ADINA & FATE

45. Conscience.

Fate bowed, his heart was again slowly disturbed.

"Fate, please."

Fate looked back at Nada's face.

"Don't you say you're going to attend my wedding."

Fate glanced at him out of the shop that was not yet closed.

Then the vehicle is still densely visible.

"Don't disappoint me and Ronal, Fate."

Fate looked back at Tone.

"I couldn't wait for Nada that day" he said as if Nada understood.

The tone released his breath heavily.

"I can't possibly add to everything that I and Ronal have agreed on" he explained later.

Fate again lowered his gaze from the gaze of Tone. His heart was again moved to weigh back from what Nada wanted.

"But that's too long a tone," with a look back.

"Please."Tone like begging.

Fate again floated his gaze outside the Shop, felt heavy eyes to be able to penetrate the dark of the night. Although the lights from the vehicle traffic in front of Kesai like no end illuminate the asphalt on the road, but worried like a thick that was covering the view.

Tone stared at him without letting go.

Fate looked back.

"Don't let me down for the last time."

Fate sighed softly, looking at the lips that had just spoken.

"I don't want to disappoint you, Nada, but ... "

"But you don't feel at home here Fate? or are you impatient to meet the Light?" Tone's face turned disappointed.

Fate smiled thinly.

"Is there a better prejudice for me, Nada?"

Tone staring fixed.

"If I go back to the hill?" Fate again.

Tone shaking.

"That's your right Fate" he replied softly.

"But is it a month long for you Fate?" tanyanya.

"I can meet you, when you marry Nada." timpal Fate.

The breath is visible on Nada's face. Looking at the trading cabinet behind Fate.

then I stared at Fate.

"What about Adina?"

"I've talked about it."

"It seems I understand her feelings, because I'm a woman too."

Fate stared fixedly at Nada.

"When we're together, there's something more important that I can feel in a relationship than honesty" she said.

Stiff tone.

"Tone, isn't this for Adina?"

"Isn't what you're doing just for Me and Adina?"

"If you understand Adina's feelings, what about Ronal? If she knows how you feel about her?"

Tone shed his gaze, putting both elbows of his hands on the table. Squeezing the hair over his two ears, closing his eyes.

"Isn't What you're doing right now, just to avenge your misrepresentation of the Light?"

Fate sighed back with still staring at the closed Tone squeezing his hair.

"Sacrificing your feelings for Ronal,"

Tone opened his eyes, staring fixedly with glazed. Sobbing faltered, then covering his face on the table by laying his forehead on his hands.

Fate just stared at Tone's head.

"Tone, if I come back, maybe the Light will understand what you, Erika and Adina did to her. Maybe I can explain it,"

"Aren't you Nada's woman?" Fate leaned his back slowly on the chair.

"Maybe the Light will sob like you, if it finds out. Or should we hide it from his present happiness?"

"Is that what you want Nada?"

"If so, when is Nada?"

"The Light will gradually find out, it is more difficult for us to repair the old damaged, than the new ones that have not spread everywhere."

Fate looked back outside the store, staring at the tightness of downstream the bright lights of the vehicle.

Isak on the table was like enlivening the noise of the vehicle engine.

Back to see the tone.

"Did love change your tone?"

"Did my love change your conscience?"

"Until you can do it to the Light."

Fate held tightness in his chest like a glare at what had happened.

"I'm afraid of losing you Fate!" Tone with his face raised. The crackling was getting louder and louder.

"At that time! I feel, I don't want to lose you again! I love you Fate!"

Fate looked into the eyes of a Tone filled with tears.

"All I devote to Erika, while I am and on my way home from the Hill, Me!Me!"

Tone covered his face on the table.

His shoulders and body were increasingly shaking violently withstanding his cries.

Fate floated back to his face, heart felt sore to remember all and that had happened.

Staring back at the last moment he took off Nada to leave him, after visiting her with Erika on the Hill. Before finally Adina took him also left the Hill, as well as leaving the Light that remained on the Hill waiting for him.

All things have happened, all the love in the heart has ended without a word, but all He must now explain in the word especially the Light.

His Conscience is like a pain if he remembers the Light, although for him now he does not want to blame Nada and also Erika or Adina.

But He had to go back to the Hill, rearrange his steps and his heart that felt foggy, like freezing all his taste and body.

Stepping back out of the House where his feet began to learn to crawl, play and be covered in mud.

Staring back at the morning light from the wooden windows and boards in the glare of the morning breeze that hit the face.

Washing back all over the body drenched in sweat from the dust and the ground with a twilight beam that will set on the top of the Hill.

All now is like growing a longing that He cannot bear in heart, to quickly step, running down the plantation and the weasel to re-hug the place where He was made.

"If I had known this would be the case, I would not have agreed to Erika's proposal." The tone still covered his face.

"Because your heart is covered with the dew of your love, so that it covers the clearness of your heart. That's what changed you Tone," responded Slowly.

"But ..." Fate stared at the shoulder pain that always seemed to move along with sobs.

"It's all happened, and if you want everything to go well again, let Me explain to the Light when I get back," he continued, staring out of the Shop.

"I think the Light will understand."

Back to see the tone.

"Understanding my mistake Fate?" Tone with his face raised. Bluffing in disbelief.

"With all I've done? Or will it just make him hate me more?"

"Understand, if even the Light has a great soul towards you Tone." Fate smiled small, as if to remove the patter on the cheek Nada.Dera on the chest was like peeling pain with a raging feeling seeing a patter that never receded.

"Light will only hate me Nada, because I always disappoint her. When he's waiting for me." Fate returned.

Tone rubbed his tears slowly, sobbed stifled then shook back.

Fate floated his gaze across the Shop room. A taste like etched on his eyelids, glazed over everything that was suffocating the heart. Release it on the white walls of the Shop, re-dissolve the taste when you see tears. The one that may be left in the Shop, the love that He will now remember as his feet step away from where he came from, the love that He could no longer have or feel, a love that taught her the most beautiful lesson of her life.

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