A Man Who Can't Fall In Love Because He Was A Woman

CHAPTER 3 Decision

After going through the deliberations all night, Lila had yet to get an answer. Should he obey Salwa's will or allow Salwa to leave out of hate.

Jujuur Lila could not choose between giving up Salwa or letting go of Magonda's eternal happiness. For him those two things are important treasures that he must have forever, Salwa is the only creature in Magonda. He could talk, and get along with Lila, that sadness was also the underpinning by Lila for a long time. How it feels, he does not know because in Magonda there is only a sense of happiness.

The next day Lila meets Salwa in the park. The one in the center of Magonda, the magnificent park. The modern square, where none of the trash who dare to perch dirty the expanse of green grass filled by butterflies that perch in flowers.

From across the street Salwa appeared, with a white dress on his knees. Her long hair was slid on her right shoulder, she was wearing natural makeup but was so beautiful and charming.

Like an angel who descended from heaven, his smooth legs began to step across a large highway that is often passed by vehicles driven by Magonda residents.

Garden benches are taded by clouds as an umbrella protection from sunlight.

"Hi!"

"Hi!" A Welcome From Lila.

Salwa sat on the teak wooden chair opposite Lila.

There was no topic of conversation that Lila wanted to say, actually Lila was afraid that Salwa would go to the point and immediately asked her decision. Without getting stale first, though,

"Why? How do you look so stiff?"

"No. Weepy... It's a little hot in here."

"Lied!" Chirps Salwa. " You forgot this is Magonda, every single thing you think of must have appeared before you miraculously. And if you're hot right now, and you want a fan that keeps you fanned out of rage."

"Surely from tadu the thing is already here. If you're hot."

The deg! Lila direct skatmat. It seemed Salwa was in a bad mood, eating her she was being sensitive.

"Listen! Sal. I know you're a little disappointed because my cowardly attitude disagrees with what you want, I just don't want us to be disappointed later on. When the decision we make is the wrong choice."

"okay! I understand. Now I'm asking you what do you want now?"

"Me?" Ask Lila

"Yes you, what do you want?"

"Oh....."

"I don't think so, there's not a single request on my mind right now."

"Okay, let's think about what we want right now"

"Eumm... Okay," Lila replied hesitantly.

"I go first!"

Soon Salwa closed her eyes, her forehead shrinking a sign that she was trying to think about what she wanted.

And a bouquet of red roses suddenly appeared in Salwa's left hand, "I want this!"

It was a code, red roses meant a statement of love. Actually, before Salwa came here to see Lila, her heart had hoped that today Lila would express love to Salwa, and asked her to be Lila's lover with red roses as a form of expression.

But it turns out that desire was not realized at all, hopefully for this time Lila can be sensitive to the code given by Salwa.

"Now it's your turn! Try to make a wish!"

"I tried yah." Lila closed her eyes, her eyes shrinking. He had difficulty making requests, he was imposing continuously.

"Well! Can't. There's nothing I want for now."

"You must make one wish! You can ask for anything whatever it is up to. Imagine what you really want, imagine it!"

"Something, something I want. I really want it, I want it! I want something that I really want. Appear in front of me right now!" Slowly his eyes opened, his blurred vision turned into focus.

Apparition of a beautiful woman, who is none other than Salwa. Is Salwa really wanted by Lila.

Lila gaped, Salwa stared cynically.

"Hey! Oi! Lila!" He waved his hand in front of the dumbstruck Lila.

"What's up?" Lila's surprised.

"Have you?"

"Have not made his request yet, what do you want? Where has it been granted? Let's see here!"

Then Lila broke into the round pizza table, she climbed the table to see the contents of Lila's hand that Lila hid under the table.

Lila who was surprised by Salwa's shocking behavior, her face nyosor and approached. Their eyes collided with each other.

"Nothing is there?" Salwa managed to open Lila's fist and it turned out that there was nothing there.

The deg! The deg!The deg! Lila swallowed nervously. Salwa's distance is so close that it is about five centimeters from Lila's eye. Then Salwa's eyes looked up and it made them look at each other.

Blowing cold wind, suddenly boiling. The romantic moment lasted a long time.

"What do you want?"

"You, I want you Salwa." Lila's Heart Voice replied.

Salwa tilted her lips because Lila never answered her question, she was again sitting in a garden chair made of teak wood and had a cushion made of soft clouds.

"Crazy! Lila!" Call her.

"Yes what's wrong?"

"Kok you're daydreaming anyway? What exactly do you want, what request did you make Lila, tell me? I'm curious."

"No! I don't ask for anything, nothing I want for now, because everything is complete. There's nothing else I need, so I don't make a wish."

"Eum okay, whatever!"

"Well let's talk about what we met in this park for? Have you made a decision?"

