Women Walled in Sin

Chapter 18

Time seemed to pass quickly, it did not feel I was undergoing a profession as a call woman has been more than two years, and during that my husband was not at all suspicious. It's been two days my body is carefree, the head feels dizzy, and the stomach feels like it's stirred, the symptoms of people getting wind, but it's been scraped still not lost the pain. Even I started vomiting to cause this body to limp.

"Yan, try taking it to the puskesmas. Who knows if you are pregnant. Ask your husband to come." Mother's voice made me choked. Getting pregnant? am I really pregnant? if yes. This boy is not entirely the son of Mas Adi, because all this time I serve striped men never wear safety. Huh, but let it be. Mas Adi will not know either.

"Even dumbass, sana says your husband made delivery to Puskesmas, wong from yesterday you nausea continue, your face is also shoots so." Mom patted me on the shoulder and broke the daydream about the fetus in the stomach, if it's true I'm pregnant.

"Yes, Mom." Without saying much, I went straight to the room to call Mas Adi who was still in the room.

"Mas. Anterin I went to the health center, yes, from yesterday my body felt bad, and I also vomited continuously, mother said that I was pregnant."

"What Yan? You're pregnant! Thank goodness, finally. I called Mr. Pri first, wanted permission." Mas Adi immediately sparkled knowing I was pregnant, the man was so innocent and very trusting of me, even though I had cheated behind him all this time.

Adi and I went to the puskesmas which is located not far from home, about one kilo meter by driving a favorite matic motorbike.

Just five minutes to get to the puskesmas, maybe this is Monday so many visitors, because it seems some people have filled the seats to queue their turn on the call. I also took the queue number and looked for a seat, while waiting for my turn to be called, Mas Adi came out to buy food, outside a lot of food vendors.

Mas Adi bought market snacks and soy milk. "This is Yan, eat. Make your stomach empty. From yesterday I noticed you haven't touched any food."

"Yes Mas. My mouth tastes bland, it's not good to eat."

"If you are really pregnant, you must take good care of our prospective children. Because I miss his presence so much. Thanks Yan, I love you more." Mas Adi grasped this hand tightly, the smile on his lips from earlier continued to expand. It seems that she is very happy with the news of my pregnancy.

After waiting for almost half an hour, my name was finally called as well. I rushed in, and there were two beautiful midwives waiting in the room. Before being examined I was told to rise in body balance first to find out my weight now. 

"Congratulations Ma'am, Bu Yani is indeed content, Bu Yani's gestational age is three weeks from the last time the mother mens. This I make a prescription later given to the medicine section at the end there yes." 

"Yes, Midwife, Thank God. Thanks, I'm sorry."

Seen Mas Adi was waiting impatiently outside, when he saw me coming out of the examination room Mas Adi immediately rushed to me with his anxious face.

"Where's Yan? You're actually pregnant, right?"

"Alhamdulillah. Yes, it is." My answer is normal, because frankly I do not like, because an enlarged stomach will torture me for not being free to move, but want how again.

"Alhamdulillah." Mas Adi immediately gave thanks with a cheerful face.

After redeeming the medicine, we went straight home, because Mas Adi had to go to work immediately.

"Where's Yan, you're pregnant right?" Welcome the mother who was intentionally waiting for me. "Yes ma'am, said the bid had been three weeks." 

"Alhamdulillah, you must take good care of your content Yan."

"Yes, Yani is going to the room first, my head is still dizzy." 

"Then, I immediately went to work, Yan, you are good at home. Ma'am, take Yani back." Pamit Mas Adi to me and mom. The man seemed very happy, because the desire to have a child from me was realized, although this child was not necessarily pure child, because I had slept with many men all this time.

'I'm sorry Mas.' My mind feels a little guilty, because after all, Mas Adi has become a good husband for me. He accepts me for who I am and always tries to fulfill what I want. Since it was circumstances that forced me to work as a call woman, I needed to be happy. Eat well, snack as I like, and can buy clothes when I want. If I only rely on the living of Mas Adi for sure it can not be done. So I'm completely innocent.

"Yan, I'm scared." Mom showed up, went into the room without knocking on the door. Maybe because Mas Adi is not home, so the mother feels free, without anyone being singled out.

"Fear why Mom?" I asked flat, while laying this body on the mattress.

"Why do you think that as far as it goes, you take it easy, as long as Yani is pregnant, Yani will not accept customers first. Let's just do it the same Mas Adi. Yani's money is still there."

"Yes, may your mother's fear not happen Yan. I was thinking of that."

"Mother take it easy, I know for myself that Mas Adi is in love with Yani. He's not gonna be that."

"Yes, I want to be holy first. Later lara returned home at ten school. Let me pick up your son. You just take a break."

"Yes Mom. Besides, I also do males mengapain, want to sleep. Ma'am will buy me Sempol in front of Lara's school ya." Mom turned her head and just nodded her head and passed from my room.

Looks like getting pregnant this time, not the same as when I was pregnant with Lara first. Do not vomit and limp gini. Just because I never. But why now I'm like a gini, huh sucks.

# Cloudy doesn't always rain..

Containing is not always giving birth...

Because there was a miscarriage..

Like the efforts that sometimes find failure..

Dreams not fulfilled..

The test is not always a test

Something is a reprimand..

Not a moment in cramping..

People remember God more..

Like a student who remembers lessons in exams..

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Ibn Atho'llah once said :

بسطكَ كى لا يُبْقِيك مع القبضِ وقبضكَ كى لا يترُككَ معَ البسطِ واخْرَجكَ عَنْهماكى لاتكون لشىءٍدونهُ 

Allah has extended to you, that you may not always be in narrowness (qobdh), and Allah has made you narrow so that you will not fall into darkness (basth), and Allah has delivered you from both, that ye may not depend upon anything but Allah."

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Then be worthy in narrowness..

The self is lighter to do disdain..

And Allah knows where His servant should be..

That is the importance of learning religion early on, so as not to be mistaken in addressing a problem.