True Love Arka

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What's wrong with a fat-stained body? I know my body's not attractive, but that doesn't mean I have to be ostracized, does it?

Not that I don't deserve life and happiness, or love and be loved.

Although I'm actually immune to all kinds of insults, but that doesn't mean I never feel the name hurt and frustration.

Various ways I have tried to lose weight, but until now all ways are nil, aka not successful.

Maybe because I was inconsistent while on the diet program, too easy to give up just because of the temptation of the warm corn tubers presented on the table.

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Actually I'm happy with my fatty body, well the mess is not good to look at, and it's hard to get clothes directly so.

Instead of dieting for health reasons, it was actually a lie, I went on a diet because I wanted to be loved by a man I had long loved.

Is that wrong?

What a fat woman like me has no right to love a man, especially. For me, that man is very handsome, very very handsome, that is a fact. Not just in my opinion.

Proven by his career in front of the camera, well he is a Korean OOTD Model, Selebgram, and Youtuber.

Iyah, he is Arka Prasetya Sihombing, the man who managed to melt my frozen heart, who does not know Arka?

Arka is a nice guy with a very good family background, he is humorous, sometimes romantic, he is famous for his generosity and also humble.

He is the perfect man in all pairs of female eyes, he is also not a voting man, as evidenced by him who would be friends with me.

Despite the many flaws I have, it is clear that he has never been ashamed to be friends with me, he is a simple man despite his family's vast wealth.

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Arka and I have been friends since Elementary School (SD), when she transferred schools to my place, and also became my neighbor until now.

Well, even though we actually have different ages, Arka is one year older, she was born earlier than me.

As long as we are friends even if he never disappoints me, he is always my reinforcement, helper, protector, and encouragement to continue living up to this very moment.

Only he, the only male friend of mine who never looked at me physically, did not hurt me with hurtful words.

Many events that I was unable to pass alone as a teenager, during puberty at Junior High School (SMP), if only there was no him at that time beside me, accompany me when I really feel alone, maybe my name is already written on the tombstone.

Maybe that's why I started to love him, started to see him as a man, not just a man's friend.

Although Arka sometimes likes to act like a big brother to me, a friend for sure, which is even more surprising that he can be a father to me, which I have never had since I was five years old, he's a complete package.

I felt I could not live without it, instead of wanting to express love, I was even more afraid that my confession would be a pain.

Because we have a promise when sitting in High School, we can not like each other. I'm afraid by my confession he'll stay away from me.

So until this moment I always hold that feeling, let me suffer alone, than I will truly lose someone who is very meaningful in my life for ever.

Iyah, my life with her is inversely proportional, I'm difficult to get friends while she is very easy to get male and female friends.

Let alone friends, even lovers it feels very easy to get. Not infrequently he met a woman who expressed love to him first, he said, or find the women of the gift-giver simple to extraordinary, attentive to senseless things, just to get the attention and love of Arka.

I didn't get to it, though I admit, I loved her. It could be said that I am the luckiest woman, lucky to be friends with Arka this close.

As close as I am now, I am lying on his bed, as close as I am to his mother's breakfast, and as close as I am to this moment, I am playing chess with his father.

I admit and feel for myself, that I get some privilege stuff, that I can do while other women don't, even Arka's ex-girlfriend has never before gotten these kinds of things.

Ahh, Iyah whether this is good or bad news, right now Arka is alone, on the one hand I am happy because there could be a chance for me, there will be a chance for me, but on the one hand there will be more and more rivals that I have to get rid of.

Although Arka actually has a handsome look, but if he is angry he is very very scary.

Oiya, Arka is an only child, and his father is a businessman who is quite famous, so inevitably he will be the successor to everything that is currently being managed by his father.

And luckily again, the contents of Arka's head are adequate, he can enter into all the fields he wants, the point is not like me, which staggered wherever I want to stand.

Not infrequently Arka always helps me to be able to do anything I want, like a few years ago...

At that time I almost every day came to his house, studying with Arka in his room until late at night with some thick books just to be able to enter the same university with him.

But unfortunately my brain is not this much, it can not be compromised, I did not enter the university that Arka entered.

As a result I went to a university that accepted me, one of the national private universities, it was not too bad, but the thing that made me feel bad was... not being able to meet Arka every day, was the most painful torment.

whereas when SD, SMP, and SMA we are always together. Iyah, although Arka always left first, leaving me alone one year, but now I have to separate for approximately 4 years, it feels heavy, well at least one of the many students/i who are at the university.

If only Arka were present, I might not be as nervous as I am today, for I would not have to have any other friends besides Arka.

If only I had one university with him then I wouldn't have to be confused to go home and go.

But unfortunately, Arka which is likened to the Sky, until anytime I will not be able to stop.

Prasetya Sihombing Arka