A Man Who Can't Fall In Love Because He Was A Woman

Chapter 9 Return to Magonda.

Dark, Lila slowly opened her eyes. Like something stuck to her lips, the thing like cushioning was soft, tender, and watery. It turned out that he was back to the scene where Lila and Salwa were kissing. On a night attended by a million stars in the galaxy, a beautiful night on the streets near the ocean. The waves are slowly pounding, the slow swing of the leaves of the coconut tree is like a bobbinan.

Lila's eyes were round, on one side she was so happy. Salwa is back, she is alive and safe, on the other hand Lila is aware of the promise she has made that she should not fall in love. Damn writer, he can usually treat Lila as good as he can.

She is so good at playing her tricks, she makes Lila promise not to fall in love in order to return to Magonda. And when he arrived at Magonda he was reunited with Salwa, the woman he loved. So irony, the storyline that he concocted for the two of them.

Tears are powerless to hold, "No! I can't. I pulled out the words I said just now,"

"I don't want to accompany you to feel the name of sadness, I can't date you. I don't agree to bother you with wanting something that doesn't make sense, "

"Sadness? "

"I don't understand, just this time. I met someone who wanted to be sad, where the person wanted to be happy. You're weird because-"

"I want sadness, because my desires are different. With those who want to be happy. You think I'm crazy because my desires are different from most people out there, so?" Balpa Salwa.

"I don't know, Lil! Why did you suddenly change your mind in the blink of an eye."

"Not that we have agreed to be in a relationship, break Magonda's rules, fall in love, face sadness together, and complement each other to be perfect."

"Why did you change your mind? Why huh?" Salwa snapped at Lila while pulling the tug of the shirt she was wearing.

"Shelf!" Lila threw Salwa's body, she pushed him very hard. Until Salwa fell to the ground.

"Because sadness is a dangerous thing! Sadness is not necessary to try. He's a terrible thing, a thing he doesn't want. The evil thing that makes everyone hurt, suffer, and miserable. Everyone hates him because he hurts. It's very painful."

"And you must go away from sadness, you must not approach or even experience and get caught up in grief. Because it hurts so much, you have to understand that."

Salwa who rose and stood up, her tears flowing. He closed his eyes as Lila said everything about grief.

"Sorry! I'm sorry I asked you to feel dangerous, torturous, evil, and make you suffer."

"It seems like you already know about it, it seems like you have already become acquainted with grief. Now you see, why does everyone hate sadness?"

"Sadness is a hobby that makes you sick, it's true that everyone hates it. Everyone's avoiding and not even daring to approach what's called sadness."

"Because he's a dangerous thing, which is worth staying away from. An evil thing more than a murderer, he'll make you vulnerable. Falling, and even being crushed by grief."

"I'm sorry for taking you there, I'm sorry for asking you to jump into the abyss of misery with me, forgive me!" Salwa cried Bombay, Isak crying really very sound.

Lila blinked in disbelief, how not. The one he loved, asked him to commit suicide with him. Accompany him to step into death.

"You know?"

"Do you know what sadness is?"

Salwa only responded silently, their eyes bruised by having experienced a terrible cry. Their eyes clashed with each other fiercely.

"YOU KNOW EVERYTHING!"

"ANSWER SALWA!"

"I want you to answer my question! Not diem and nangis rich gini." Lila bluffs Salwa. Both of his arms clutching his tiny body, he did not realize it was making Salwa in pain.

"Geek!" Sobs on the side with a whiny breath.

"Yes, I know,"

"I knew about grief that would hurt and kill slowly."

The deg!

An arrow pierced in pain, drawing out Lila's heart. Seriously! Salwa already knew about the sadness that would hurt and kill slowly.

Lila let go, okay she was really disappointed. The same woman he loves, who turns out to trick him into taking him to the fire pit.

"What do you mean?"

"Take me to experience sadness with you."

"I doubt the reason you want to feel sadness, just based on curiosity want to try it!"

"I also doubt the reason you want to feel that sadness is based on love, wanting to be with me. Staying together forever, I suspect that's not all the reason you want sadness!"

"WHAT A REASON HUH!" Lila strangles Salwa's neck with Brutal.

"Ohok ohook!" Salwa's body lifted and her breathing began to suffocate.

"The reason you want sadness is what huh, if you just try. I can't believe it! Because you already know everything about sadness, then why do you want sadness if you yourself already know that sadness is painful and dangerous,"

" When do you want that sadness? Based on love, the desire to be with me, to stay with me forever. That's lying! You are lying!"

