This is Our Destiny

Chapter 36

After days, the search was stopped because it was impossible to find the sea too steep. But an Evan hasn't given up. One week, two weeks, one month, he finally gave up. He's already contacted Bella's family and told her all the information he got, and also about her search that he's stopped. He gave up, he accepted the reality even though he could not, he tried to make it even though it felt heavy.

This is where Evan is by the sea where all the families mourn, sowing flowers to recite prayers, in the hope that they calm down and get the most beautiful place by His side.

Evan turned around, walked away from the crowd, he left the place. Riding his luxury car to the apartment, a place he frequented almost every day, until he fell asleep there.

His parents were very worried about Evan. This was his second time like this, but this time he was like a soulless, blank stare. There was nothing they could do but pray that this would pass quickly.

Back to the apartment.

Step into Bella's room, where she spends the night. She looked at the dressing table where Bella had made up, imagining Bella being there doing makeup, turned to her with a seductive sweet smile as she rolled her one eye.

As if it would be real, Evan stepped up to him, getting closer, the view in front of him getting more faint, the shadow disappeared, there was no Bella there. The dresser is empty. Evan sat himself in the chair. Look at the mirror with a reflection of himself. Depressing.

Groping the table, everything on the table he touched as he came into contact with Bella. Enjoying every memory of her with Bella at the dresser, because Evan often teases her when makeup, and not only that, even Evan often teases her to stay in Bella's room, Bella's room, she always gets a rejection from Bella. Although they are very close, Bella still does not want more than just dating, and Evan really appreciates the decision, he also tries to keep Bella and does not want to ruin it.

Slowly his gaze shifted on the desk drawer. Slowly opened the drawer, there was a box that caught his attention, a medium-sized box, which was definitely not a ring because the box was too big for the size of the ring. Evan took it and put it on the table. Staring at him intensely, should he open, he hesitated, there was fear to open it. But curiosity trumps everything, slowly but surely the box opens.

Deg.

Turns out you've prepared all this. You really want to get away from me. You gave it all back. That's why you don't want to be in touch with me anymore.

Evan took out the goods in the box, starting from the car keys, the ATM that Evan gave his name and also the ATM that Evan gave on behalf of Bella, Bella, and also there are some keys that Evan knows what those keys are.

You also returned the gift I gave you. The cafe is yours, baby.

Evan shed tears without making a sound.His heart ached. Like pierced sharp objects hurt up to the heart. Something caught his eye, a white envelope. Evan opened it, the contents of which had been folded neatly, he took out the paper. A letter. He opened the letter and read it.

For sweetheart.

No yeah. Now we're ex-lovers. But we haven't broken up. All right let's break up. And now we're just ex-lovers. I want to laugh at our relationship status but the ones that come out are my tears. I'm a crybaby, but I still want to cry.

But you don't worry, some days I spend a lot of your money, I also keep some. I'm gonna use your money for a vacation, because you broke my heart. You know what it's like to hurt, I hope it's my last heartbreak. Are you worried about me? You don't see me anymore. But take it easy, I will not continue to cry, I will not linger long in sadness. You don't expect me to cry all day long either, I don't want to get sick, I can't do anything stupid. Died for love. I'm still healthy. Just pray, uh. I ask your prayer, may I? hopefully on my vacation there are Caucasians who fall in love with me at first sight, I will immediately accept it, even invited to marry I will immediately want to. I'm afraid of failing to marry again..

Our togetherness all this time, I never regretted it, even I am grateful that there was ever in your heart even though only a layover, ever loved you and loved you, even though the love for me has faded. I'm happy with you, but that's a soul mate, not to our liking, only God's soul mate determines. But that doesn't mean I'm waiting for you, yeah, I don't want your double. If you're a widower I hope we're not a match.

You know, when you saw you being photographed with a woman and a child, I was so scared, my chest was tight, my body was lifeless. If only I hadn't been affected, if I'd still believed in you, if I hadn't come, maybe we'd still be together. Let me be selfish. I don't know who sent me your picture and your home address. I still can't believe our relationship ran aground after you asked me to get married. But, I'm quite happy at least I've been proposed to be a handsome and rich guy, even though I didn't get married.

I'm not wonder woman.I'm also weak, I have a lot of questions in my head, but what's the point?. There's a lot I want to know, but what's the benefit? I want to be angry, I want to vent all my anger my sadness, but all useless when I see a cute baby in your sling, she diverts everything, my anger, my sadness, my grief, injustice to me (may I feel this), hurt, betrayed. I feel it all, but what's the point. There's a child among you, I don't want him to be sad if he finds out his parents aren't together anymore.

I surrendered. But sometimes my selfish side resurfaces, I still want to have you, I don't care about your other family, in our world it's just you and me. But your baby beat everything, I lost before the war, or maybe I've lost from the beginning.

Honey, you never lose, in my heart just engraved your name. You're the only one I love. Comeback sweetheart. Don't be like this. I want you to want you so much.

I'm goin. May you always be happy. I'll start my life from the beginning without you. Let's just say the cafe was a gift from me to your son, even though it was originally also from his father.

Don'tgo. My happiness is only you.

I will start a new life without you, pray for me yes, so that I can be happy too. Isn't life very short so it will be very disadvantageous if not happy.

You will always be happy, baby with me.

I promise I won't cry again. I will stop loving you. Don't be sad, hahahaha, because I will remember you, you know why, because I haven't had amnesia.

Don'tstop. Keep loving me.

Bella was in your heart.

You can still joke when your heart hurts, you're a good person, I know you still love me, so don't stop loving me. I believe in a soul mate and I believe you are my soul mate. My heart is still pounding when I remember you, I'm sure you're still alive. We will meet soon.