You are my destiny, my Brondong Husband

Ever Tried

Actually in class X I had a crush on one guy. He's my upperclassman, who happens to be my seat by the window facing his class.

Name's Andriyan. The guy's handsome (that's what I think. Vian said, still holding him. Feel like not to tear his mouth the Vian 😠).

Her tiny, full-rounded lips, made me anxious to see her. I think I saw the mouth of the tweety, the yellow bird in my favorite cartoon.

I felt like I fell in love the first time I saw Andriyan. His cold attitude stiffened, making me more anxious and eager to have it. All my efforts I put all my energy into attracting his attention.

Maybe this is what people say, bucin. Whatever it is, I really like Andriyan and want to be close to her.

I don't know if I've really fallen in love with Andriyan, or just my obsession. Andriyan's attitude is cool but necessary, makes me motivated to stay close to him.

Almost every day I tongkrongin where he used to hang out, which is the mosque. Yes, because Andriyan is a marbot and teacher njai in the mosque. Sometimes I also take her home from tutoring, even though she refuses anyway if I pick her up.😓

All sorts of ways I've tried to get his attention. Starting from asking for help making pr, to deliberately come to his house on the grounds of borrowing books (when different classes also.️).

For almost a semester I put up a wall in front of my family, friends, even the teachers at school. And the result..gatot alias failed miserably.

Andriyan rejected me.😭😭😭

But it is not the name of Raya if you can not move quickly on. In a short time, I forgot about Andriyan. (Not forgetting, exactly.😓). It was my friends who helped me forget the figure of Andriyan.

Slowly but surely, my attention turned to the man who had been faithfully sitting with me since class X.

Name's Zayn. His son is calm, his carriage is calm. Cool abis. Plus his character face, and body is pretty cool (said the girls in school anyway, Zayn similar to Korean artist, Hyun Bin. Don't ask me if I know. Answer.no! 😁). In class, the girl close to Zayn was just me. Maybe because I'm a tomboy, so Zayn doesn't hesitate to be friends with me.

It wasn't on purpose that I was close to Zayn. We are because he wants to sit next to me. We're not really close though. But ever since I decided to step back from my efforts to get close to Andriyan, that's where we started to get along. And it turns out that it provokes Andriyan's jealousy.

Confused right? Same. I'm confused too. Andriyan was always pouting and upset whenever she saw me being with Zayn. I don't know what the problem is?

He stopped me once when I went to pee to the toilet.

The flashback

"Why don't you ever go to the mosque again, Ray?" andriyan asked after restraining my steps into the toilet.

"I pray at home."

"What's your house in Zayn's?"

"Eh?"

I looked at Andriyan, sharp.

"Aren't you now deketing her?"

"I'm like Zayn, it's only natural that we're close friends."

I also cringe, confused.

"What kind of hunk? Why am I dating Zayn. Who am I, Jailani?"

"I'm not dating Zayn, Yan. We're just friends." I'm clear, honest and clear.

"liks. You two look familiar. I used to watch you joke around with her again in class."

Tettewwwww.

The jailani is jealous, the driver.😜

With a throw of face and lips folded, I held back a laugh. "Si's tweety jealous turns out." My mind is amused.

"Why would I like to joke with Zayn? Trouble for you!" my ketus.

"Clearly problem. I'm suk..." Andriyan quickly closed her mouth.

"What?" my many.

Andriyan hush. His wrong behavior.

"I don't like to see you close to Zayn. Point." finished saying Andriyan immediately nodded away.

"Sape you dare to ban me? My mother never forbade me to be friends with anyone." I sneered towards Andriyan who had been away.

Flashback off

This is also one of the reasons why I am afraid of falling in love. Fear of heartbreak. And luckily I, when I felt pain over Andriyan's refusal, I didn't do extreme things like everyone else did. Suicide for example. (Amit-amit jabang baby😬).

"Na'dzubillahi min dzalik."

I took turns with my head and the wall with my hands several times. Crazy one!🤦

Until one day, Zayn and I had a cold war. And unfortunately the war was prolonged until we graduated school.

That was the first time I really felt the loss of half my soul. I was also discouraged from continuing my life.

Have I fallen in love with Zayn? Or do I just feel lost? In closeness we are already like dating people.(but that again said Vian.🙄)

But basically I am not easily fragile, I quickly forget all my turmoil.

But, should I until now have to be alone without someone I can dream to accompany in the moments before my sleep?

Hm! Will be a spinster if this continues?!😔😓