BACK (IN LOVE)

Requesting

I walked to the store. Still there, Irwan, that shameless man. It has made the atmosphere that was originally fine become chaotic. Then make the already chaotic atmosphere more chaotic.

Even looking at him I was fed up. Especially talking to him.

For years, trying to escape his shadow. Now come without guilt. Destroying what I've built from the beginning.

It makes me hate and hate.

Hate that he left me, then hate that he made a misunderstanding between me and Efrian.

"in", intercept him when I'm close to him.

I know, back there's still an Efrian. Of course Efrian was still watching me from afar. There's no way I'm talking to him here.

My indifference, made Irwan immediately pull my hand.I flicked until it slipped from his grasp.

"if you want to talk to me come to the gazebo of the flower garden at 6pm! Now go!"

After saying that, Alena came and also told her to leave. My legs were limp, as if all the blood was going up to the head. Resisting the anger that I should have just expressed.

Resisting fear, because tofu was watched by Efrian.

To this day, which I still confuse. Efrian, don't make decisions. What is this relationship. Is it just her mom who needs me or is she the same. I also do not understand why I want and like to be hung by him. A feeling that continues to flow without an estuary. Either without an estuary or have not found its mouth.

...***...

"hey, you okay In?", asked Erwin. Maybe because he saw my face flushed or expressionless

"he was already here. forced to wait for you when I told him to leave" he explained

Not long after Alena came to bring me a glass of mineral water.

"sorry, In, I just arrived after queuing up the flowers", said Alena with regret. "the next time I see him I must have kicked In", he added.

The tears I shed, broke. Flooded in a situation I had difficulty passing.

"win, al, I swear, I'm so confused!! Efrian, I have no certainty, I know the place he provided or not. all this time he was silent. Silence was also jealous after Irwan came. He didn't say jealous but his attitude changed.I can't skip this al. Irwan came to ruin everything.Everything I bandaged with great difficulty in tearing again", I poured all my feelings on the two of them.

I want them to understand, I'm not as strong as they see me. I'm not as happy as they see. The fragile me becomes more fragile.

In the middle of the tears. The doorbell rang. I immediately wiped away the tears that were on my cheeks.

"excuse me, sorry" said the man

"miss why?", he asked later

Budi, tumben once, come here not the 14th.

"no what, mas Budi want what message?", said Alena directly.

"as usual but 2 yes", he replied. tumben once, but it's none of my business.

"miss Indira, can I talk to you for a minute?", she asked me.

I nodded and invited him to sit on the park bench behind the shop. I understand, he would have liked to comfort me. Budi, this man is so dear to his wife. Always joking and making merry my 14th morning.

"why In?", he asked.

"nothing" I answered briefly

"i know I know who knows who can help" he said again. Sounds pretty cool but also cares

"mas, if we are fighting for something new, suddenly something else from the past comes up. We realize we are in the present, even if it comes up again, we know which one to choose", I explained

"depends on this", he answered.

Depends what? I really don't understand that word. Do Budi, want me to consider Irwan's presence.

"everyone has a past.whichever one he wants to choose is shaken here", pointing to his chest. "where heavy, the past always has space in a person's heart because he once stopped. the present? do you have a room or just have an open door? ask yourself again in. That room have you prepared or not?", he explained

I still don't understand a little. I narrowed my eyes as I frowned at him.

"so gini in, the past has ever stopped in your heart.like this flower vase. the first time you buy this vase. empty, no water no flowers", he said, lifting a vase that had been standing firmly on the table. "then you fill the water, you put flowers, every 2 days or 3 days you change a new flower of water. is the rest of the water clean? or still stick a little on the vase wall? or is there a part of the flower left in the vase? we do not know In. but there must be a. difference. This flower vase you can wash clean using soap, rinse with water, can even be dried. but the liver? not In. as clean as you wash. as hard as you can remove the scar it will always be there. Not even just the scar but the scars like it must be there"

I'm still trying to digest the sentence. He looked at me and returned the vase he was holding back to where it was.

"you seek truly In, is there any room in your heart that you have prepared for new and is there any hidden space in your heart that was once the resting place of your past" he reminded me

"choose what makes you happy!", short answer that's what I'm waiting for.

The answer that convinced me, led me to choose which one to choose.

"gold, this is the flower!!" said Erwin carrying 2 bouquets of flowers in his hand.

Mas Budi took out two 50,000 pieces of money and gave them to Erwin. Kularang.

"take a mas, itung itung bonus, never love the same bonus mas budi", I said

He laughed and brought flowers and money. Another thing now he gave it to me.

"if so, this is to buy chocolate, so that no more miss!", he said and left me.

"ehm win, close another 15 minutes yes, today you guys just rest", I explained then walked to the house which was not far from the flower shop.

...***...

Wall clock shows at 6 o'clock.

I saw the store was closed and deserted.

The sound of a special wood. Must be from the front door.

"in" he said he was standing in front of me. Shortly after I opened the door for her.

"a. a. What's the matter?", I asked nervously. How not, it's not him I'm waiting for. What would happen if he caught Irwan coming here to see me.

You were wrong Efrian's time.

Justright. I haven't answered my question. Irwan is right behind Efrian.

Efrian turned his head towards her and turned towards me.

"i'll explain later, go in first", I command him as well as withdraw his hand. I don't want that chase to happen again. This time I secured him first.

"i have to talk to Irwan, you can wait for me here right?", I asked.

Efrian just looked at Irwan in anger, without answering a word. I then walked towards Irwan and invited him towards my flower garden.

Just stepping up, Efrian pulled my hand out of the date until I slammed into his chest and all in his arms.

"talk here!", he said later

I looked at Irwan, from his gaze he agreed to your Efrian request.

We sat on the couch. I asked you to make a sofa that is very soft. However, this reluctance makes it hard as sitting on ulin wood.

The three of us looked at each other, alternating. However, Efrian's gaze was the most frightening. Until I couldn't look at her any longer.

"just shut up?", she asked later. Removing all the silence from 30 minutes ago.

"sorry, what do you want to drink?", I asked to melt the atmosphere.

Efrian then looked at me cynically. Like wanting to pounce on me. I think he thinks I'm procrastinating. As usual, I walked to my minibar to get a glass of two glasses of water. Definitely to be served.

"you, just go ahead!", Efrian now told Irwan.

Irwan then looked at me sharply. I replied, alternating by looking at Efrian who had started to ride apoplexy.

"i.i.in", he said, after having his lips tightened for so long. Although it was broken, he mentioned my name.

"a.a.a I'm, sorry, over, who, for all that happened" he said.

I can only be quiet. Because I don't know what answer to give.

"i, I. I know I left you, I left, no matter how you are, I know, I know, maybe all this time you tried to heal your own wounds but this time I came again. Not just apologizing, but me...."

"say quick, rambling", cut out the Efrian that has really peaked.

"i want to ask you to come back and be my partner until I can't take care of you anymore"

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