Tree House

chapter 5

I have no one in this world. Wherever I go, a sense of stranger always bursts into my heart. But there was always you, someone who should have avoided me to the ends of the world. He always smiled at me and it added to the pain in my heart every day.

Among the many students in this Faculty, my eyes were immediately focused on the man who was leaning against the wall in the hallway of the classroom. I could see it from the classroom through the door at a 35-degree angle because I was sitting in the back near the wall that was in line with the door. With his casual clothes and his pony hair unraveling forward, he gave off a warm and friendly impression. He bowed while banging his back several times, one, two, and until I approached him.

"Jaemin-ah, why are you here?"

He raised his head quickly to face me. His lips that had been pursed were immediately attracted like a moon. His eyes were happy and dark. It was the first time I looked into her eyes like that. I walked up to him, taking him out of the faculty building where I was studying.

"Jihyun-ah, I actually have something for me to tell you."

This seems new to me. I've never really had a relationship with a man. You could say all my ex-lovers were always in an LDR relationship with me. So I don't need to meet in person because of my closed nature.

"What's? Hmm. If you don't want a story don't tell. But if you need an entertainer, you can find me. Even though I'm not guaranteed."

I've always wondered how other people behave in situations like this. What words are good to convey to the interlocutor.

"Hmm, I'll tell you later. Today I need time for myself. But I want you to come with me too."

Suddenly a male student came nudging Jaemin with his laughing voice.

"Yo, Whats up? Why not go to class? 15 Minutes too? You're gonna skip all day while you're on campus?"

I who heard it was just stunned in silence. Jaemin's truant? What's wrong with her? I saw Jaemin's eyes glancing at each other with the guy.

"Em, today I'm not your first class, sister," replied Jaemin while embracing her forcibly. They whispered to each other quietly, I don't know what to talk about.

At 2 p.m., Jaemin and I got out of the car. Shady trees as well as lush green foliage filled this place. We walked far up to a lake on which was built a two-meter wide bridge for pedestrians. Lotus and lotus plants also decorate the lake whose water is greened by foliage.

Nature is the best place for healing. Natural energy that will sweep away any unrest in the heart and give a sense of calm. I always wanted to go to a place like this, speechless and just slowly inhale and exhale, all my fatigue was gone. If so, I'm sure Jaemin's not okay.

"Jihyun-ah, isn't this place so cold? In this clear sky."

"Heueum, it was so soothing, feeling the wind slowly greeting my skin."

He smiled and I kept quiet. A comfortable silence. He who always hype with his friends and keep smiling in silence. Now his eyes only stared far away at the expanse of grass that was more than a thigh high.

I drowned my mind with counting. Fret, how long will he stay here. What I should do. I have nothing to say.

"Jihyun-ah looks like it's getting darker. We're home."

I just smiled in agreement and grabbed her hand to me.

"It looks like you have something to tell me, need I wait any longer?" I finally asked him.

"Well, I just want to breathe some cold air. Today's problem, I just want to spend some time together."

I raised my eyebrows and pursed my lips. Believing does not believe his words. I still don't believe in this relationship. A deeper relationship than a friend. I really suck at relationships as it turns out.

On the way, the sky was getting blackened and the road was not a city road. It's quite lonely. I'm not used to this kind of silence. Though all day I was with him, I should have been more comfortable, right?

I want to ask him things. Which may be a mystery to both of us. Should I joke about what I like? Or about what he likes? Why does it feel so tired just thinking about something like that. I couldn't help but hold back and finally ...

"Jaem, that night were you okay?" without a second thought, I said what disturbed my mind the most.

His eyes widened, stunned by the question that was thrown from his mouth that for half an hour was silent. He began to think long as it was. What good answers were given to me. But in his neck I saw the white light coming from the opposite lane being unfazed. He's meandering uncontrollably. Jaemin was shocked that the car in front of him was hit by a truck and blocked Jaemin's car and the truck was still driving towards us while we were locked.

I caught a glimpse of the victim in the car that hit us. She is an adult who drives alone. I yelled for the girl and Jaemin who was trying to justify the path of his car and open the car door. But the car didn't move until the truck hit us hard.

