Truly Love

Feeling Lost

During the break, the cafeteria was full of students who might have been starving. Among their crowds, Elsa was sitting bored while stirring her orange iced drink.

"Lo why did you keep pouting?" asked Anna who was sitting next to him.

"My males.." answered Elsa.

"Udah, don't think about yesterday. You can still fix things."

Suddenly Elsa stood up which left Anna a little confused, "Well, you're right." Elsa immediately bought drinks and food. All that for the Eagle. It is impossible for the Eagle to miss his break without orange juice and the peek of Maman mang. After buying, Elsa immediately headed for class. But, and again when he got to the front door of the class, his steps stopped when he saw that there was Dea in the classroom and sat beside the Eagle, complete with food and drinks like Elsa brought.

Either they see it or not or even just pretend they don't see Elsa. What was clear was that their conversation was so captured in Elsa's ears.

"Lo know my favorite."

"Kan lo every day that snack."

"Ciee, ngamatin I keep," Eagle slightly pinched Dea's nose.

"That, don't wait for the time. You often take me to the cafeteria just buy this. Oiya, PR is done."

The eagle smiled as he scratched his head, "If this is the case, I'm ashamed of you. Cook yes, you know my PR."

"Father if only once, next time will not let you try yourself.."

Elsa could no longer hold back her tears. Why is he now so easy to get carried away with the Eagle. He turned his back and walked quickly to the back of the school. There were only a few other classmates there. And the food she had bought, she finally gave it to Rere, her underclassman whom she happened to meet. He continued his steps and sat under the tree so that no one would see his tears. I forgot, you have Dea now. Aren't we gonna be able to kayak again, Lang??

The shadow of his past with the Eagle continues to cross Elsa's mind which makes Elsa sobbing. Her crying came to a halt for a moment when a hand stuck out and gave Elsa a tissue.

"Fandy?" Elsa saw Fandi already sitting next to her. Elsa didn't take the tissue and Fandi wiped Elsa's tears slowly.

"You why? Still thinking about yesterday?"

Elsa shaking.

"Then?"

"Elang is now the same Dea and we can't be kayaking anymore. Especially now, I can't do anything for an Eagle." Elsa's story while continuing her crying.

Fandi rubbed Elsa's hair. Is Elsa jealous of the Eagle?

"What do I need to do, Fan? I don't want Eagles to think I'm like people don't know each other. Since our childhood together, how could I possibly be far away from the Eagle."

"Maybe the Eagle needs time without you, and maybe it's also time for you to decipher everything."

Hearing Fandi's words, Elsa looked at him for a moment. "deciphering?"

The eagle is not his rival, consider it Fandi. If Elsa really couldn't lose the Eagle, she would give up. Love is not a prohibition but it has the right to choose. "Well, that means your feelings. Between real love and momentary admiration."

"But it's impossible, Fan. Eagle, my best friend.."

"And you just stick to it. Sa, I do love you. Same, I don't want to lose you either. But love has the right to choose. I can't force you to keep having you."

All this makes Elsa's head feel dizzy. "Don't talk about this anymore, the Eagle's already with Dea and I'm already with you."

Elsa stood up and followed Fandi walking towards the class that she had previously wiped away the remains of her tears from being seen. Just as the two of them entered the classroom, the Eagle's gaze was fixed on them.

The eagle clenched its hands hiding under the table. He could catch Elsa's nimble gaze. All of this does take a process to really not care about Elsa. Calm Eagle, calm.. Elsa would be happier without me... The eagle reassured himself while turning his eyes away.

The days passed, still the same. The eagle never spoke to Elsa again, even until her legs healed. The eagle lives in its own world. Even some chat from Elsa was never avenged Eagle.

The more days Elsa feels the more she loses the Eagle. His days were no longer excited even though there was Fandi who always accompanied him. Like that afternoon, Elsa's body was next to Fandi when Fandi was driving forward but his gaze was on the Eagle who managed to overtake Fandi's car and turn in the T-junction. Where's the eagle going?

"Sa?" call Fandi. But Elsa didn't say. "Hey," Fandi finally touched Elsa's cheek for Elsa to see.

"Yes?" Elsa looked at Fandi. Although he actually still kept thinking about the Eagle.

"We're going to the yuk park?" invite Fandi who only answered a nod from Elsa. Fandi turned his car into a park. Before arriving at the park, there was a motorbike that overtook him tightly.

Because David drove his bike too fast, he didn't see any holes in the road and either because he wasn't focused and he fell.

Seeing that, Fandi stopped his car. He got down and immediately helped David. Uphold David's bike first and then pick it up. Then Fandi reached out his hand to David to help him stand up.

