Behind the Grief

Chapter 5

The Shena POV

I just finished breakfast. During breakfast I still thought about the fate of my children. I'm sure they must have been looking for me this morning. I don't know what's going on right now. I'm sure my second son cried looking for me.

Which woman can eat when she can't see her child. Moreover, his children did not know his departure.

After breakfast, I want to ask permission to return to that house. I must see my children with my own eyes. I don't know why I don't believe them right now.

What I expect from them right now. I was still betrayed by them.

"Did I go to my in-laws' house?" I ask myself.

My relationship with my in-laws is pretty good. I felt that my in-laws were where I complained. Hopefully he can solve all these problems.

I was excited to go to Aunt Neli for permission for about two or three hours. After that I will finish my work here.

Luckily bi Neli let me go. From what I saw, bi Neli was a good woman. Looks like he is very close to this host to believe.

"You be careful, if anything, what's up with Auntie." Her speech.

"I'll be home soon bi." My speech.

"It's a fare to go home, auntie knows you don't have a fare to go home." Said Aunt Neli while giving a hundred thousand dollars to my hand.

"Thank you bi, I don't know if I still don't see you and aunt." My speech

Aunt Neli hugged me before I left. I walked towards the gate. Unfortunately, Mr. Randi's house is not on the side of the road. I have to walk to the highway for 10 minutes.

I who had not felt the walk too far made my legs start to ache.

"Shena's spirit, I have to be passionate in order to survive the children."

I finally got to the big road. I took the angkot to my in-laws' house first.

It didn't take long, I got in front of my in-laws' house. I opened a gate that wasn't in the lock. I tried pressing the bell that was available at the door.

My in-laws house has no security guards. This house is not very luxurious, but this house is very comfortable and quite good.

The door opened showing someone behind the door. He smiled happily when he saw me.

"Eh there's Shena's mom, you want to see Madam?" Said Marni, my mother-in-law's maid.

"Yes Marni, is mom home?"ask the young lady.

Marnie is very young. In addition to young, in also looks very beautiful. Pure beauty is very natural, just how to dress it still looks a bit kampungan.

"There's Mom, let me take you to Mom's room." Marni.

"No, you continue to work."

I walked to my mother-in-law's room .In the morning at this hour, my mother was always in the room. Mama's been like that ever since her body wasn't feeling well.

"Assalamualaikum ma." I said after opening the door to his room.

"You're coming Shena?" Ask your mom while smiling.

"Yes ma, how's mama? What's healthy?"

"Obviously, just not feeling well."

I doubt how to tell. Especially the condition of this unhealthy mother.

"Here sit, why daydream there?" Call my mother-in-law and pat the bed next to her.

I walked to my mother's bed, then greeted my mother to the sign that I still respected her.

"I'm sorry I want to tell you a story."

"Just tell me, what's wrong?"

"I'm sorry about my divorce from Romi." I said with doubt.

"Did you know that Romi was having an affair?" Ask your mom without any surprise on her face.

With Mamw asking like this then I can conclude that mama knows about this affair.

"Did mom know about this?" I asked my mom.

"I guess you also know that everyone in your house knows about this, if they're just hiding it, is there a reason for your mom to tell you." Said my mother-in-law.

I think my mother-in-law's saying has a point. But at least the youth will stand up for me if all my family is hiding everything.

"Mama's advice, you have to introspect yourself, maybe you are less attractive so that your husband cheated, besides must be your sibling who seduced Romi, where there are cats refused in love free salted fish." Mama-in-law's words hurt me.

The mother-in-law's words were as if her son was not wrong at all.

"Your family is not right, it's important to live in a safe place, and the money is still flowing."

"Ma, whatever you think of my family, I want you, please help me take the kids." I refrained from being emotional.

"Don't you dream of bringing children, what do you want them to eat?" Ask my mother-in-law.

"I've worked ma, I can support them."

"What is your job? It's so fast to get a job."

"I work as a housekeeper."

"Hahahahha, so just a housekeeper you already want to bring your children, you think you can finance them, you want to make them miserable to live with them."

"Ma, they must understand you're with me."

"Who said? Or you deliberately bring them so that you still get alimony money from your ex-husband, ah no wonder again, are you one family the same, all matre." Said my mother-in-law.

"Why do you think that? I have no intention to ask for any allowance money from mas Romi, but ma mas Romi is obliged to provide them."

"Well if still Romi who lives then let them be the same papa, after all, mama actually more agree Romi with your sister, she is still stylish and suitable if the road accompanies Romi, well you, you, his days of clothes are out of date." My mother-in-law's words made me even more hurt.

"But if you want, Romi leaves your sister too, she wants you to find a woman who doesn't matre like her."

"I don't think I have time to listen to my mom's idea, I'm sorry, thank you for the time." I got up from my seat and walked out of the house.

It's free to come here for help. This is the true form of my mother-in-law.

I went back to my ex-husband's house. I will not demand property gono-gini like a penny.Bagiku easy divorce process alone Alhamdulillah.

I just got off the car. I walked for 5 minutes to get to my destination. I saw a housekeeper standing at the gate.

"Since when was there a housekeeper?" I ask myself.

"Sir, I want to see my children."

"Sorry Mom, I'm forbidden to go in and see the kids." Said the gatekeeper.

"I have the right to meet them, you know who I am, right?" I was a little emotional.

"Please cooperate, Mom, I know that mom is her ex, Mr. Romi, and Mr. Romi forbade me from entering the house." Said explained.

I never thought that Romi would act this fast. I don't know what else to do. I know that the kids are home because it's Saturday.

"Geby, Aiman this is mama son, mama outside." Shouted as loud as possible.

I'm sure they'll hear my screams.

"Let's go out son, meet mama, trust mama, mama love you guys, mama never leave you." I screamed while crying.

I no longer know what to do. They will separate me from my children.

"Oh my God, why is everything like this?" My crying is getting louder.

"Son, whoever separates us, you never hate your mama, because you love your mama." My yelling.

I sat in front of the gate that was still closed. I have no strength to get up again. All my defenses are broken.

I was crying so much. For me this is the deepest destruction of my life. You imagine feeling' who just found out the husband is having an affair with my sister and is supported by my family. And at this time they are still not satisfied not to hurt me.Those who money want to separate me with the children.

It's all very painful. I tried again to shout calling my son's name until this voice was hoarse. There was no sign of my son coming out.

"What kind of test is God? strengthen me, O God, forgive the sins of those who are wronged, O Allah."

I cried while sitting in front of the fence. My lips kept calling my son. Until finally came the housing security.

I thought they would help me. But I was wrong. They kicked me out for getting a report and considered disturbing the comfort of the host.

I went away thinking my heart was calm. I know God is the only place I ask for help.

"Rabbana Laa ilaaha illa Anta, subhanaka innii kuntu minaz zalimim."

I read it so many times that my heart would calm down.