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It's okay, cry

*3 year ago*

That night there were no stars or moons, the gloomy night for the 2 little ones was now hugging the doll

“ Fabian come here son, there is something that makes this mother very curious, why do you like the night? No one likes the night. It was dark and not as beautiful as twilight and not as beautiful as sunrise, then why do you like night?”  The woman with a soft tone asked a question for her only son.

And far away another woman with a gentle face asked her only daughter the same thing

    “Carina, why do you always look at the night sky with eyes like staring at something so precious?”

The two children with innocent faces said the same thing with sparkling eyes

 "The color of the night that man no longer lies for their mother's feelings, the moon will be a friend that accompanies her to grieve, and the stars will be friends that will comfort her”

That's not a sentence that 13-year-olds can say, out of nowhere they get that amazing answer. The mother of the child smiled

“ There is a star missing from the sky, search for it and find it. Di will be the star that will cheer you up and be the place where your shoulder rests if you grieve”

   Whether it was coincidence or fate that made the mother and child say the same thing, no one cared about it.

The woman now on the bed kissed her son's forehead one last time before his eyes closed forever.

Elsewhere the woman who said the same thing was found lifeless in the morning in her room, leaving after stroking her son's head with a smile on his face for the last time

 The night was very gloomy, drizzle began to fall, adding to the gloom on the 2 innocent children

Find the missing star

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"Sir... Where are you going?” Auntie hastened to run towards me. His face seemed to want to stop me

I was crouching to tie my shoelaces, looking up at the face of the maid who treated me like a son

“Bi, I was just for a moment, suddenly wanted to go out at night. Relax, I already got permission from Dad" I patted aunt's shoulder reassured him

I put the aerphone in my ear, started listening to songs. I started walking down the big street in Jakarta. It's night, but the density of the great city knows no night or day

A lot of what I've seen tonight, young man with his mouth smoking cigarettes. Mother and son who ate at the foot of five. A newly-created couple who put on a shy face and a middle-aged man who came home from his office

I looked up, ahh...today there are no stars, where does the moon go?

I continued to focus on the dense urban road, not yet terbesit intention to return home.today dated February 25, it's my birthday. I breathed a heavy breath. I raise another 1 volume and continue to follow wherever my feet step, not knowing the direction

My legs stopped, in front of me was a girl whose eyes were staring at the sky with a gaze staring at something precious. Beside him was a little boy pulling a tug behind his shirt. I saw him like he was jerking, turning to look at the little boy's face

At this distance I could not hear their voices, he stroked the little boy's head. I was filled to see He looked at the little boy with a warm look, anyone could feel that. I was so jealous to see that little boy

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“Kakak!!! Brother!! BROTHER CARINAAA!!!!"

I was shocked to hear my name called. I looked to the side

“kakak why? Brother sick?” bella looked at me with an anxious look

I smiled while stroking his head

“No..sorry tdi brother daydreaming, enter the house first, later I follow. There's something I want to do. Quickly outside cold!” I told him to come in first.

He looked at me for a moment with an anxious look before deciding to nod and enter the house

"Bright.."

"Night has come, can I cry? "

I put my head up. No stars always accompany me to cry in the sky. I decided not to cry tonight.

I looked around, looking for a place I could go. To my right I saw an empty swing. A little run I approached him as if afraid that someone would take it first

“Yes” My mouth reflexively says that word after successfully sitting on it. I smiled but my brain couldn't help the thought that came to my brain. 3 minutes I was swept over my own mind, jolted when a mosquito bit my palm. Auww. I scratched my itchy hand.

In front of me was a man staring at me. But with a blank look. His eyes are not alive.

“Ah, yes thank you” she smiled cantankerously and sat down beside me.

Not a word came out of my mouth after that. Me and the man were equally swept away in our own daydream

"The star is gone” Those two words came out of her mouth that I'm sure were unintentional

I turned towards him, confirming what the man was saying

“The star is gone?”

“Ah sorry... I accidentally said it” the man beside me was stumbling when I looked at him. He scratched his head for a moment, turning his head in the other direction. Does he rarely communicate with his female friends?

I smiled in response

“Not what.” I stared for a moment at the black sky above, I continued my sentence

“There are no stars tonight, the end of the moon is also invisible” I decided to make a sound, start the conversation

He just nodded. Focus on looking at the sky with a kosonh look

“Do you want to cry?” I also launched that question. I'm sure he thinks I'm weird right now. I don't care, I'm just very curious about it

“What do you mean?” his head was slightly tilted to look at my face. I was silent for a moment when I saw his face. I admit he's very handsome! I take my breath, write the next sentence

“Your eyes seem to say that. You stare at something with a blank look. As if at your age you have already passed many obstacles"

He was silent at my reply, putting his hand in his jacket pocket

“It's not wrong at all. I'd love to escape my life, get out of my zone now. But I can't do it. Today my birthday coincides with the day my mother died” She smiled bitterly. Not without her eyes would cry after saying a painful thing

“Is it true you “can't” out of your zone sekrang? Not because “not trying”? it was two different things.” from the end of my eyes I saw his eel shrivel.

“Think well well, is it true that you can't or don't try? I think you've been through a lot of obstacles, but what have you done to get out of it? Giving up reality and letting time go is not the answer. If it feels stifling please cry, no one forbids, then if the sun is still rising tomorrow it will be good” I smile cheers after finishing that long sentence.

A few seconds later I couldn't get an answer. I looked to the side, surprised to see her eyes shed tears

“it's okay, everything must be fine” I put him sunglasses out of my shirt pocket and I took off my hat. I stood in front of him and put it in his head.

“Nobody saw, cry tonight. It's okay, everything will be fine” I whispered softly near his ear. I galloped towards the cake shop, I bought a small cake and ran quickly towards the man's place.

"what's your name and how old are you?” I should have asked Namnaya from the beginning

“Fabian, Fabian baron 16 years today” he replied slowly

“Happy birthday Fabian Baron”

 he was shocked to hear the words coming out of my mouth, reflexively raising his face upwards, our gazes met each other. I gulped, my heart pounding at him

“Your birthday day. You who said that earlier” I changed the use of the word 'you' to 'you' I chuckled a little looking at his confused face

“blow the candle, the wind tonight is quite strong”

I saw his mouth was dumbfounded and his face was so confused, for a second, he seemed to have managed to digest it and blow the candle

“kita. Unfortunately I'm on December 29, here's a meal. I'm sorry I gave you a little cake” I said it wasn't while looking at her face, my hands focused on opening the plastic that wrapped the cake

“this is the first time anyone celebrates since the age of 12” he smiled. This time I didn't know if it was a happy smile or a sad smile

I talked to him for 7 minutes and went home

“Fight, you are strong and you can” that was my last word before leaving

"REGARDLESS!" I was surprised when he pulled my hand

"What's your name?" He looked at me with a serious face. Is asking that necessary with such a serious face?

"Althia, Althia Bellatrix"

I took off her hand and walked home

"Althia bellatrix" The man muttered to say my name