kinara managed to hide everything from Indra, the Big Brother.
The six years were uncovered after Rayhan came in and found out everything.
"Darling don't cry anymore !" Rayhan spoke softly as he continued to gently caress Kinara's head.
"You have to promise Ray, you can't get involved in this matter just let me be alone, I beg you ! please promise me !"
Indra yells. "The car is not..." Indra was about to deny Kinara's request but was instantly speechless when Rayhan signaled his hand asking for Indra to be quiet. Rayhan knew Indra would not agree with Kinara's wishes.
"Yes, well we won't interfere, but you have to promise, you have to take care of yourself Fine ! if you get into trouble or if Tamara goes back to acting outrageously, I beg you ! tell me everything, if I can't help you finish this at least I'm there to encourage you, support and encourage you Dear, I hope everything can be done soon," Rayhan said gently with Kinara still in his arms, occasionally he nodded lightly at Rayhan's request.
While Rayhan was easing Kinara's emotions, at the end there was not far from them Indra snorted annoyedly, his emotions seemed to be inconfirmable stirring in his heart.
Slowly Rayhan let go of his embrace then gently wiped away the tearful lines that had soaked Kinara's cheeks.
"Not crying ! now you go take a shower ! after that we go eat together." Said Rayhan gently and Kinara just nodded weakly, before long he left without looking at Indra who seemed still emotional to him.
After making sure Kinara left, Rayhan walked over to Indra, a streak of emotion emanating from his face, perhaps Indra was annoyed that Rayhan had agreed not to interfere in the matter that Kinara was facing.
"Ray, how's it going ? why did you even agree not to interfere in Kinara's matter ? are you going to let him face this alone ? aren't you worried about him ? are you going to let my sister just like that ?" Indra asked in an angry tone to Rayhan. But Rayhan knew Indra was not scolding him, Indra like this because he loved Kinara very much he was very worried about the safety of his beloved sister.
"So, sit down !" Pinta Rayhan while dragging Indra and sitting him on a chair.
"What Brother feels [worried] is also I feel it, but Kinara is also worried about our safety for it until this second he is trying his hardest to hide all this. In this case we must put forward Kinara's feelings, no matter how much she is the victim, if we act rashly Kinara will also get the impact. What I'm afraid of right now is that Tamara will become more and more so when we interfere in this matter, and maybe Kinara will be severely threatened, we need to think of the best way out. Kinara's right, we won't be able to solve this problem, because the root of this problem is Shan, while we don't know where Shan is. If we want to help Kinara solve this problem, the only thing we can do is find Shan." Obviously Rayhan, hearing that Indra was devastated and his emotions began to subside.
Indra shook her head small. "Ray, I can't believe Kinara hid this, she hid the problem for so many years, she harbored this alone. I was the closest person to her, but I never knew Kinara had this big of a problem." Indra remarks that end with a small massage of the corners of both eyeballs that almost dropped tears.
Some time Indra was still weakly bowed, soon Indra re-enforced his neck and said: "So what can we do Ray.?" Ask.
"We can only stand behind kinara until we find Shan" replied Rayhan.
"Well, I will soon find the man" Sahut Indra was firm and replied with a small nod from Rayhan.
...
"Honey," Call Rayhan from the doorway. Closing the door and then walking towards Kinara who was sitting in front of the makeup mirror, her gaze soared blankly in no direction. There, on that face Rayhan found quite a heavy burden.
Realizing Rayhan was walking towards him Kinara turned his head and first wiped away her tears.
Cuddled by the tiny dawn sitting on a chair, Rayhan embraced letting his ghost stand on Kinara's head. In front of the mirror Rayhan tried to look Kinara in the eye, but Kinara continued to avoid Rayhan's gaze as if hiding everything that could be seen through his eyes.
"Dear." Call Rayhan lirih.
"I'm sorry !" Rayhan. "I didn't mean to make you like this." Added Rayhan.
"Ray, I beg you next time whatever you want to say about the problem I'm facing, to whoever it is, please ask me first, I don't like other people interfering in my problems." Lirih.
Rayhan turned Kinara's chair around and squatted down in front of her. "But Darling Brother Indra is not someone else he is your brother he deserves to know this, you can't face this alone."
"But you saw for yourself, isn't he angry like that at me ?" Kinara Sela.
"That's because you weren't honest from the start, Indra's sister wasn't angry, she was like that just because she was worried about you." Rayhan softly said.
