
It was still dark, because it was just dawn. Kanaya, who had stored her urine in a small container before she performed the Fajr prayer with trembling hands, placed the tip of the flat object commonly used for pregnancy tests in the small object containing the urine.
Please-hopefully anxious, Kanaya awaits the results of the three tastpacks she does at once. Kanaya hopes her guess is wrong, she still can not accept other realities.After long enough to silence the bag that she had previously put in her urine. Kanaya slowly raised the flat object with trembling hands.
"I-I'm pregnant, "say Kanaya begetar.
The girl was mired in the walls of her small rented bathroom. His body felt limp like boneless after seeing a flat object in the grip of his hand.
Three two-striped testpacks clearly show that in the womb the girl has grown an embryo that will develop into a baby.
A feeling of sadness and fear at once raged within the chest of the girl. He did not know what to do, while the man who was the father of his baby was from the beginning asking him to forget the night that his holiness was taken away.
Kanaya bent her knees, biting her own hands so that her cries were held back and not heard by Grandma Risma. He doesn't know what to do. Aborting the innocent fetus that was in her womb, Kanaya was not that much. The girl was clearly aware that the flesh that was beginning to grow in her womb was innocent. Only the baby's parents are guilty, he's also just the victim as well as the baby.
"What should I do? What if Young Master Jacob finds out, he must have asked me to abort him. I can't be that cruel, "Kanaya said sobbing.
Kanaya was still sobbing inside the small bathroom, biting her arms and clothes so as not to cause her crying voice that wanted to roar as strongly as the reality she had to get back. Pregnant son of Jacob, the eldest son of the family Garadha who has been engaged and loves his fiance very much.
For a long time Kanaya sobbed until the sound of the door knocking loud enough from the outside required the girl to end the crying that she did not really want to finish. Before opening the door, Kanaya put the three testpacks in her bag and cleaned a small container that previously contained her urine.
Tok
tock
tock
"Kanaya, you're in Nak?"granny Risma's voice sounded so worried about her grandson.
Kanaya who was in the hustle stood up and washed her face with water. Ah, remembering Grandma Risma makes Kanaya's mind more chaotic. Kanaya tries to neutralize her breathing to relax in front of Grandma Risma. Kanaya is still unable to tell him about the condition of her pregnant granddaughter.
"Rilex, Kanaya. Don't let Grandma be sad to see your sad face, "kana said to herself.
Chequelek
The bathroom door was opened by Kanaya, with a big smile Kanaya gave to Grandma Risma.
"Sorry Nek, Naya lama in the bathroom because Naya's stomach hurts," Kanaya lied.
"Loh, now what's the state of your stomach Naya? "question Grandma Risma worried.
Kanaya gave a small smile to Nek Risma and said "It's not sick anymore now Grandma."
"You must take care of Nay's health, if Kanaya is sick or anything should say to Grandma yes, do not be forced or left because health is very important, "said Grandma Risma.
Grep
Kanaya hugged Nek Risma's body tightly, she needed a backrest for now, and only Grandma Risma could be her back.
"Naya must take care of Nek's health. So Grandma also has to take care of her health, "said Kanaya in the deck.
[Inspardon Naya Nek. Naya still can't see the sadness and disappointment of Grandma's shady face when she finds out I'm pregnant].
Kanaya hugged and closed her eyes as strength for her current self. After which, the girl let go of her embrace and looked at Grandma Risma's shady face.
"Naya prepare our breakfast first huh Nek, Grandma want to pray Fajr first right? "ask Kanaya.
"Yes Nay, Grandma prayed Fajr first, later after that Grandma help you, "said Grandma Risma.
Kanaya nodded her head and passed letting Grandma Risma into the bathroom to pick up Wudlu, while she was rushing to prepare breakfast.
***
Kanaya made more mistakes during her work at Garadha's residence, several times she received reprimands from Mbok Ira and Mrs Celline directly. Making Indri who saw the strangeness of Kanaya's attitude was astonished by her. Indri decides to take Kanaya to the back garden of the Garadha Residence to interrogate the girl.
Kanaya smiled at her best friend. "I'm fine Ndri, "talked Kanaya who Indri believed if the girl was lying to him.
Indri reached out to Kanaya's hand and looked at the girl's face.
"You don't lie to me, Nay, if there's anything to say, "say Indri.
"I really don't papa Ndri. Oh yes Ndri, it seems I want to stop working here deh, "kanaya said surprised Indri.
Indri jerked at Kanaya's hand she was holding and looked at the girl with a look of disbelief.
"You're why Nay. Do not lie to Me, this time please tell me Nay, do not just shut up and just want to stop working so, "say Indri angry while holding Kanaya's shoulder and shaking it.
Kanaya who had guessed Indri's reaction would be angry like this could only comment on her smile. He also did not know whether to say everything to Indri or not.
"I can't work here anymore Ndri, " explains Kanaya.
"Why can't Nay? Wh why? Is it because of the Master and Madam or because of the other servants, say Nay! You don't keep quiet like this, "press Indri.
"It's not that they're Ndri, they all treat me very well Ndri, it's just that I can't work here anymore" Kanaya said.
"I'm disappointed in you Nay. I just realized that all this time you never considered me as a stranger until you could not share my story, "said Indri disappointed.
Indri got up from the chair and stepped away from Kanaya who could only stare sadly at the figure of her best friend.
"What if I told you you wouldn't accept my excuse for silence, "yelling that Kanaya managed to stop Indri's move.
Indri stopped and turned his body back to look at Kanaya, the girl's head shook her head and went back to Kanaya.
"Say everything Nay, "said Indri after sitting back beside Kanaya.
Kanaya lowered her head and twisted the tip of her veil. Without feeling a drop of clear liquid out of the corner of Kanaya's eye. Indeed he is weak and so afraid of his current situation, he did not dare to tell his bitter reality to anyone and this time he had to tell Indri, his friend. Kanaya takes the testpact she still keeps in her pants pocket to Indri.
"I'm pregnant with Ndri, "lirih Kanaya.
Indri who was staring ahead immediately looked at Kanaya. Indri closed his open mouth in surprise. Indri grabbed the testpact, the girl stared long enough at the pregnancy test tool bitterly. Soon Indri diverted his net from the testpack to Kanaya who was bowed.
"Naya You. "
Indri grabbed Kanaya's body in his arms, letting the girl cry for quite a long time on her shoulder. Indri knew Kanaya had been holding back her crying to look fine. Indri stretched his embrace to Kanaya, he had to know who the man was.
"Now tell me everything, Nay, you don't fear Nay, I'll shut up if you don't want me to act. But at least I should know who he is Nay, "ask Kanaya.
Kanaya turned her gaze forward. She had decided to tell Indri about her pregnancy, so she must have told her everything. Slowly flowed all the stories starting from the dark night of the cause of her pregnancy.
Indri covered his wide-open mouth when he found out who had impregnated Kanaya. He wanted to hit the figure of the man who was his master.
"Why did you choose to shut up Nay and agree to his request? he must be responsible for all his actions" Indri said.
"I'm afraid that Ndri, Mr. Jacob's love for his fiancee will ask me to remove this innocent baby, " said Kanaya rubbing her still flat belly.
"So I beg you to let Me go from this house Ndri, "said Kanaya.
Indri was speechless with a straight forward gaze.The girl's hand tightly grasped Kanaya's hand as a code if she wanted to give strength to the girl.
[*I'm sorry Nay. But I cannot allow you to bear all his deeds.]in Indri.
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TBC*