"Because love will not push their loved ones to the painful, to the terrible, to the dangerous and the evil, to death."

"The goal of love is not sadness, but happiness. You don't love me? You lied! And make up stories about your desire to feel sadness,"

"You lied about everything! A LIE! You're just a con man who tricked me into going to the fire pit and we're both gonna get killed there."

"No! I was killed myself. While you survived, because you died first. You leave me alone with the burden of grief forever, I live miserable. While you are dead and relieved there is nothing to worry about anymore. You are happy forever, "

"BECAUSE YOU'RE DEAD, AND I LIVE IN A WORLD THAT FEELS LIKE HELL!"

"Alone, lonely, and abandoned."

"It's a picture of our love story both because we've chosen to fall in love, break Magonda's rules, get thrown into a different world, live a miserable, miserable life, and some of us have to go through life's grief,"

"And guess who that is?"

"THAT'S ME!"

Brug! Finally Lila let go of her giggles that shackled Salwa's breathing, Salwa who had from earlier tried to hold her breathing narrowed. He even died and almost died. Because Lila strangled him for so long.

"Wuck! Uhuk uhuk!" Salwa tried to stabilize her breathing.

He again fell to the ground, because Lila released her floating body suddenly. That then made Salwa fall and hit the ground, because his body is limp which is caused to run out of oxygen. Thrown without preparation.

"Nobody is left between us, no one dies first between us. We'll always be together because we're a couple."

"BULGHIT!"

"Stop your bullshit right now! You crazy woman!" Lila Berang.

"You don't understand everything yet, you don't realize what's really going on with us" Salwa replied, revealing a mysterious face.

"What do you mean?"

"We, who do we mean?"

Lila was immediately enraged, she immediately pulled Salwa. Violence on a woman happened that night, Salwa's collar was pulled by Lila. Until Salwa got up and stood with weak legs.

"Who are we?" Shouted Lila in front of Salwa's face.

"Let's see your neck!"

As Lila lowered her head to look at her neck, Lila jumped in shock. Because on his neck was a red mark, a strangulation mark from someone's hand. The mark had been imprinted on Lila's neck without knowing why.

"Damma!" Salwa laughed eeriely, her path started to stagger. A sharp look with his head bowed like a possessed person.

"Huh! Huh! What the hell is going on? What's wrong with my neck, why is my neck red and there's a trace of giggling!" Lila did not accept it.

Then Salwa stood up with a horrible look, and she pinched her skin very tightly.

"AWWWW!" Lila groaned in pain.

While Salwa just grinned giggling.

"This must be because of you, you witch! I was suspicious from the meeting arrived we were both in the train car at that time. You are a strange woman and different from the people of Magonda in general.

"And I didn't think you were a woman. Who has black power ."

"Who are you Huh! You must be an undercover demon hell!" Lila's guess is getting worse.

Salwa who only tilts a thin smile, not with the funny behavior of Lila who thinks she is a black magician, and now Lila considers Salwa as a demon hell in disguise. The joke made Salwa smile crazily, because Lila turned out to look like a crazy person who was mostly hallucinating.

"Me?" Ask Salwa.

"I'm you, Lila."

"We are a couple who were divided waiting to be united."

"You and I are a messy puzzle waiting to be solved."

"What do I mean huh! I don't know what you're talking about."

"You don't understand, all right! I'll tell you a story that Director Angel never told you."

The deg!

"Kok he can know about Director Angel , from where he knows about the angel of death that can be transformed into a good-natured white angel."

"Don't-don't,"

"She also met with Director Angel" Lila alleged in her heart.

"You must have known, the story of a sad girl and a happy man,"

"Director Angel must have told some of that story,"

"And now I'll continue with the rest."

"The sad girl and the happy man, it's both of us."

"In Magonda her name is Lila and she is a man, but in Jakarta her name is Salwa and she is a woman."

Lila was devastated by this shocking explanation, how could Lila and Salwa be the same person. They are just different sexes, and places to live. But it turns out that they are the same person and are related to each other.

Manifestation, Reincarnation. You've heard of it. If not I will explain the definition of both words according to this story. Manifestation is one of the processes by which a unity is divided into many parts.

Reincarnation, you must have been familiar with this word. Yes, Reincarnation is the next life of humans who have experienced death, they are revived. And gave a new life.

"Jakarta is the past of Magonda, and Magonda is the future of Jakarta." Salwa.