David just saw Fandi. He took off his helmet, "Lo why do you still want to help me?!"

"Because you are my friend" replied Fandi.

David stepped aside and sat on the sidewalk. He was silent as if thinking of something.

"Gue wants our problem solved. No one else is a victim of our problems." Fandi is sitting next to David. Elsa sees them next to Fandi's car.

"Elang yesterday found me. I thought he told me to the police and sued me for the accident but he just asked me not to bother Elsa again and get better at you," david's story while looking straight ahead without seeing Fandi.

"Relang?" I took Elsa from her, but the Eagle is still this good. Fandi stared at the moment Elsa who started to knit her eyebrows again.

"Eagle's fate is like mine, only the difference is that Eagle is not your friend. Eagle could be your big enemy and he should be able to take your girl. But he's done everything, even he wants you to be happyin Elsa. I should be able to sample the Eagle. I realized that great men are not only physically strong but also strong at heart."

Fandi's mind was now fixed on the Eagle. It shouldn't be the sick eagle. Fandi turned to look at Elsa again. I need to be able to feel Elsa. Even though I have to lose Elsa, I am willing to return to the true owner of her heart.

"Gue wait you in Bandung. I've been repeatedly talking about you."

Fandi embraced David for a moment while patting him on the back as a sign of their peace. "Gue must be there, waiting for this semester off. Why not school?" ask Fandi at the end.

"After the incident, I was down but this year I want to list school again." David stood up and headed for his bike, "Gue has to go back to Bandung now. WA number I keep, ntar blocknya I open again. Greetings to the Eagle. Ntar you also take to Bandung."

Fandi smiles. "Yes. Sure. Lo be careful." Fandi's hand was accompanied by David's departure. Then Fandi and Elsa got back in the car and a little while later they continued on. They were still silent and were both thinking about the Eagle. Arriving at the park, Fandi immediately parked his car.

...***...

"Woy, you're fighting futsal but it's a bengong. Loss dong we rent the field." Bagas threw the ball at the Eagle who just sat quietly on the sidelines.

"My head is dizzy" replied the Eagle as he threw the ball back onto the field.

Bagas now sat beside the Eagle. Indeed, the hot temperature of the Eagle was felt at that moment by simply nudging his arm. "Lo's sick? Your body is hot."

"likely. My head is very dizzy from earlier so I invite futsal who knows with exercise I can be healthy again." The eagle now drinks the mineral water in the bottle. It was so bitter, a sign that he was sick.

"Lang, Lang's. Lo that's funny. Where there are sick people made exercise directly healthy. The sick man took medicine and kept resting. You go home and you get worse."

"Lo why did you upset me?"

Bagas laughed at the Eagle's serious face, "Baper lo don't miss." Bagas embraced the Eagle and patted him on the shoulder. "Lo don't torture yourself until you have a fever like gini. I know, you're still thinking about Elsa. You can't be far from him."

"Well, for a few weeks, I lost contact."

"And it hasn't been a month in fact you've been sick."

The eagle took a long breath. Well, she couldn't stop thinking about Elsa for a second. "Like what I said to you, I'll stay away from Elsa even I won't talk to her again so I can completely forget my feelings. It feels really painful, Gas. Since then, I have never seen Elsa smile again. I usually joke with him. But now?? Because I got away from him, he was this sad. Then how should I be? Stay with Elsa and let my feelings get bigger? Elsa is still with Fandi." The eagle massaged his temple for a moment so that the pain disappeared. "Gue's confused. Honestly, I'm tired. I don't know what else to do? I can't possibly continue to benefit from Dea. However good Dea somehow I still can't change my feelings for him."

Bagas understood, but the matter of feeling was so heavy. "Here you go, you don't think too much. Elsa can't be far from you. All at the Top." Bagas smiled broadly showing his pepsodent teeth.

"If I knew about it." The eagle turned towards his bag and packed up.

"Where are you going? So home?"

"You ngadem to the park. You wanna come?" bring the Eagle while wearing his bag.

"Well, I went to the same park. I'm still normal. I want to go to the park with Anna."

"As far as you!" The eagle turned its body and walked away.

"Ati-ati lo's. Don't faint on the street."

"Yes!" shouted the Eagle while saying goodbye to other friends. After that he exited the futsal court and headed for the parking lot. Sitting for a while on his motorbike while feeling his head getting dizzy. "Gue don't fall down." The eagle took a long breath. "It's a cool place to let my mind calm down." The eagle put on his helmet and a few moments later the bike started to go. Maybe he could calm down when sitting under a cool tree. Maybe maybe......