YOUR EYES GAVE ME A SOUL MATE

49. Distrusting

Najwa walks back and forth in the living room. Repeatedly he glanced at the wall clock of his house and saw that the short needle was almost 11 p.m.

"Did Ega forget his promise? didn't he promise to come home tonight? have I really lost? naively you, you should not have to question what your husband is doing there. Until now you have not had a husband and wife relationship with him. That has proven, if in his heart there is no you at all. But why do you still not know yourself," the inner Najwa.

"They must have spent the night together, and discussed our divorce. Najwa, wake up from your dreams and dreams. From the beginning you were only considered a reflection for their relationship."

Tik

Tik

Tik

The seconds of the wall clock were silent, enough to wake the agitated Najwa. Najwa opened his eyes, which turned out to be unknowingly already asleep on the sofa.

"It's 2 o'clock. Is sister Ega home yet? but when you get home, why don't you wake me up?" najwa lirih.

Najwa rushes to check on Ega's whereabouts in his private room, but finds no whereabouts at all. Najwa let out a long sigh, a look of sadness on his haggard face.

Najwa decides to return to his room. Like the previous nights, Najwa will perform the evening prayer. Not just looking for reward, but he is determined to complain all his sadness to those who have created it

After doing 8 tahajud prayers, then perfected with witir prayers. Najwa then raised both hands to string the do'a verses he had prepared in his heart. Do'a-Do'a which is more precisely as a place to confide in the dzat who knows everything.

"O Allah, my Lord. I am still a weak creature because of love. Hast thou not warned thy servants by the love letter which Thou hast entrusted to our Suri tauladan? You say that you love people only as necessary. But why am I so deeply in love with him? I'm not willing to lose him. Can I stay with him?"

Najwa's tears had spread, flowing from the corner of his eye, to nest in a cloth attached to his chin.

"I beg you not to test me through love. The suffering of love is so hard for me to bear alone. I've lost the love I loved for 9 years, and you took it only days after we got married. And now that I am in love again, please do not separate us. Hikz..I love my husband very much.hikz...."

"Please give my husband back. I will accept its shortcomings and advantages. I've been feeling very happy and loved lately. Wouldn't the Haq always win from the vanity?"

"I know one's faith will be tested based on one's own level of faith. But am I not an ordinary man? I can't stand it if I have to be tested this hard. So please preserve this love of mine and preserve also the love of my husband. I'm sure I can make her fall in love with me, it's just a matter of time. I beg..hikz..."

Najwa's body shook, his sobs shook too much. Perhaps when the jinn and demons saw his state like this would laugh out loud in nature there. The circumstances that show his weak side as a human being, and of course the devil will be happy when married couples get divorced.

After a long vent, Najwa finally took off his face and went back to the guest room. He's lyric wall clock that already showed at 3 am. Najwapun decided to warm up the food, and after that clean up while waiting for the dawn prayer.

Time passed, the last worship in one day was done Najwa. There were no signs of her husband's return. Najwa had tried repeatedly to make phone calls, but her husband's number was completely off.

"Where are you, brother? I'm so worried. I promise I won't ask anything about you and him after you get home. I just want to know, that you are fine at the moment," said Najwa Lirih.

Najwa dropped his ass back on the couch. Due to lack of sleep, Najwapun sound on the long sofa.

"Mas Affan's? are you that mas?"

Najwa ran a little towards Affan who was in the expanse of the thatch which was almost as high as before. Najwa realized, now he and Affan are no longer muhrim. That is why, Najwa just stood in front of Affan, without any desire to hug the handsome man in front of him.

"Of course I felt really bad after you left. You gave me a piece of wood as my hand, but it already belonged to someone else. And I'm so hurt because of that." Najwa answered with teary eyes.

"Most istigfar in the morning and evening. Trust that God loves you so much, which is why He is testing you. Never be afraid of losing anything, including losing love. Because if it's yours, separated by any means, you'll definitely come back to her" Affan said.

"But I'm not strong anymore. I'll just go with the mas" said Najwa.

"You can definitely. Allah is with those who are patient. Be patient in accepting your exams. When you graduate, I'll see you again."

Affan turned body. Najwa, who was not willing to be left behind, shouted to Affan.

"Mas. Don't leave me mas. Take me with you. I'll just go with the mas. Hiccu..."

Blammm

Najwa's eyes were open. Najwa wiped away the tears that flowed near his ears. Najwa again glanced at the wall clock of his house, and the time already showed at 7 am.

"Has Ega gone home?"

Najwa rushed into her husband's room, and did not find her whereabouts.

"You where brother. Hikz...have you really left me? are you still having fun with him right now? please don't leave me, like Affan left me. I don't want to be alone anymore. Hiccu...."

Najwa. The last time the man wore the Ega shirt. The clothes that had not been washed were lying on the mattress, and still left the fragrance of the perfume that her husband wore that day.

Najwa kissed her many times and took her to the living room. He wants to keep waiting for Ega to come back, until breakfast is forgotten.

As time passed, the wall clock showed almost 9 a.m. Najwa's face was really haggard, even though she had cleaned up and dressed up a little to welcome her husband's return.

Unable to withstand the drowsiness, Najwa fell back to sleep while hugging Ega's clothes. And the moments he missed. It was not her who welcomed her husband home, but it was Eg who saw her sleeping on the sofa while hugging her shirt.

Tests

Tests

Tests

Ega's tears flowed out without her being able to control. But as fast as lightning he was like a tear, when he saw there was movement from Najwa.

"Sister...."

To be continue...🤗🙏