"Ray, I beg of you not to interfere in the matters of me and Tamara, do you remember what happened at the Villa? Ray I don't want that to happen again, please stay away from Tamara, don't look for trouble with her. You remember that braking ? I don't want anyone else to experience that, it's just me." Kinara looked at Rayhan with a pleading gaze.
Grasping Kinara fingers, stroked smooth then kissed lovingly. Staring at the eyes that were staring at him, Rayhan began to caress the smooth cheeks of Kinara.
"Dear I'll do it, but you have to promise ! you must be open to me whatever it is, never keep your burdens alone. Remember ! now that I'm here, right next to you, honey, you can't hide your problems. If you may, I ask you to share your whole life with me, be it happiness or sadness, can you ?" Pinta Rayhan's.
Kinara nodded while smiling in agreement.
Seeing Kinara smile back Rayhan was also happy. When she looked at the woman with love, Rayhan stood up and hugged Kinara very tightly, Kinara hugged Rayhan back.
Rayhan said softly: "Honey, I'm sorry ! because I have been sassy to tell your problems to Indra, everything I do because I can't see you being threatened by Tamara, I'm very worried about you, I'm afraid you're okay. I thought Indra knew about this problem, but it turned out that Indra was even more shocked than me." Rayhan took his arms, grabbed his hand and pulled the chair and then sat right in front of Kinara, holding Kinara's fingers again.
"Honey. You know ? Indra said with great sadness, I am the closest person to Kinara but I never knew that Kinara had such a big problem. You know, honey ? Indra's sister almost cried because she was worried about you." Rayhan said softly.
Hearing that Kinara looked down again, his heart seemed to be touched by Rayhan's words about Indra.
"Come on, baby !" Rayhan pulled the chair Kinara was wearing, brought her body closer and leaned Kinara's head against her. "Darling since when did you hold this issue ?" Ask Rayhan.
"It all started from the graduation of our class, I was still sitting on my eleven and at that time I was still close friends with Tamara, closer than family. I'm so happy to have friends as good as Tamara, we share, whatever I have Tamara deserves to wear and enjoy it and vice versa." Kinara Beber.
Kinara was still leaning on Rayhan's boat, that simple shoulder like the garden setitis of heaven that fell to Earth. The soft fragrant aroma of Rayhan's body so washed away and calmed the flower tub that grew there in the Garden of Heaven. The backrest is so comfortable, beautiful, cool and soothing to the heart and mind of Kinara, so very bright. Rayhan's soft hand caress was like a cold breeze in the arid field that continued to gently sweep away Kinara's overheated hair. When leaning there all the unrest, anxiety, fear, worry disappeared and disappeared without rest, everything felt light, everything Kinara could pass from Rayhan stay with him.
"Then what makes the closeness become tenuous.?" Rayhan asked softly, one hand still softening Kinara's hair.
"As you know. Shan, although it's not entirely her fault, but ever since Tamara knew Shan loved me, Tamara started to stay away. Tamara was crazy about Shan, she had liked Shan from the beginning when we went to school in the same school as Shan. That time...
Back flash.
"*Kinara please help me ! I can't help feeling this anymore, I really admire Shan, please help me, help me express my love to Shan."
"Why should you ask for all help, would it not be better to say it yourself.?"
"Kinara all this is too awkward, I can't, I can't say my love directly, let alone say love, just say hello I'm very difficult, Shan always makes me nervous Kinara."
"I'll help you, but don't blame me if it all fails, because I don't know what to do, I don't know what to like, what, and what we should do for the people I like, I don't know either."
"It's okay, the important thing is that you've tried, and most importantly, I want Shan to know that I admire him a lot."
"Well good, since I don't know what to do, tomorrow you come here and try to bring Shan a gift, impress Shan with your first meeting*"
Flashback.
"But fate did not go the way Tamara expected. That day, Shan declared his love for me, stating directly in front of Tamara who was ready with her gift and feelings. I was surprised when Suddenly Shan came to declare his love, I never knew that Shan liked me all this time and I did not expect that. Had I known Shan's feelings earlier maybe that day I would have chosen not to come to Tamara's aid, and this misunderstanding probably wouldn't have happened."
"You know, honey ? even if that day you don't come, Shan's feelings for you won't be prevented and Tamara will still find out too. I see Tamara overreacting to this, if she had known, that feeling would not have been forced, no matter how hard Tamara tried, Shan's heart would not have turned to her." Reply Rayhan.
Kinara straightened up then looked into Rayhan's eyes. "Where do you know that ?" Ask Kinara.
"Because that's how I feel right now." Answer Rayhan.