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episode 13 # BONFIRE

Rohim POV

Since the first time I met the woman, my feelings were often confused for some reason it felt like I always wanted to be close to her. Or just seeing it through from a distance, the feeling has made me calm. I deliberately waited to sit in the racana secretariat so I could see him walking into the campus. Until I tried to remember what time he was in college and what day.

Until one day because of problems in my family makes me no longer eager to come to campus. But the turmoil of the heart that just wants to see him beat the excitement because of my family's business. Until I didn't notice how I looked tangled and sometimes I didn't have time to comb my hair. The thin crosswise mustache was a bit thick because I did not have time to shave to tidy up.

I ventured to approach the woman through her best friend. Let me express my intention to know him more closely thankfully he would accept and reciprocate my feelings that are still stored strongly for him. But then again I wonder if I think he would accept me like this. I am not the type of active student and achiever on campus, while he certainly seems to have no shortcomings. Yabg I know from his best friend the criteria of his dream man is a smart and accomplished man who can spur his passion in learning. Moreover, eia a cheerful supple woman seems like a lot I heard likes to talk about the advantages. And it made me even more curious about him.

In my eyes he looks sweet and kind and always keeps the relationship with the opposite sex even though he jokes a lot with us adam. But I do know that he tries to keep himself and keep his distance from men who are not mahrom and that's a plus that not all women have.

But this was precisely all that made me insecure in front of him. But what's wrong with me trying to express my heart to her. And without me guessing it turns out he accepted me even though on one condition "try first to get to know each other".

" Yes." thank God it feels like I want to jump high because of my happy reception.

Since then, my spirit of learning has arisen again, even I try to improve my appearance so that I deserve to walk with him. It's okay if he can't love me yet, I'll keep trying to get his attention so he can love me.

Although the way we relate is not worthy like young people who are arguably dating at this time. There was never any physical contact even when we were talking to each other spaced never sitting next to each other let alone adhering to like dating people today. Rope I'm quite happy and enjoying it.

Until now his attitude is still normal to me, sometimes there is jealousy when he familiar with other boyfriend friends. Just like this morning when I accidentally caught the gaze of Susilo my old friend who was staring intensely at my woman. It didn't seem like the usual gaze of a friend or upperclassman. But the gaze of people who like the opposite sex. Obviously I was jealous of him. But I tried to restrain myself because I had not proven this conjecture.

Actually I offered to go to post six because I wanted to have more time with him so I had a chance to talk to him from heart to heart. And it feels like I want to reveal all my uneg so he knows that I'm jealous. But yeah, that's it. Like God really wants to keep him from being alone with me. My daydream ended when Brother Fitri rebuked me

"That way look at the road do not daydream the danger is the edge of the cliff" Mr. Fitri reminded me

"Yes brother" just a wide grin I showed you

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We waited a long time while helping to pack the prizes that tomorrow will be distributed to participants as winners of overnight games. Without feeling the time runs and the wall clock points to three in the afternoon. One by one the group began to arrive. Looks tired face and some clothes that look dirty mud. Fortunately they are required to wear ah raga clothes so the scout uniform is still clean and ready to wear the closing ceremony tomorrow morning.

From far away I saw a participant whose path was paved by his friend can be accompanied by brother Rohim. Sgera me and some of the women's committee walked over

"Why this?" ask Zakiyah who happens to be cooking today so do not take care of the post.

"aoh this brother was sprained by his feet when he wanted to go down the cliff" replied the friend who memapah

"Let's bring it here, sit down in the shade first" I suggested

I immediately ran inside to pick up the P3K box. Looking for wasp oil to massage his legs.

"Fa you can massage? " ask Zakiya

"ain shaa Allah a little bit can first time SMA ever participate in PMR debriefing and had become a member of PMR. I think I remember" answered "Bismillah" I began to move my hands up and down at the feet of the underclassman.

"Aws.. Aw.. Sore brother. "he screams samb let out tears.

"Propay is soon finished" I said

"Well, how is it that it still hurts now? "

"Lumayan kak has less pain"

"Alhamdulillah.. Now rest first here also ga papa so better, nih drink first"

"Yes, thank you "

"By sleeping first, now we live first yes there is still something to be done."

He nodded and we passed.

