AUNT YAYA
Numbness
The flashback.
For some people expressing their feelings becomes a challenge themselves. Sometimes they feel vulnerable and worried when expressing their feelings to friends, family, and loved ones.
Be honest! this one word is so simple but the practice is really very difficult for a person named the Word! often denied with what he should admit to make it comfortable, but somehow he prefers to deny it.
It turns out that the Word suffered from the mental disorder alexithymia or difficult in identifying, recognizing, describing and conveying emotions.
Rani is often nostalgic about her experiences at school, while passing through her alma mater and other interesting things during school. But not with the Word he has trouble sharing his past experiences and it makes Rani wonder while still with him, he feels the Word hides a big secret behind his unreasonable treatment, it turns out that in his soul there is a mental failure.
The Word never told his experience during SD, Junior High School or High School. For the Word life feels like confusing due to childhood trauma parenting over to some relatives on a rotating basis and alternated by baba or her mother when she was born.
Firman had difficulty recognizing his status as a husband, difficulty being responsible as a father who had to educate his children. Word seems to deliberately ignore but one of the reasons is derived from this alexithymia mental disorder.
Word has difficulty connecting with others, its humor is crisp and often experiences acute inattention. With Rani often, Firman and his children had an accident that according to Rani it can be anticipated if more careful but according to the Word considers the fate of the disaster that must be lived despite having to fall in the same hole many times.
One morning when Rani and her children asked to be delivered to school, the road passed is the only major highway there is no other alternative road.
Think Rani the smallest hole if it is often passed the Word will memorize and will be more vigilant when passing the road but for the Word is very difficult to identify it therefore when Rani one motor berberfour with him, counted up to 9 accidents in the same place. As a result of Akbar's arms, Adist's cheeks and Rani's legs there are many wounds that for decades they will not forget because it leaves many permanent scars here.
Rani was bored and astonished, what happened to the Word?. Rani thinks as if she did it on purpose. Making himself and his children who should be taken care of, made comfortable and his responsibility he hurt and harmed. Dozens of accidents, and dozens of times the answer is simple,
"Emerry!"
Always that's what Rani and Rani's family get when the accident repeats at the same moment when leaving to deliver, pick up children home from school and when coming home from work.
With that consideration Rani decided to buy her own motorbike and the inconvenience of driving with the Word he entered in the divorce lawsuit filing where as the head of the family was unable to take care of his children and wife and was considered unable to give comfort but Firman rejected the statement when the divorce papers he received and he read. He felt right and there was nothing wrong with him. The lawyer recommended that Firman consult a psychologist but Firman refused. Rani resigned.
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Not having boundaries/limitations is a problem for Rani and Firman. Where Rani is very close to herself all her personal life from public glasses and social media. But not the case for Firman, he would bravely pose shirtless here and there.
His impulsive attitude that is not in the right place and time often has to be covered but over time Rani tired and gave up, After divorcing Rani his social media posts filled with status-status jalah, Rani,
"Memories together may have been forgotten, but sweating together cannot be forgotten." #dearmantan
Portraits of his life living in the warehouse of the foundation became a decoration of the Facebook veranda Word. For the Word he wanted to prove to the world that it was as if he had become a despised man abandoned by his ex-wife. He hoped the world would know that he was innocent, that his wife was guilty of leaving him in a terrible state. Playing victim, more or less the same as the character of aunt Yaya.
Still ringing in Rani's ear when the Word said,
"Look, my wife never took care of me, never cared about me, she never cared about her children, she only cared about herself."
It turns out that the universe answers the Word prayer that is no longer handled and cared for by Rani. In accordance with the wishes and expectations of the Word.
Rani's decision to divorce the Word prefers to sacrifice 1 soul to save 3 souls to live a healthy and happy life and Rani thinks the choice is very appropriate.
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"Mam, papa was more prioritizing and chose to finance his younger siblings if again family visits out of town in appeal to Akbar and Adist. Her sisters are married, Mam!"
Rani's sad! "That's why Mama always worried that you were invited to go with your Papa with your aunt, and that's why mama likes to give you more money so you can buy your own food and snacks."
"Yes Akbar knows, but when Akbar and adist snack or eat instead in recokin food we continue to take the most and ngabisin our rations! akbar and Adist are dumb.!" When Akbar told me about his experience being invited to go by his father, Rani never forbade them to meet with Firman so they still feel they have a father.
"Well that was when you were little, now that you go with them is still the same?"
"Your Mom! there's no difference!" Akbar.
"Makanya Akbar same Adist most males if in ajakin go with Papa."
"Koq they are not ashamed, they are still dependents of papa! It became Akbar the same Adist who lost rations for snacks and eat kalo again on the road. Akbar and Adist told nahan not to eat he said."
Rani took a long breath.
"That's when you were little, don't remember. Now Akbar is the same Adist wants to eat anything free. If you go with them just buy it yourself because bring your own money, do not ngandelin papa you!" Said Rani, trying to avoid the topic of conversation about the Word which he thought would only cause old wounds.
One chat Rani with Pak Adi when Rani attends miss Fath's wedding invitation after they get divorced.
"Who's that word really fights for?" Said Mr. Adi.
"He fought for his family, but he forgot that his little family made him happy was not his big family who already had their own families."
"I often see his Facebook posts! it seems lonely, alienated and unhappier. Though in the past when you were still with Ran, his face seemed always happy, although he often denied but people could see the happiness of the heart on the look of someone's face. I'm actually kasian the same Word, Ran. but the guy ngeyel hard to tell." Said Pak Adi at length.
Rani smiled miris. She did not want to comment on anything about her ex-husband because opening a single topic about the Word was tantamount to damaging the energy of happiness that she had struggled so far.
As long as Mr. Adi commented on the Word, Rani twisted her right left index finger to the back of her buttocks, a sign that her mind rejected all comments about the Word so as not to be recorded into Rani's subconscious mind.
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Patients with mental disorders alexithymia problematic with a sense of empathy is very minimal, at the beginning of the divorce Akbar and Adist who was still in elementary school came home to the hometown baba Rani's father-in-law, who was still in school, since it can still be reached 3 hours drive they decided to go home in one day.
They left after the dawn prayer and around 9 am already in the hometown, after finishing their relationship, they continued their journey home after the dhuhur with the estimated trip maghrib was already at home again.
But it turns out that on the way the Firman brothers want to be taken to the swimming place, their children bring clothes to prepare for change when they come home. Akbar did not Rani prepare a change of clothes when she went to take Firman because Rani thought only to be in touch and Firmanpun did not say that they would go swimming.
When Akbar's cousins plunged into the pool, Akbar was just a spectator, actually Akabr wanted to go swimming but knew he was not in stock of a change of clothes so he preferred to pay attention to his cousin by the pool.
Advocates Adik-sister Firman, asked Firman to invite Akbar to swim also without a second thought Firman plunged Akbar into the pool complete with shirts, jeans and shoes that are still attached to the body Akbar. So that when the trip home Akbar still wear wet clothes for 6 hours drive home due to traffic jams.
When Rani hears the story from Akbar, Rani is inflamed because Rani imagines along the way little Akbar shivers chills in an air conditioner car and finally gets wind and fever, as Rani scolds Firman's answer lightly,
"His own son did not bring a change of clothes!"
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#tobecontinue #truestory #addakumiko #Kumiko
