
"Someone wants to see you" said the prison warden who was on duty that day. Erin who was reading the obligatory prayer guide book also turned her head. After several months of being held in the prison, he did get several visits. Freya and Abidzar. Ryan visited him a few times.
Yes, some time ago the ex-husband and his madman had come to him. Although Abidzar was cold to her, Freya was warm and friendly. Now there is someone else looking for him. Who'sis that? Is it Ryan again? I don't know, Erin can't guess.
"Who sir?" ask Erin while closing the book. But the warden only put his shoulder to the answer that he did not know. He had only served a few days in the room so he did not know the guests who often visited the room. Erin stood up and followed the guard into a closed room that turned out there had sat a man with a bowed face.
Erin stepped out her legs with her heart racing. He knows the owner of the body. Even though he lowered his face, but he still recognized her very much. Not a little time they missed together, so of course he very well memorized the figure.
"Ryan .." murmured Erin with trembling lips and choking breath. He did not expect that figure would still meet him. Though he often avoids the arrival of the man, but it turns out he remains persistent to visit him.
The man who allegedly was Ryan raised his head. Then he smiled. The sweet smile that always managed to melt his heart.
"Hi Rin, how are you?" ask Ryan. Well, just a small talk because of the appearance of Erin too she knows how the mother of the child. Not much different than the last time he saw her. Maybe about a month ago he went to the palace to see the woman who was still enthroned in his heart.
Erin smiled faintly, then sat across from Ryan. There was a small table as their barrier.
"As you can see, I'm .. fine," replied Erin who was of course a lie. Ryan knew that, but he didn't want to ask too many questions which would only make Erin feel more uncomfortable.
Erin looked at Ryan's face. His eye bags look blackened. The obvious fatigue made Erin wonder, what really happened.
"Have something happened?"
Ryan let out a heavy sigh, "Rio .. he's sick."
Erin's face pias. Anxiety riddled his mind. Although he was often indifferent, but actually in his deepest little heart, he loved his son very much. His love for his ex-lover. Ex-lover who honestly until now still reign in the heart.
"Rio's sick. What pain? Is he seriously ill? Why is he sick? Answer me quickly, Ryan! Don't just shut up!" jak Erin was impatient.
Tears dripped from the eyes of the two men. There is a love wound in the netra of both.
"He's actually just a fever. According to the doctor, given drugs can reduce the heat. But the problem isn't that."
Ryan paused his story. He breathed a long sigh while looking fixed on the face of the idol.
"Why silence? Continue story. What's the problem? Why do you look so agitated? Ryan, what exactly is going on?" cecar Erin was really curious.
"Rio .. he .. misses you. He's sick of missing you, his mother. What am I supposed to do, Rin? I'm rattled. I don't know what to do? He misses you so much. I ... What should I do, Rin? I should what?"
Ryan sobbing. So did Erin. He regrets what happened to him. Had he not done anything that broke the law or done anything reprehensible, he would have always been there for his son. If he were aware early of his mistake, he would have had the opportunity to contribute to the growth and development of the son.
But now, regret is free. Rice has become a porridge. Everything has already happened. Time can't turn back. He can only live his days on the lapas while making amends.
"I'm sorry, Ryan. Ii'm sorry. If I were not selfish. If I can be wise and not greedy, of course we will continue to be together, raising Rio together. And Rio will definitely grow up healthy like the other children. Ii'm sorry. It's all my fault. All due to my stupidity, greed, and selfishness so Rio who has to bear it. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, sorry ... "
Erin roared bitterly. Just like Ryan, he didn't want his son to see this. So what should he be? What can he do for his son's recovery?
Seeing that Erin was shocked, Ryan stood up. He approached Erin and crouched down in front of her. Erin's hand was taken and held tightly.
Erin shook her head firmly, Ryan did not think wrong. Instead she thanked him because Ryan still appreciated her as the mother of Rio. Maybe if other men were to experience what Ryan was going through, he would definitely hate him a lot. Let alone giving news, meeting was definitely reluctant. It could even be, forever he will be separated from his baby. It is forbidden to meet until there is only a sense of longing that increasingly torments the heart.
"No. You are not wrong. Instead I thank you because you still consider me as Rio's mother. "
Ryan clasped his hand against Erin's, "no need to thank her for wanting to be up until whenever the fact that you are Rio's birth mother will never change. I'm disappointed in you, but I can't keep you away from Rio either. I can't be that cruel."
"Ryan ... " Erin was more intrigued when he looked closely at the male neutrals that he often hurt. I don't know how many wounds he has inflicted on Ryan, but the man always forgives him no matter how big his mistake.
Seeing Erin's fragile side, Ryan could not help but hold tightness in his chest. The fragile side that he never had
see all this time, now it is precisely a sight that he often sees every time he meets. It started since her farewell before Erin gave herself up back then. Then after that, every time he met, he often saw the tears.
Ryan then pulled Erin's shoulder and held her tightly. Erin's body shook in Ryan's arms. The two cry together. Both felt the same wound. But there was nothing they could do but live it.
"Sstt .. Yes! Don't cry anymore!"
"Rio, Yan, what about Rio? Poor him. My fault. It's all my fault."
"Shh ... Yes already! We don't have much time. I don't want to see you always crying. I want to remember you with a charming smile, not a painful cry" she said after letting go of her arms. Then she wiped Erin's tears with the back of her hand. "Rin, how about you make a recording as if you were working somewhere far away."
Erin frowned, confused. Then Ryan explained what Erin had to do. Erin rushed to do what Ryan instructed.
...***...
"Hi dear," called Ryan to Rio who was playing the rubik in his hand.
Rio then raised his face while smiling.
"Papa," cried Rio.
"What else is the son of papa? Did you take medicine?"
"Rio is playing this. Rio also took medicine. Rio did not want to drink, but said grandma later mama was angry and did not want to go home. So Rio's taking the medicine" Rio's arguing with Ryan. Ryan's mother who heard it chuckled.
"Well, papa pinter's son!" praise Ryan.
"Yes dong. Kan Rio's been eating and taking medicine, where is his mother? Rio's going to see you, Pa. Which mama?" pinta Rio with sparkling eyes. He was looking forward to the moment when he could meet his real mother.
Ryan then rubbed the top of Rio's head gently.
"I'm sorry son, you can't bring Mama home yet. Papa hasn't been able to bring the two of you together because ... "
"bad dad. Papa said he wanted to bring mom home, but where? Mama does not exist. Papa lied. Papa is a liar," shouted Rio.