"At last the author listens to the request of everyone, all the creatures he created."

"Man,"

"You know what every human being wants,"

"happy."

"Everyone prays for a happy life, everyone wants to be happy, and the author grants that."

"He created a world where there was only happiness forever, all the creatures he created there. Will be happy forever. "

"Animals and plants do not need to be killed to be made human food."

"Because the humans there do not need food, drink, sleep, and other needs. Very different from Jakarta people need money, food, drink, sleep, partner, lust, and love."

"That's the true origin story of Magonda."

Lila focussedly listened to what Salwa was talking about, which made no sense, and was not easy to digest.

But Lila kept listening to it and tried to understand it, even though it was very difficult.

"Everyone lives alone, does not need others, does not care about others. Not related, just living with pleasure. Happy forever, their wishes are granted with just enough in mind and-"

"All that materialized just like that, present before the eyes. They just live waiting for the world to be destroyed, their population numbers do not increase, and their age remains that way. Not aging, nor growing old. No babies, seniors, and small children."

"There are only young men, women men. Who lives without feeling anything but happy forever."

"Magonda, that's the world the author created. Whether it is Heaven, where everyone is happy forever. Or Hell, where they are tormented in a happy way forever."

"Don't ask the question you want to ask God, to his created being. Since you won't get what, you'll only get more confused, the more doubtful whether they're honest or not, whether what they say is true or not."

"Whether they say they are real or not, you will only be like that. When you ask about God, to those who are only creatures."

"Keep it first! Later if you meet him, just ask."

"That's why he really exists."

"OK back to the story of the two of us, happy men. And a sad girl. That's both of us."

"You are happy,"

"While I am sad."

"We are a couple divided by selfishness"

"Yes we're selfish."

"You want to keep happy, though,"

"While I want a sad canal,"

"And the reason I asked you to fall in love with me"

"You're right, I set you up because I want you to experience grief forever."

Finally Salwa admitted, she admitted everything. He admits that he wants to keep Lila trapped in a prison of grief forever. That made Lila really hit, and her tears came back.

Tears are disappointed because he was lied to by the person he loves, "So far from now what do you want? I've foiled your rotten plan, should I pretend to be stupid and not know what? Then I went back to the old Lila?

"Lila who was crazy about Salwa, and dared to risk her happiness just for the sake of the woman who shook her heart."

"Lila who dared to sacrifice Magonda's happy life forever, for the life of Jakarta that will make her experience sadness forever."

"Should I be like that."

"And you're the winner at last."

"Salwa Congratulations!" Clearly Lila was in a sad tone.

"No, I don't want you to be like that."

"I just want you to be Lila who accepts me for who I am."

"In a way not to hate sorrow but to love sorrow."

"Because it's me, Salwa. " Reply Salwa with flowing tears.

"But I can't fall in love, I can't love you. Salwa!"

"Because if that happens, I'll lose you. You will die and leave me alone. To bear the burden of grief forever,"

"Why ! Why can't you do that?" Salwa's crying.

"Because I love you,"

The deg! One shot of baper went into Salwa's heart.

"I can't lose you, Salwa,"

"Your loss is one of the highest levels of fear in my life, and that also includes your own death."

"So please stop! We can still be friends,"

"We can still be together, even if we don't have a love relationship. But we can still be together, here. In Magonda, come on it's the most amazing dream, isn't it?"

"You don't love me means I failed my mission"

"What mission?" Lila asked.

"The mission made you fall in love."

One slice of wound scratched Lila's heart, The wound was painful and made Lila cry again.

"Why ! Why must you make me fall in love if at the end you will leave me alone with the burden of grief forever."

"Because that's what the writer wants, he wants our story to have a sad plot. Where the character experienced a tragic thing, which is left dead by the people he loved."

"Why do you obey his will, it is true that he created us. But it should be that when he has created the creature, the creature's life depends on what the creature wants. The responsibility should have ended there, having created us. The job's done,"

"And the rest let us take care of him instead of him!"

"Stupid, you fool! If he considers his job just to create. He had to organize and make a story for the creature he created,"

"Because it's the best,"

"Why is it called the best."

"A book would be interesting if it had a story in it, wouldn't it?"

"And the story that was written in the book was certainly a good story. Because what?"

"Because the author knows what it takes to be an interesting and valuable story."

"He is God, the Creator. His creation should be valuable, interesting because it has the best. And of course that's what the creature needs."

