Twins A And Miss Cheriwis

S2 - Chapter. 1 - Will Never Be Substituted

PoV Arash's

Since the Princess' departure, I have always held back my tears from coming out. Although I always fail to do so, but I always try not to sob and drag on crying over the departure of my wife. It's not that I don't love, but I just don't want to make the Princess tormented when I see that I cry as much as she does. I don't want to make Princess feel sad in her nature at this time.

But, for this time I can't hold back my crying anymore. I can't help the sadness that I've had for months. I can't hold it anymore. I let go of all this burden in Abash's arms. I put all my emotions in my twin's arms.

Satisfied after venting this feeling in my twin's arms. Although I have not been completely sincere and accepted the departure of the Princess, at least I have expressed all my heart to the twin-Abash. I know he was hurt because of my attitude towards his wife. But really, I didn't do it on purpose. I was just carried away by feeling, because I really miss the Princess figure.

Every day that I spent with him, it became a memory that meant the most to me. I regretted not spending more time on him. If only time could be re-enacted!

I will quit the police force to spend more time with my beloved wife.

To be honest, I became a cop not because it was my real goal. I want to be a cop, because I want to prove to the world, if not all cops are as bad as they think they are. And also, I'm interested in the uniform that Daddy Bara always wears. A brown uniform that looks so dashing when worn by him.

Maybe that's the reason I became a police officer, until finally I was able to achieve various kinds of awards that I have today. A tribute that made my mother feel proud and straightened her shoulders. I've sworn, if I'm gonna be an honest and fair cop.

But, for some reason since I lost Princess, I feel like being a cop is not the right choice for me. I was too busy in the office and in the company, so I made less time with my beloved heart. If time could be repeated, then I would choose to be a businessman, so that I could manage my own work time and spend my days with my beloved daughters.

O God, forgive me for loving your creatures so much, more than I love You. O God, is this a form of Your jealousy towards me? So that you separate me from my wife?

I know, he's all yours. But can't you let me have more time with my wife?

O God, forgive my guilt and selfishness. Please keep him in your paradise.

I looked at the face of my son who was playing with Shaka. My youngest brother looked so fond of my eldest son. But, where is Yumna? That feeling I heard her crying.

I searched for Yumna around my brothers, I could not find my little daughter in my arms Mama and my in-laws. Not even in the arms of my brothers. Where is Yumna?

I set foot into Yumna's room, hoping that my little daughter would be there. My steps came to a halt, as I had just opened the door of Yumna's room which was not tightly closed. This blood rippled, as I looked at the figure that I so longed for. My heart was beating fast, hoping that what I saw was not a fantasy. Slowly, I stepped my foot to get closer to the object I was currently looking at. I wish this wasn't a dream. I wish that what I saw was really her, my wife.

"Daughter?"

One drop of my tears fell when I saw that the woman sleeping with my little daughter was real. The woman next to Yumna was indeed my wife.

I also get closer to my steps, I want it to feel immediately I embrace the slender body. Hugging her with all the love I have just for her.

"Rash, are you here?"

"Mas Arash?"

My body feels weak, my blood doesn't flow. In fact, I felt as if I had stopped in this second as well.

I almost hugged the wrong person. Thankfully, my mom came at the right time. If not, maybe I've …

Akhh, I can't imagine it. I will feel more guilty for the Princess.

"Rina, are you here?" Mama Kesya approached Rina, the woman who slept on the bed with Yumna.

"Yes, Auntie, earlier Rina accompanied Zia to bed Yumna into the room. Uh, I don't know if even Rina who overslept. Maafin Rina, Auntie," said Rina as she got out of bed.

I saw Mama Kesya smiling and walking closer towards us. But, wait. If Rina says she's with Zia, where's my sister-in-law? Why does he not appear to be in the room?

"No papa, Rin. After all you must feel tired because it has helped a lot," said Mama Kesya with a smile.

"No papa, Tan, Rina's happy to help. After all, Rina does love children," he said with a sweet smile while stealing a glance at me.

I smiled faintly, for some reason I caught another meaning of his words. In addition, glare at Rina's eyes as if the woman was interested in me. Don't you know if I'll never open my heart to any woman again? I have promised myself and my late wife, if not to replace her position in my heart with any woman. After all, the love and affection that I gave to Yumna and Rayyan, I think was enough for both of them. There are so many people out there who survive without remarrying, and they all manage to educate their children with love, as well as the affection that a father can give, he said, who also doubles as a mother.

I'm sure if I can give my best to my children, without a mother from any woman.

"Oh yeah, where's Zia?" ask Mama Kesya. That was my question too, right? Where is my sister-in-law?

"Oh, Zi-zia .. Emm, Rina doesn't know either, Auntie. Maybe when Rina fell asleep, Zia came out of the room," replied Rina.

I continued to look at Rina, noticing if she was lying to get my attention or my mom's. But, as I looked at the look on his face, I did not see any lies that the woman had been emitting. Is he telling the truth?

"Oh so," said Mama Kesya with her soft voice. "Em, since Arash is already in the room, we should go out, Rin," asked Mama Kesya as she reached out her hand to Rina. "Let Arash take care of Yumna."

"Yes, Aunt."

Rina walked past me, seeing the woman lower her head slightly while smiling sweetly. I just nodded my head back without returning the girl's smile. To be honest, I don't want to give any hope to Rina, nor any woman. As I said earlier, if I really wanted to leave the Princess position empty and would never be replaced by anyone. I will never let my children get a mother figure, other than her mother. I will not make my children forget their real mother and love their mother more.

No, I would never do that. I will never allow the figure of the Princess to be replaced until at any time. There will never be a woman who will be able to replace the figure of the Princess in my heart. It never will.