WHO'S GONNA IMPREGNATE ME?

Go away

...In the end, we hurt each other. And you, smashed me to pieces.Nelam...

***

GECK..

GECK..

"I KNOW IT'S HARD FOR YOU, BUT I'M SORRY. I KNOW MY BIOLOGICAL SON RAKA, I KNOW YOU'VE BEEN SUFFERING ALL THIS TIME! I'M SORRY!"

Aksa was desperate, leaning her body against the door body, then her body descended slowly. He squatted in frustration over this incident. Unexpectedly, his big secret was revealed.

Raka approached her father. The boy rubbed Aksa's head. But Raka looks very sad. The plain figure who does not know anything about this, also filled and carried away. Aksa looked up at Raka, she hugged him. Aksa carried and raised Raka. Nelam was still inside, making Aksa worried.

"NELAM, I'M SORRY! I WILL REDEEM MY SIN ON YOU!"

Cracks..

Chequek.

Come out Nelam with a brown carrying bag, a knee-length white plain shirt. His eyes were reddened by his anger. Nelam also carried an umbrella. Aksa is getting panicked. Aksa would not give up just like that, let alone let Nelam go pregnant and outside also the heavy rain, Aksa would not let the woman go.

"Mama.. Hix.. Hicks.."

Raka stretched out her hand hoping that Nelam would carry her. But Nelam looked at her softly, then did not want to look at Aksa's face. Aksa held Nelam's hand again.

"I beg you, I'm sorry. Don't leave me and Raka. You are also pregnant with our child. Please forgive me."

"I promised myself. I don't want to see Raka's father again, and I can't live life with you. I have forgiven you, but let me go. I left Raka to you because you're her father. You can guarantee his future. Love him as much as I love him. My talk, let me live with my second child. Don't disturb my life anymore."

"Don't! Don't leave us, I beg you! Forgive me."

"Mama.. Hix.. Hix.. Janan pelgi!"

Hearing Raka's voice made Nelam's heart very sick. Nelam had to hand Raka over to Aksa, even though he was not willing. Nelam could not raise Raka to adulthood. It's choice. Nelam is already too sick because of Aksa.

Nelam walked towards the exit. The rain outside is very heavy, no matter where Nelam will go. Aksa took down Raka.

Raka just hugged her robot with her loud cry.

***

Nelam has opened the door. The rain was indeed very heavy, Nelam opened his umbrella, Nelam had walked into the rain, Aksa ran up to hold Nelam's hand tightly. Aksa's clothes got a little wet, then she sat down pleading in front of Nelam. Aksa this respectable figure could be very low because of a woman.

"You can slap me until you're satisfied. But forgive me, I'm really sorry."

"Let me go, don't hold me back. If you chase me, I'll stand in the middle of the road and you'll see your wife and child die. I mean it."

Aksa shook her head in a doldrums. He stood up, then held onto both shoulders. Aksa was sure, Nelam would do such recklessness if he curbed it.

"Alright.., take good care of yourself.don't hurt yourself and our child. If this is your decision, I can accept it. I will take good care of Raka. But I will always love you to death, really until now, I still love you. Take care of our son, if you've forgiven me, come back to me and forget everything."

"I promised I wouldn't live with you. I will live my own life as I used to. And will raise our own children."

"Let me kiss you one last time. L'm.. It's hard to take you off."

"Can't! I hate you!"

Nelam thumped Aksa's chest with a painful sobbing.

Where Aksa was as if she was screwing him by force, then leaving him just like that. Nelam remembers her being reviled by neighbors, even remembering the time she gave birth to Raka herself. Nelam pushed Aksa's body, then wiped away her tears.

Nelam walked away from Aksa while pulling his suitcase. Aksa drenched in rain. Aksa was like fleshy but boneless, he sat down languidly alluring himself.

"Dive up! Iloveyou! I hate myself!" Shouted Aksa while sitting languidly, Nelam looked at him for a while, then continued his steps. Aksa did not dare to chase after him, he was afraid that Nelam would really be reckless.

Raka is in the doorway holding her robot, she runs to catch up with Mama, but Aksa immediately catches her and holds her.

"MAMA! hyks. hyx.." Raka was crying hysterically.

...This is my destiny. I have to live alone again without a husband. But maybe it's God's way that I can be a stronger woman. I love him, but I can't live with him. The past is past, but the pain will continue to linger in my heart. When love makes me flabbergasted, I will attach importance to my self-worth not love. Me and my son, we're gonna be together. Let it be as it was, my son will never see his father again. Although I will miss Raka a lot, but I believe Raka can grow well. Women need to be as independent and strong as I am, and if you think I'm selfish. It's up to you guys, but I can't let myself dissolve into the pain-nelam. ...