The deg! Finally Salwa billed the promise they made yesterday. Promise that Lila will tell her decision to agree with Salwa's wishes or not.

"You're even on the dib!"

"Don't say! You still haven't agreed or disagreed with what I want."

"Lil! Last night we agreed, right? You have to agree to agree and have a relationship with me and then we feel the name of sadness. Or do you disagree and we don't see each other again, you live in Magonda forever? And I can find someone else who would agree with me to feel sadness."

"Have free! I'd better go."

"No! Waita! Salwa!" Lila held Salwa back to get up from the chair she was sitting in.

"I've broken up, I chose to have a relationship with you. But we still have to stay in Magonda and we have to be happy here forever."

"What kind of relationship do you mean? What relationship is always happy? What relationship is always going well and well?"

"Lil! We talked about this last night, you already know why I want to feel sadness why? I honestly don't have time for people who aren't serious! I don't have time for people who don't want to be committed."

"I know, but Sal! What if sadness is a bad thing, the reason for sadness is not there because everyone does not want to be sad. Something you don't like should not exist. It could be that sadness is a painful and torturous thing, and everyone doesn't want to experience the sad."

"Everyone wants to be happy, so in Magonda there is no sadness. Because I don't want to."

"How do you know that sadness is painful, and it torments people. Why do you speak as if you have ever felt sadness? Why do you sound so afraid of what's called sadness? Is sadness a scary thing? Is sadness something evil?"

"What is worth fearing and not wanting?"

"I'll ask you one more time! Lila have you ever felt sadness?"

Lila did not dwell, the question that Salwa asked was so complicated. Lila didn't know what to answer.

"No! Not at all! I never felt sadness. How do I feel things that are not at all in Magonda. "

"Things that can never be in Magonda, even if you want them to feel!"

"Why should you be so frightened, as if you knew well who sadness was. And your present attitude is like one who avoids an enemy he hates so much." Salwa Debate.

"And one more thing, have you ever once tried to ask? What are your reasons for being in Magonda? And why do you exist and live here?"

"Then do you wonder why the two of us are so different from the other people in Magonda, they have no feelings. All they feel is living happily ever after,"

"And why are we able to relate to each other and talk like we do now? Were we created to live ?"

"I asked you that question the first time we met, in the carriage, and you answered it with an answer"

"You're right, the reason we met was because of fate. "

"And perhaps you have also asked if Magonda is Heaven? Because everyone here is all happy."

"Or Magonda is hell, and we're all being tortured in a happy way forever?"

"Rubber.. How do you know I ever questioned that?" Lila stuttered, she trembled in shock as to why Salwa could tell. Something he never told me.

One smile on Salwa's face, a smile that seemed creepy and scary.

The beautiful girl stood up from the bench she was sitting on.

"Follow me!" Bring Salwa.

"Where?" Wonder Lila.

"I'm going to show Magonda whether it's Heaven or hell?"

****

Salwa takes Lila to the bridge. The magnificent high bridge is made of sturdy raw materials, such as jade and other building materials that have high quality. The surface is smooth made of porcelain.

Lila was told to wait below, while Salwa was standing on the bridge. His hand held a white steel fence.

From the sidewalk where Lila was standing, she noticed the beautiful girl was going to do what was up there. The girl took a swing and it turned out that she jumped off the bridge.

HUH!

It makes Lila's eyes perfectly round, "Salwa!" His shouting.

"Stop!"

Bleus! Instantly time stopped. Everyone is sculpting and turning into a model. Not only humans whose activities are stopped, even birds flying in the sky, vehicles that are speeding on the streets, leaves that are about to fall to the ground. Everything stopped for a moment.

Lila only realized that she could also stop time in Magonda, after realizing that time was stopping. He hurried to the landing place where Salwa fell, Salwa's body still floating in the air.

Huuo! Lila sighed. And Bret! He jumped flying to catch Salwa's body that stopped moving.

Floating in the air, he hugged her. She was dressed in bridal style.

He went down and landed on the asphalt of the road perfectly, and for a moment after that time went back to walking. And without being told everything to move again, even cars, motorcycles that are driving on the highway. Where Lila stood carrying Salwa.

They gave space, for both of them. By walking sideways, giving the halfway room to remain empty for the sake of the two of them.

Salwa raised her face to look at the burly figure that was holding her. That's Lila her hair carried by the breeze. Their heartbeats raced so fast when the romantic moment returned to them both.

"You crazy?" Snap Lila.

"Why did you do that stupid thing, you want to die Huh? Do not because in Magonda you can be free to do anything, you still have a life and it can float at any time. So stop doing stupid things like that, okay?"

"Is my death also a scary thing for you, a thing you hate and don't want to happen?"

"Is my death a scary thing for you?"

"Of course, your death is one of the most frightening things, even one of the highest levels of fear. And I don't want that to happen, because if it happens. I'll feel hate!"