"The reason I accepted her offer to make you fall in love, was because she promised to give you a reward and that was the best thing for both of us."

"What draw?" Lila asked back.

"I can't answer it, because you didn't agree to fall in love with me."

"OK, whatever! Just continue with your bullshit, I know you're acting just to get me into your trap again "

"I fell in love, you died, I was miserable, you were happy. I lost, and you won."

"That's what you want?" Lila sounds annoying.

"One day you'll understand, believe me!"

"okay." Songong Lila's.

"Then what will happen, when I don't fall in love with you."

"You're gonna be punished for failing a mission, right?"

"I'm going to disappear."

The deg! Lila was crying again. He was surprised not to play, his eyes were completely rounded.

"I'll disappear and you'll be happy, because you're forgetting the sadness you don't want."

"Why ! Why do you have to disappear? Why can't you just stay here?"

"In Magonda the unwanted things will not exist, the sadness is not wanted here, do not you think it should be something that is not wanted that does not exist?"

"I want Salwa, I don't want sadness. All I want is Salwa."

"But Salwa is sadness, and Lila is happiness. Lila doesn't want to be sad."

Lila's cry began again, "Okay it's up to you! If you want to go whatever! If you want to disappear, bodo very. I don't give a shit! There go, I don't want Salwa. I hope Salwa disappears forever and will never come back!" Lila originally said because of angry rank.

The deg! He forgot it was Magonda. Every wish will be granted, even if it makes someone disappear.

"All right! I'll go and disappear now" Salwa turned her face and cried.

"You can turn around, and give me a chance to leave!"

"But I'm not really with that, I don't really want you to disappear,"

"But you said it and soon I'll disappear!"

Salwa's body began to sprinkle, it was like dust ready to be flung by the wind. The incident started with his feet.

"Go now! Turn your body back and don't look at me!"

"No! I don't want to. I'll cancel that request right now."

Lila hugged Salwa's body tightly, rubbing her hair.

"Please! Unhand me! Let me disappear in peace!"

"I'm the gamau you're missing! I'm afraid you're missing! Hear that! I made hope. So please! Don't you disappear!" Lila shouted loudly, while hugging Salwa tightly.

He tightens his arms and does not want to lose the person he loves.

"No more use! I still have to go."

"This is the choice you choose, the second choice of our storyline. Sad girl and happy man,"

"The ending is now changing, happy men don't want sad girls. And the sad girl left, "Bisik Salwa made Lila's sobs roll back.

"Now that is it? Why the ending is not happy, is not in Magonda everyone will be happy forever. But why can't we be as happy as they are!" Grouse Lila.

He looked at Salwa with tears, while Salwa showed a resigned face. Part of his body had already melted and was flying in the wind.

"And I told you I'm not a resident of Magonda,"

"You are the people of Magonda, I am not. I'm just too dark you want to forget."

"Just calm! You will be happy. Because what? Because the sad girl who brings the undeterred sadness again will disappear. And happy men will forget and come back happy-"

"Forever."

Lila was crying, an inappropriate parting word to say in order to break up. Salwa should have said even sweeter words, how could she have said such an evil thing. And said to have to forget the one he loved who was about to leave.

"Once again, sorry I didn't want to exist but I'm still there."

"I presumptuously made you suffer, hurt you without knowing you first, I just want to hurt you. I'm not ashamed, though,"

"Sorry to make you sad! Sorry to make you suffer! Sorry to torment you! I'm sorry I was there when I didn't want to."

"I shouldn't exist, I am a sadness that no one ever wants. "

"I'm sorry again!"

"May you be happy, sorrow will go, permission farewell! Relax I'm not going back and hurt."

"Magonda will return to her original state, where everyone will be happy-"

"For ever!"

Blur, Salwa's ashes are completely gone. Now Lila was hugging an unreal air.

"No! Oh, hellooooo!"

"Cock gini! It shouldn't be gini! We should be happy."

"Based on the damn writer, the origin of the story without thinking about the fate of the characters in it."

"You don't deserve to be called God! How could God be this evil, how could God do such a wicked thing, Woy Author! GIVE SALWA BACK NOW!"

"Dyedog!" Suddenly lightning struck.

Suddenly the bright and starry night sky turned into rain.

Heavy rain, as hard as Lila's grief over Salwa's departure. The rain washed Lila's tears, and Lila walked away laughing madly "Hahahhhahahahahahah!"

Laughter was wide open, and the figure of Lila disappeared from the shadow of the rain that night.