"Fa, I'll talk for a moment" Rohim suddenly stopped my steps

I looked into his eyes there was a lurch there, "good brother, but don't now not feel good about the other because there is still work" I refused to cupped my hands in the chest. "How about tonight after the campfire, hopefully not last, brother"

"Ok, ga papa" with a disappointed look he agreed and passed without saying goodbye.

Pas kumandang adzan asar heard all groups were already at the camping site back after completing the mission from post one to post six. They are welcome to rest and clean up.

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Dusk began to go and the red mega changed with the darkness of the night after the prayer isya we all gathered in the field near the bathroom to carry out the peak of the art performance accompanied by the flame of the bonfire.

After the song hymn scout art performance from the committee in the form of human ondel cloth wrapped sarong and holding the kitu buffer up then they slightly move to the right to the left, but impressed like a splashy shake. This ondel ondel is pandegani by Farida's sister.

The next appearance is the attraction of playing fireball that was kicked here and there by the player. This fireball is made from coconut which has been discarded outside coir but there is still a black coir then given oil and burned. It was so exciting that some of us who were sitting in a circle had to stand up for fear of being hit by the spark. Creatively.

No less exciting performances from other participants singing melodious accompanied by a slick guitar game. Reminds me of the figure of a young man who is again viral in social media who likes to arrange songs with the uniqueness of playing his guitar using his tract. There is also a mere lipsing song care duck fan swaying hilarious.

In between the excitement of the bonfire event, my eyes accidentally met with brother Rohim who seemed to be watching me from earlier. Ah.. Never mind.. Oh yeah, I remember this afternoon he said he wanted to talk to me. It's good after this show is over I'll see him.

When I turned my face to look at the participants who were glimpsing my eyes also caught the look of the eyes that had been watching me since then Susilo. I just threw a smile at him. Hoping for him to take his eyes off me no longer looked at me. I don't know if there's fear in the heart.

At half-elevenpm the bonfire was over. All disperse themselves into their tents. I'm still waiting to see if Brother Rohim will talk to me and what I'll talk about I don't know.

Sure enough, he was looking for me and talking for a while.

"we just sit here, so as not to cause slander because of tandem brother"

"Alright" his voice sounded a little lethargic

"What's wrong? to the point only"

"If I told you what are you comfortable with? It's out in the open where everyone can hear?" heed

"How serious? We may not be alone in a lonely place. The yakan? "

"Yes, I hope that no one is a nosy person who deliberately kepo our affairs" I nodded and sat in a chair not far from him but still remained within one empty curtain.

"Honestly, I want to make sure you can accept me with your heart?"

I fell silent and did not answer, afraid that what I said would offend him

"Why silence? Are you still unable to accept me to this day? Open your heart to me "

"Do you think that if I'm honest, you won't be angry? That's all my question. If you're not angry, I'll answer honestly. "

"Say, I will try to accept whatever your decision is, in which case I will begin to express my feelings for you." His voice began to slow down and I could not bear to express my honesty.

"Sister... Brother knows at the beginning I know the brother of Rini, a little he told me what brother was going through. My goal is only one want to accompany brother so that brother appears again the spirit of learning brother. No other purpose." I paused my speech

"I don't know I'm not from a wealthy family, I went to school with the mission of having to successfully change my family's life in the future. So it feels like there is no time to think about things that make me less focused on learning. Among them dating"

"Well I have a principle we just flow. If over time there is another feeling in my heart for my sister as you want, then God allows it but if the desire goes away by itself please do not force me, brother, let it all flow without any coercion"

I saw his eyes reddened and his sitting position had turned sagging with his head leaned against the back of the ringworm with his legs selonjor below. He took a deep and powerful breath then exhaled with a sound

"Heh.... "

I understand how she feels. But I can't lie to myself either. The feeling did not appear after a few months we lived together. But I also did not turn away and open my heart to others, because it was my focus for school first.

"I'm not going to force your feelings, but I'm still not willing if there are other men who are paying attention to you"

Suddenly I turned towards him I looked intensely at his eyes there was jealousy there.

"Why did big brother arrive like that? have I ever walked with another man? Where have I always been with Rini. Is brother jealous? "

"Yes you could say that, when I saw that someone else was also paying attention to you it was a heartache" I smiled in response.

"It's his right to like and dislike someone, we have no right to forbid it, right? "

"Sister knows anyone likes to notice me other than my sister? " i smiled

"It's night, go to sleep"

"well then... I'll go to sleep first"

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