Why Should He

pick out

I didn't think that my loved ones would betray me..

oh god as sick as this is what it feels like to be betrayed, my inner, tear-mouthed, remembering the betrayal that my girlfriend did with my own best friend

today is precisely our anniversary, I promised her to meet at the place we used to meet

I am so glad I walked in a hurry

after parking my bike not far from a cafe near the road.

but what I met was far from my guess

they were busy kissing, so excited that they did not realize that there was me

unconsciously my tears trickled I rushed away not wanting to linger to witness such a disgusting thing, he said,

how not, they firmly hurt me, oh God turns out that all this time I was often lied to, turns out I am someone else among them I am their barrier..I was stupid too much of my love for my lover that I could not see the lies that my boyfriend often did with my best friend

after going through a relatively long courtship period, I regret myself I cried after witnessing the incident I locked myself in the room every day I went through with deep sadness..I hope this is a dream that will end

I can't see the lies they both hide from but sometimes I feel like things are different from them

sometimes their jokes I think exaggerated sometimes I also see him often looking at my girlfriend with a gaze that I think is strange not the gaze of a friend

I often brush off what's on my mind

sometimes I think having a handsome guy is not what many people think

I'm a pretty girl but I don't have confidence..

sometimes I feel like he is no longer what he used to be, and my guess is proven, my girlfriend was taken by my own best friend

if it's someone else who might not be this sick, whether our friendship can be replaced just because of a man I don't understand how tears have dried up,there is only a taste that can never be lost

heartache....

my mom and dad were starting to worry that I would often lock myself in the room, so I heard my mother's voice talking outside, with someone, as if we had a guest

but I still don't know who came home.

"deck, if you want to go to town, take my son too, pity that he's been locked up in the house for a few days, and find a decent job, I believe you can take care of my son..speak mother in a slow tone

,"good brother I can certainly take care of your son, I will find a light job, said my uncle

I heard all their conversations

I hope this is the best way to forget all the good memories with the people who hurt me..I hope that in the city as time goes on, everything will pass from my life, I will make sure to be better even if I have to go away from the people I love

I make sure my heart is closed to all love, I have to rise from this slump, it becomes easier if I don't have to have another lover, for me it's better not at all.

let me go to the land of men