A PIECE OF LOVE FOR DEVANO.
Ayla's Fretfulness.
“Why the hell are you weird like this, why is that book you hiding? I think hiding simple lo!” grouse Nuna.
Ayla just laughed widely, she was somewhat confused as to what to reply. There are also many things to think about now. Ayla mustn't be careless, she mustn't say everything like she used to. Ayla is embarrassed, she does not want to be called a girl plan for all the things that have been done by Devano. At first Ayla said love, then she said hate and want to forget Devano, it would be strange if Ayla whined again to take care of Devano's problems.
Ayla is sure that this will make her two best friends sick, then make her best friend become irritated at her. So how can Ayla say that with her stupid face? Ayla herself would not be honest if in reality she is the most planless human being in the world. Then Intan will definitely say that she hates Devano and in the end just because of a notebook Ayla starts to waver again to hate and forget Devano.
Ayla took a deep breath, this is certainly not a thing to be rumored because Ayla is sure of course this is a thing that there is no solution. The problem of his feelings with Devano, maybe from now on Ayla will try to cover everything. Ayla will try to be a much more civilized human than before, even if she tells a story maybe Ayla only dares to tell Nuna. Because Ayla thinks Nuna knows a lot more about herself than Intan, of course.
“Yaudah we go back to class yuk, later there is a teacher we can not even enter again, free we have learned as a friend but the results are nil.”
“Oh yes, said wati tomorrow there is a chemical replay anyway.”
“Hah really!” shock Intan.
Indeed, if the chemical problem of course this becomes one other foundation. It will never be imagined if until Intan has to do a chemical repeat of course.
“Yaudah no need to fuss, ntar we go to Ayla's house to learn the group.”
“Create today as if you can't deh.”
Ayla spoke again, instead of her wanting to reject the arrival of her friends, she just wanted to make sure what Devano said was true, that was all and nothing more at all.
“Emang what try?” ask Nuna.
“This is a pretty personal thing, because Papap wants to go home. I do not want the day when Papap came home even I was excited myself and busy studying right?” ask Ayla.
“Emang same time parents rarely get together gini means, yaudah if so tomorrow you go to your house?”
“Ready, Boss!”
“Om bajal netap again here what will go again later?” ask Nuna.
Ayla becomes sad again, because she knows that her two best friends know how crazy her father works. It's nothing, whether it's because the burden of financing the school of two children who are already at the level of higher education is very heavy until his father Ayla works even barely ever home, he said, or because Ayla's father seems to avoid something. That's what Ayla felt. And somehow the feeling was really quite painful for Ayla.
Seeing her father who is always everywhere and does not feel at home for a week, Ayla really misses the figure of parents. True if it is the figure of Mother he already does not have, but how could his father also seem to not care at all with him? What a thing that really makes Ayla confused instead of playing.
“Have you ever thought that Papap was deliberately avoiding his children? You see, I feel that why Papap every day work and work continues, never even Papap feel at home to nemenin his children. Sometimes if the right I want to have Papap but there is a reason Papap to avoid everything.”
“Elo don't do that ah, Ay. Maybe it's really busy, isn't it? Moreover, the problem is that Om's work is required for the state everything is fast paced and make it everywhere. If Om is not a professional for a long time Om will be dismissed, of course this is not a good thing for your family. Then if Om does not work how you eat and pay for school. How do you guys live your lives, right?”
Ayla was silent, Nuna now grabbed the body of her best friend.
“Udah do not think far, there is no strange thing. Om very dear same elo it is the reality, do not let the elo-minded the macem-macem, Ayla.”
“It's me agree with Nuna, nih! Ayla like a lot of burdens and thoughts, so far away is the mind. Elo don't think of the macems, Ayla. Father elo, brother elo it all love the same elo. It's just that the condition is now they are busy everything, busy does not mean if they don't care anymore elo right? Busy means they are fighting for a much better future for you. That is the effect and that is the fact, do not let all that even make elo down and make elo think that elo there is nothing nyayangin. Because they and we are very dear to the same elo.”
Ayla smiled again then she nodded her head again perfectly. Indeed I always like this, Ayla's mind is always everywhere and always can not be controlled, all this is certainly Ayla's own fault, so how can Ayla do nothing. Ayla has tried her hardest. Ayla had tried to think and struggle hard, but it seemed like all of Ayla's thoughts were only spurred on in one thing, none other than that it was just one very bad thing, the hatred and the bad thoughts of himself, as if they were all no cure at all, and of all the things and remedies that exist, which one would be good? Nothing at all, Ayla is Ayla. And he must be able to change the principle of his mind so that he does not always blame others for his uselessness all along.
“You are all real, like my mind is a macem-macem. I didn't think at all until this far, even it seems like too long this problem hoards up into a useless thing. Again sorry, guys! I always think bad without thinking about the impact, I always feel as if I am the only one who languishes in this world, no one seems to have the right to it. now I want to learn again how to control myself, control thoughts and emotions, so that later if there is a problem I can overcome it without whining again.”
