Ukhti Bar - Bar

Chapter 27# The Touched Heart

The afternoon is after the ashar on the first Friday of each month.

In pesantren musholla there is a study that contains lectures and sholawat together.

Incidentally, that afternoon the speaker was Gus Amar.

At that time Gus Amar also told how when he studied in Cairo. Also about the atmosphere there.

The santri are very serious.

Until, when Gus Amar explained about how the way and the way every human being seeks the pleasure of Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala.

Every thing that happens in human life has been written on Mahfudz even when the man has not been born.

No human being can resist this fate. Regardless of good or bad.

For God knows best what is best for his servant.

Good is not good for us, says God.

Meanwhile, what we think is bad is best for us according to God.

Man only needs to accept patiently and sincerely, believing in Qodho and Qodar as part of the pillars of faith.

"The ugliness, the calamity, even the heartache even the disappointment we experience we feel. If ... we accept all with chest area. Heartened, it is better to forgive without any grudge embedded in the heart that will only become a lump of disease. Therefore, God willing, from our pleasure, God will melt our sins this mountain little by little."

"Man never even realized he had committed a sin. There are many things that we do not intentionally and that happen. But God with his generosity. With his affection. Do not want us to be submerged in the mud of sin. Thus, God melts our sins with various kinds of pain and distress. Including that disappointment."

"believe and believe that what God has ordained is best for us. Do not beat everyone with bad behavior just because of our hatred of someone. Every human's fate is different from that of any other human. Likewise with fortune, death and soul mate. Sometimes, man with all his short thoughts has subconsciously surpassed the power of God who is supreme and glorious."

"Hopefully, all of us .. including the santri here are kept away from the nature as I mentioned earlier. If, we are able to give up every event that God gives and accept it all with sincerity. There is no word of trauma or fear in our hearts. Qul huwallahu Sunday ... Allahushmad. God is the only God on which we depend and rely." Gus Musa ended his session.

Some of the santri were fit, but Hasna seemed to be still stuck in silence on her alphabet.

For some reason, the words from Gus Amar just so touched his heart and consciousness.

Hasna was slapped hard. From the faithful word for word that the man uttered.

Slowly the tears that had been stirring had fallen down her two reddish cheeks.

All this time he was so scared.

All this time he has labeled every man who is a servant of God as a guilty creature for all the pain he receives. For all the disappointment he felt.

Until, unknowingly Hasna had treated them without adab. Indirectly he has been takabur because he feels to be the most suffering person in the world.

While there have been many things and gifts and happiness that God sent in his life.

Hasna just continued to sink into pain and disappointment to not feel happy and like God gave her.

Hasna went deeper.

In that moment of regret pressed his chest strong.

"I am indeed a sinner" said Hasna.

Until, a gentle pat on the shoulder resuscitated him.

Hasna turned her head after rubbing her cheek rough with the back of her hand.

"Sarah" he said as his friend was by his side at the moment.

"You're all right, right?"

Hasna only nodded weakly in response to Sarah's question.

"Yes yuk. We're going back to the dorm. Later magrib, we come here again to pray together. Mending you rest first in the room," take Sarah.

Hasna felt lucky, here she also had a friend who understood her circumstances and mood.

So that he doesn't feel alone. Although, sometimes Hasna misses her old friends on campus.

At the time Hasna came out accidentally she was breathing with Gus Amar.

Hasna was actually a bit surprised.

This girl did not expect to meet a figure who was able to cry because she remembered her sins and deeds.

But, quickly Hasna was able to control herself.

Hasna did the same with Gus Amar. Without daring to raise his chin, because Hasna faithfully subdued his gaze.

"Wa'alaikum salute Gus," Hasna answered simultaneously with Sarah as well.

Instantly, he felt hesitant and did not dare to just look at the shining face of Gus Amar.

For Hasna Gus Amar's face there are flickering lights guys. 😁

"Tumben really nih ukhti nduk aja meet me. Usually a face. Why is he?" astonished Gus Amar inwardly, seeing Hasna's attitude change to him.

"How are you?" ask Gus Amar who doesn't know what to say.

Meanwhile, Sarah who was beside Hasna was shocked. How the two can know each other.

"Thank God be good, Gus. I'm sorry, Hasna went to the hostel first" Hasna replied.

Hasna knew that Sarah was thinking things out. In fact, the girl had rounded her mouth involuntarily.

"Ah yes, well," replied Gus Amar resigned.

Though he still wants to linger to just chat even for a moment. But the man was conscious.

"Astagfirefull!" Gus Amar rubbed his face rough with a turban he held around his neck.

"So your eyes and heart, Amar. You have sinned so much you thought that way just now" he murmured.

Arriving in the dorm room.

"Na. Your poke should be clear to me clearly. How do you know Gus Amar? So you were in that place?" fawning Sarah with a serious facial expression.

In fact, Hasna disliked her personal life at the very top like this. He felt it was his right. Hasna was free to keep it alone.

However, he could not bear to let Sarah and now Syifa who approached him later tonight would sleep in a state of curiosity and delirious.

Be, Hasna decided to share a little of this story.

"Don't know if I'm called Ning Khumaira, on purpose" Hasna replied briefly.

"Oo .. That you came home those nights huh?" guess the two friends are in unison.

Hasna also nodded casually, although the two friends seemed so enthusiastic and wanted to continue their kepo sessions.

"There's also a good thing your hand is hurt, Na. You can know Gus Amar. Although, he still lost the famous Gus Musa. But, one of the idols is also in this boarding school," said Syifa.

"Baby, pinter, but unfortunately very mature. Too heavy. Gus Amar must be looking for a wife who is as advanced as his knowledge" Sarah analyzes.

Hasna just shook her head.

His two friends always had a discussion about men.

"Yeah, Hasna. We're not done yet. How did you fall asleep!"

"Hasna, don't sleep in a daze!"

At the Kyai Faisal Basri.

Gus Amar is seen with his younger brother, Gus Musa.

"Well, what am I talking about? How, like, really serious?" cecar Gus Musa was full of probes.

"Daddy, actually ... "

Seriate