Understand Me

Good bye

Ursila was confused as to what to answer, how to respond. His heart felt torn. Only then did he feel happy after abi's departure and now he must feel sad again because of the loss of heart.

"Yes, it seems like she has the same feelings as you, and she will be happy to hear that sentence of yours" Ursila replied with a tight chest.

"I really feel happy. Honestly, from the first meeting with her I found it hard to blink my eyes, and after a few times meeting and chatting with her, I became more and more convinced that I loved her. And after driving you will immediately meet and say this to him" said Gaza.

That sentence made Ursila's heart fall into the abyss of sadness. Ursila understood very well, it is natural that Gaza likes Flowers, because Flowers are beautiful women, coming from rich descendants. Compared to itself, it is like heaven and earth.

Along the way Ursila just kept quiet while Gaza always issued a sentence of babble that somehow felt unable to be heard by Ursila, because he dissolved in his sadness.

Arriving in front of Ursila's house said, "again congratulations Mas for his S2 study opportunity and hopefully smoothly, goodbye Mas".

"Goodbye? maybe you mean to see La" Gaza said

"No Mas. I wish you good luck, good-bye", Ursila replied immediately out of the car.

Ursila felt her body very weak. He went straight into the house and without further ado with Umi straight into the room. She felt that only the room was the safest place to vent and cover her grief.

The restaurant was closed, Ursila wanted to hurry home. And the phone reads there is a chat from Bunga that reads, "La, I'm glad Mas Gaza turns out to like me, and I reply yes. My heart is so happy right now".

Reading it was enough to strike Ursila's heart. He just congratulated her and turned off his phone. Didn't feel his cheeks were wet because his tears were falling. Ursila just wanted to calm down. Want it to quickly go home and vent their sadness, annoyance and disappointment.

A few days had passed, Ursila became a more reserved person, even friends on campus and restaurants were confused by the change in attitude that had happened to her. So did Gaza. Almost every day he went to the restaurant where Ursila worked and almost every day also Gaza always felt the laughter of Ursila.

Until one day a friend at the restaurant talked about the departure of Gaza to Austria. They felt sad because there were no more handsome men they could see every day. Actually, there was a sense of sadness in Ursila's heart, but she thought maybe this way she could forget about Gaza. Although it is actually a bit difficult, because Ursila is the type of person who is difficult to love with others, but once she loves then she will be difficult to forget it.

Ursila still felt dissolved in the endless sadness. Every night before going to bed he always cries for his fate as if he will always feel the sadness and bitterness of life.

But it did not continue long after one of ustadz in the study that often Ursila and Umi came to, once said a sentence that everything we love very much, he said, but it was drawn by Allah SWT, so learn to husnudz-dzhan (prejudice good) because actually at that point God is jealous and wants His name called and exalted.

If you remember that sentence, Ursila always said istighfar and he realized it was not wrong if Allah SWT snatched the one he loved, because he always looked at the person as the source of his happiness, though he understood very well that happiness does not lie in the presence of a person, but comes from a calm heart that is spoken and his heart always remembers Allah SWT.

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