Suddenly silent atmosphere. I didn't hear any sound. My body was weak and suddenly paralyzed. Our car seemed to hit the road barrier hard. I tried to look to the left. Checking on the woman across and Jaemin as well but my eyes got sleepy and closed before I could see her.

In my dream I saw the collision happen over and over again. Just until I close my eyes, I don't know what it's going to be. How's Jaemin doing? What about the woman in the car? And what's wrong with that truck? That question always comes up in my dreams. Also the feeling of regret re-entered my heart. If only I hadn't confirmed Jaemin's plan to leave? Or we shouldn't have had that relationship or I shouldn't have even met her. Maybe Jaemin's memories will be happier.

After a long time of crying in a dream. I finally woke up from my old sleep. According to my brother who purposely visited the hospital. I've been sleeping for three days. Just this time I passed out, a new experience for me. And why should my deep sleep be filled with crying. That's not fair.

"Jisoo-ya, how are things."

"Wouldn't you go straight now? Don't want what used to be rowdy, abis accident too," he rented.

"The truck that hit his brake brother blong, Kak and the driver are also half-mabok. Keep one car, there are female victims but now it's been meningan, it looks like a rich man because it uses a private room," basic my sister just know.

"Sister Jaemin with Brother hasn't woken up yet, but he says it's fine."

"Know the room?"

"The special room is the guy across the hall, meaning yes it's the front door," while pointing straight at the opposite door.

"Ah, deket also yes. Oh, because you've been back there."

"Yey, I'm asking you not to come here because I'll take care of Brother."

"Your school?"

"It's still a holiday waiting for the date of entry, so it's a leisure."

"Keep the pocket money?"

"There's love, really."

Where do hospital fees have to be paid, right? Time has to ask Mama again. I really don't know myself, yeah.

"Sister, said the doctor, Brother can go home this afternoon it turns out. Kak Yura paid the hospital fee for Brother."

"Where's eggs?"

"Moreover the opposite."

Heum, of course. Yura likes Jaemin to look at him first rather than me. Why do I always envy other people's relationships. I mean I'm always jealous when my best friend is closer to someone else. Basic Shin Jihyun. Yura soon came with fruits and bread.

"I hear you are well. I can go home this afternoon, so I'll pay the hospital fee. But if it still feels bad later I say doctor let's stay longer."

"That's okay, we're sorting out right now. I don't have much stuff. Oh yes, I want to see Jaemin jerk off to Yura before I go home."

"Okay, now just there, let me be here with Jisoo who's settled."

Without long I went straight to Jaemin's room. Kirain will have Jeno and Haechan turns out Yura came alone. I took a look at Jaemin's place, and in the closet there were still fresh flowers decorating the room. I think it's thanks to Yura. Without realizing it there was a voice I heard.

"Who?" his weak thick voice spoke.

"I'm Jihyun, um patient in the next room." strange answer that came out of my mouth.

"Ah, I'm jaemin. Why are you here? And why am I here?"

"I think you're in an accident. Em, I'm just looking at the patients' room here. Oh yes I can ask, just a random question," let alone Shin Jihyun, what's wrong with your head. Maybe Jaemin just thinks I'm a strange person he doesn't know.

"Please take it." Even in the condition of forgetting his memory is still good.

"What if you're in a position where you have a chance to get back to the starting point of a messy situation? Are you going to re-elect or be put in place to continue the mess?"

"Why not face the chaos?" Jihyun was stunned to hear Jaemin's words.

"But you were given the chance to start again, you already know what will happen and can repeat it better, right?"

"You game, maybe I'll choose to lose and play again. But. If in the real world, we should still face the situation."

"But there's no choice, there's no further. You're just given the choice to shut up or run to the starting point."

"Rather than silence it is better to run to the starting point," Jaemin insisted without knowing the intent of Jihyun's question. In this way, helping Jihyun to slowly make Jaemin move away from her.

"Hmm, okay. If I did that I would. You're healing soon okay. Just some info I'm going home today. I'm saying goodbye."

For Jaemin perhaps Jihyun was just a foreign friend in the hospital at the time. Without knowing the other confusions haunt him after this.