You are Like My Surg

I Can't!

After driving away the Geisha on purpose. Gentala darted to another Hospital to meet his best friend who works as a Psychiatrician, Andre Fayd.

Genta told Andre that he wanted to be healed. Men are not strong if they are constantly like this. Memories of the past that did not wear when he was in childhood, became the main scourge.

Actually, Genta has visited Andre many times, to ask to be treated. But, his best friend said such a disease would not be eradicated, if Genta did not want to make peace with the past, the side he hated the most in his life. The disease is already too thick and inherent in the soul and body. That will continue to be a trigger.

Currently, Genta is lying on the bed of a psychiatric poly patient. He was asked to close his eyes and listen to the quiet music from the headphones that are now attached to his ear. Andre stood on the edge of the bed while continuing to give directions so that Genta could relax and follow his every speech.

"Take out what's still stuck here." Andre pressed Genta's chest. Genta nodded in his eyes.

"Gue hates them!" Genta started to meet.

"Good, Gen. Keep going, get it out." Andre minutes.

A thread of tears Genta dripped down from the corner of his eye.

"They hurt each other. And I hate it!" The clapper seemed to speak in his shadow.

"Eject continue ... Come on!"

The forehead of the Genta was wrinkled like it was holding a shadow that was not wearing. "GUE IS NOT STRONG, NDRE!"

"Lo, strong! Break through the shadow, Genta! Break and fight! You're not a psychopath! Psychopaths have no heart. While you have. Comeing! Forgive them, Gen!" Andre kept pushing.

Genta shakes his head. Both of his hands were clenched tightly.

"Follow that music. Follow the light that is in front of your eyes. Think of the media that you hate, never existed. Face, Genta. FIGHT!" Andre suppressed Genta's emotions again.

The flood Genta sweat soaks the face and neck. He tried to fight mental disorders in him, which resulted from the actions of both parents.

"They love you, Genta. Dove you. Forgive me. Forgive." Andre continues to influence stigma in Gentala's mindset.

"God, Papi. Don't hit me!"

"Mommy. I'm sick! Please, don't hit me!"

Andre smiled, because Genta could already cast a shadow in the past through speech. Andre leads Genta to fight the dark shadows there.

"Eject, Genta. Eject it!" Andre continued to burn off Genta's emotions to be able to escape. His disappointment to both parents he never expressed, and kept him for long. Making Genta suffer from psychiatric disorders.

"But don't hit, Mami!" Little bells begging at Papi's feet.

"There go! A woman like this deserves to be beaten!" Papi beat Mami mercilessly. And Genta couldn't stand it, he hit Papi's back with a broom handle. Papi turned around and strangled the boy, beating him up and dabbing him with a hot cigarette.

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!" Genta youth screaming.

The clapper began to wriggle in his eyes. The dark shadow continued to pierce his inner. The pain he received from each of Papi's punches was so intense and traumatized.

"Fight, Genta! FIGHT!"

"Sixth grade is still wet! What kind of boy are you?!"

Both of Genta's parents who have high tempramental nature always punish Genta with physical violence. Hitting, kicking, whipping even if only because of trivial problems.

Mami and Papi decide to get divorced. Gentala chose to join Grandma. Mother of Mama. From the age of twelve until Grandma closed her eyes. For material matters, both parents are very sufficient. Evidently, Genta could be a Specialist Doctor.

It's just that love and affection they can't afford. Because they already have their own families and according to Mami and Papinya, the family they embrace now is really more beautiful and good. Genta felt wasted. Feeling unwanted.

Pain that continues to roll in the mind without being able to be removed. Makes himself feel the saddest human being. Not to mention the Islamic faith that has never been taught by parents or grandmothers from childhood.

Else, Mami Genta. Women of English and Russian descent. He is an Atheist. Else met Haritala who was a Muslim, but never prayed like other Muslims. In fact, Haritala's parents are known to be strong with his Islamic faith. However, they were unable to turn Haritala into a righteous man in upholding the religion.

The meeting of Indonesian youth with the Russian girl, finally made them love each other, married and finally had Gentala Hanasta Edward.

Households without religious foundations, will be murky like a dark hallway. Islam is only on their identification card. Genta, such a poor baby, who never asked to be born. It must be great without religious upbringing. Making the child become unsettled in living life, let alone the memories of the strange past made him more mired. And all that disappointment, turned itself into Sadism.

Sadism is a form of mental disorder that is considered by someone in the paraphilic class. Sadism is one of the categories of various forms of sexual perversion.

People with this disease will feel perfect satisfaction if they do sex activities with violence. Genta will feel satisfied, if he has hurt the partner he loves in bed. With lashes, punches, slaps and bites. The clapper will fly into the clouds, if the co-star has screamed in pain.

What he often saw in his youth, when Papi hit Mami. Or her who is often struck by both parents, making Genta change his aral denial. Unresolved castration anxiety from childhood leads to changes in sexual stimulation to safer objects or activities, according to them.

Sadists usually view sex as a sinful activity. So as to give blows and torture to his sexual partner, he felt he could reduce sin.

Other causes also, Genta has hormonal abnormalities sexs. The hormone testosterone in the body is said to be inconsistent. This is caused, because from teenagers Genta has often consumed alcohol. The drink can release his fantasy without a hitch. It can remove traumatic images from the past.

"Please, Mom! Don't do this, I'm sick!"

Kahla screams as her chest is scratched with the end of the cutter. The fresh blood flowing and the sick screams made Genta frenzied to release his desires. So until now, there are still traces of stitches in the smooth chest of Kahla, due to the fingers of Gentala.

"Sick, Mom!! Forgive me!"

Same with Avika. He had broken bones in the nose because Genta beat him mercilessly while they were duetting on the bed.

"AHHHHHHHH!!" Genta screaming. He took off his headphones and threw them on the floor. The man sat down in a messy breath. Memories that he does not wear cannot be resisted.

Andre rubbed his shoulders to calm down. "Return your breath, Relax!"

Genta. He held his head in frustration. "Weight, Ndre. I am not strong! I can't!!"

Genta sank his head on his knees, both hands hugging his legs. The man sobbed with his shoulders shaken. Genta crying and crying.

Forcing to lose their love for a geisha. Really, it makes the man tormented.

"Go, Sha. I let you go ... I cannot fight this disease. You will suffer with me. Just like Kahla and Avika." Genta. Even because of his actions, Genta had to lose a baby who had once been in the birth of Kahla Azizah. He did not want to repeat that to the geisha.

And finally Gentala gave up.

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