When Marriage?

36# Goodbye to the past

Love is like rain that soaks a dry desert.

Seeped up to the seams of sand in the desert.

But when love goes, the desert remains the desert. Dry, arid will even feel hotter during the day and very cold at night.

Raline closed her eyes for a moment as she had just opened her eyes this morning. His eyes felt dappled as he tried to get up from his bed.

"Are you awake?"

Raline's mother who had just come to bring a bowl of soup for Raline to greet Raline who was still drowning on the bed.

"Ma.."

Sapa Raline, then she smiled faintly.

"How are you doing"

Raline's mother approached Raline and placed the back of her hand on Raline's forehead.

"I'm fine Ma"

Raline answered, and she tried to sit on the bed.

"Yes, I ate first"

Raline's mother scoops rice and her homemade soup for Raline. Raline smiled and welcomed a bribe from her Mama.

"Ma, Raline wants to go to Canada"

Raline.

"Canada? what's for?"

Raline asked her mother while looking at Raline.

"Raline wants to study there ma, want to continue to S2"

Raline. Raline's mother scrunched her forehead, then she gently stroked Raline's hair.

"You're not avoiding trouble, are you?"

Ask Raline's mother. Raline smiled wryly, she shook her head.

"No, Raline does want to go to college again. Raline wants a better life"

Raline said then she grabbed a glass of water beside her bed, and sipped her until half a glass.

"If that's your wish, Mama can only support you Line"

Raline's mother looked at Raline with teary eyes.

"Thank you Ma"

Raline said then she hugged her mother's body tightly.

"Have you enrolled in college there?"

"Raline is waiting for an email answer from the university there, hopefully received"

Raline said with a faint smile. Raline's mother only sighed slowly and returned Raline's smile.

"Mama's sorry"

"What's Ma for?"

Raline asked as she looked at her Mama's face carefully.

"Mama's sorry for having a panic attack and bullying you because you got married late"

A thread of tears began to plunge freely on the cheek of his mother Raline. Raline fell silent and lowered her gaze.

"Mama's been too much guilty of you Line. Mama doesn't always question you when to get married? Forgive Mama for panicking about your future. It turns out that Mama was wrong, getting married is not a benchmark for someone to be happy or something that is too questionable. When it's time, you meet the best person in your life and you're happy that's the most important point for Mama"

Said Raline's mother. Raline could not hold back her tears. No more words were spoken, Mother and child dissolved in their cries.

..

Fandy glanced at his watch, the needle already showing at nine in the morning. It was not usually Raline to arrive late, but this time it seemed that Raline did not go to work.

Fandy who every day monitored Raline in front of the woman's office wondered. Where's Raline? Is she okay? Is he sick? Had he stopped working and many more questions were raised in Fandy's head.

Fandy grabs her phone and ventures out to contact Raline. But a phone call from him has never been picked up again by Raline lately. He fell silent and drowned his face above his car.

Then he decided to send a message to Raline.

"May you be well. Don't forget to eat, take care of your health and remember, I miss you"

Then Fandy drove his car to the office.

...

Raline opened the SIM card and broke the SIM card and threw it into the trash.

Raline did not want to be the second person in the marriage of the man she loved so much. Raline is quite self-conscious, she is now a nobody to Fandy. She is just a fake ex-wife of Fandy, who is now living her decent life there is nothing going on between her and Fandy.

Raline put herself back in bed. And deleted all the photos of Fandy and himself that were on his cell phone.

"Goodbye to the past"

Her muttering.

Raline has to move on for her and her family. Failure is not the end of Raline's world. He has failed in love. Failure is nothing new to him. There is nothing he should regret, it is best that life goes on and must be lived.

..

A week had passed, Raline who was cool in front of her laptop got a notification that had just entered into her email.

Raline read the contents of the email, and then she was in disbelief.

"Yessssssssssss....!!!!!!!!"

He cried until he jumped up and down in joy.

"Why are you mbak?"

Sinta asked who was confused to see Raline's behavior.

"Gue was accepted to study in Canada Sin...!!!!"

Raline said while prancing with excitement.

"Seriusss you mbak?"

Tanya Sinta couldn't believe it.

"Yes....! you read it yourself..!"

Raline lifted her laptop and put it on Sinta's desk.

Sinta tried to read the contents of the email carefully. Then he looked at Raline in disbelief.

"Mr... You to Canada?"

"Yes.."

Raline answered with a sparkling face.

"Gokil lu mbak.. don't go..!"

Sinta said while keeping Raline's laptop away from her.

"Why?"

Instantly, Raline's face turned grim looking at her best friend.

"Gue doesn't have any friends anymore. Who am I going to be the same..?"

Sinta held back her crying. Raline looked at Sinta carefully.

"Lu cry?"

Raline asked as she brought her face closer to Sinta's face.

"Sir"

Sinta replied briefly while turning her face away.

"Crying?"

Raline asked again while holding back her laughter.

"Gue said no...!!!!"

Sinta replied with annoyance.

"Oh my goodness..here here hug"

Raline hugged Sinta's body which was silently pecking on top of her chair.

"Gue just for a moment Sin, after graduating S2 I will return to Indonesia, I promise"

Raline said then looked at Sinta carefully. Sinta cannot stem her sadness and loss. He returned Raline's embrace tightly.

"Lu's fine there, don't forget to eat. Take care of my health and please do not forget me. If there is time to play to Indonesia, and if I have money I play there can be yes"

Sinta said with tears falling on her cheeks.

"Gue promise"

Raline. They were crying at each other in their workspaces.