Without asking Lila to lower it, Salwa just went down from the lap of Lila's hand which was very comfortable.

He stood up, "You can still face that, that fear. Fear of sadness, I'm sure you have a way of dealing with it. When it really happened. Like the suicide tragedy I'm doing right now, you saved me."

"And you can get through what you hate and what you fear is my death."

"I'm sure we will rely on each other when we experience sadness that is said to be very painful, and when we are really tormented with the sadness that we have. We can do it because we are together. And we'll be together forever, but I don't promise we can live together forever in Magonda."

"Because here everything is happy, everything is perfect. We can't have a relationship in this place."

"When we are happy and our lives are perfect, why do we have relationships with others."

"Allowed."

Lila was just confused.

"But if it's in another world, in a world where there's not only a sense of happiness forever that we feel. But there's also sadness that we have to go through, I'll promise we'll always be together forever." Salwa and them looked at each other.

"Because we will embrace each other, to attain perfection."

Night changed position, day has gone. Salwa and Lila were walking on the road near the beach, the coast of which was covered with very high and shady coconut trees.

The painting of the galaxy, created by God that night, appears to be present on a canvas of black clouds. Sprinkled by thousands of stars in space, which are constantly glowing.

The asphalt road that no one was on that night, except Lila and Salwa. Which walked without side by side, the light of the yellow colored street light was very beautiful accompanying the eerie dark streets.

Salwa walked in front, Lila tailed her behind. He saw Salwa's hand breaking down, eager to hold her hand. And share the warmth with each other. Lila has not decided to agree or not with the desire of Salwa who wants to feel sadness.

It became a burden of mind for Lila, the voice and promise of the promise that Salwa delivered that afternoon. Continuing to spin like music in Lila's mind, Salwa promises that she will be together forever with Lila. If they decide to fall in love and officially issued by Magonda and in the law live the grief forever.

The promise of Salwa, which reads we will complement each other and we will face that frightening sadness together. The promise sounded tempting, Lila was lulled and tempted by the promise.

"Wait!" Shouted Lila.

Salwa turned around, Lila walked over quickly to catch up.

They looked at each other to chat, "Is that true? Is it true what you said? About your promise that will always remain with me.

" if I want to feel sadness with you?"

"Eum" Salwa said

"We're going to complement each other and we're going to be together to face that terrifying sadness?"

Lila's tears began to sparkle, "Yes I Promise!"

"We'll always be together, the two forever. Really it? You're not gonna lie and renege on that promise, are you?"

The last question from Lila made Salwa stop, he did not surf to answer the first and second questions.

Lila stared doubtfully, before Salwa finally started to make a sound again. "I will never make a promise to live with you forever, to complete each other, and to face grief together. Achieving perfection together, forever.

"Because we are one, we are destined to be a couple. They call it 'stupid'"

Lila smiled, a sincere twinkle of light reflected from Salwa's eyes. Making him touched, his words were so fitting and pierced Lila's deepest heart. He was sure Salwa was really sincere about it.

"All right, let's do it!"

"Let's fall in love with each other, and break Magonda's rules. Let's be the one who receives the punishment to experience grief forever" Lila said almost in tears.

"Thank you, "Salwa's sad.

Then Salwa approached, they looked at each other closely. Their distance is so close, "Love is spoken with words, but love is confirmed by action."

Flashback to the voice of Salwa who once said '" If you often say I Love You maybe the word will be a common word and not mempan."

"Must take action?"

"What?"

"Eum, maybe grab a hand, hug, kiss, or fuck."

As soon as it made a sense of heresy in Lila's mind, was this the right time to do so. What Salwa had earlier said was a form of code for Lila.

C'mon Lila! Salwa wants you to do that. Salwa wants you to hold her hand and kiss her lips, Salwa wants that but she can't start it first.

Lila gathered all her courage, slowly reaching Salwa's hand. Grasping her, and Salwa smiled shyly.

Then he began to hold Salwa's cheek with one hand. And jreng! Yheng!

Lila's lips approached and Salwa began to close her eyes. He resigned to make his lips as an airport where the plane landed Lila lips that will soon really land perfectly on the soft lips Salwa.

"Muachi!" They finally kissed.

It was the first kiss that happened in Magonda, the night sky on the coast witnessed the kiss of two people who had violated Magonda's rules.

Then of the thousands of stars in the Milky Way galaxy, one star fell and turned into a rocket. Who passed by without excuse in the middle of the romantic scene of Lila and Salwa.

What a beautiful night, what will happen tomorrow. I don't know if it's still a mystery, but for tonight. They enjoyed the moment when their lips kissed each other.

The kiss turned into a warm hug, "Thank you Lila." A beautiful whisper of an angel sounded in Lila's ear as if it was a good-night fairy tale.