THE WOMAN (END)

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Three months have passed since that incident.I have locked myself in my room more often. But Mas Rizal seemed innocent and just being ordinary to me might even assume that the incident never happened.

This morning I woke up with nausea in my stomach. Severe nausea that made me want to vomit it immediately. I ran quickly to the bathroom, nausea that completely drained my stomach.

I stared at the worn-out mirror and looked at my face in disbelief.

"Two months," I muttered softly imagining that what I thought would happen. I came out of the bathroom.I saw that Rizal's room was empty.Surely he didn't come home last night.

I opened the door and saw that it was very late. I woke up this afternoon? how can I sleep so soundly. I lyrics wall clock that shows at 7.30 am.

Without thinking. I immediately prepared to meet Miss Syafira.he was a midwife who lived not far from my house. With the money I set aside every day, I ventured out of the house unbeknownst to Rizal. Even though I knew, I would pay dearly for my courage.

Upon arrival at the Midwife's house, I immediately entered the examination room.Lucky it is still morning and there are no patients.

"Well, Eyebrows. You came this early?" ms. Syafira looked back.

"You alone?" ask again.

Ms. Syafira is a midwife who has worked in my village for a dozen years. Since I was a teenager, I often help her in the clinic. sometimes I help clean up the clinic or just deliver drugs. she already knew very well how to tell my life story, so she looked panicked when I came to her alone.

"Mom, I want to check the contents of the ma'am." I can't wait.

Miss Syafira looked at me for a long time.

"You pregnant?" inquiringly.

"I don't know for sure ma'am, but I've been 2 months no months. I'm afraid ma'am!" I looked at him softly.he certainly knew what fear I was feeling right now.

Without saying much, Miss Syafira did some tests on me.

"You're pregnant Lis, congratulations! your gestational age is already 10 weeks" he explained.

I shook my head slowly.must I get pregnant in this messy condition of my household?

I wanted to end this marriage no matter how. But in fact, my intention is now only a very distant wishful thinking for me to reach.

"You must be strong.You must also be sure that everything will be fine.remember! There is life in your stomach lis! I think, if you speak well to your husband, he'll understand!"

I stared unconvincedly at Miss Syafira. In reality, talking is easier than doing it.

I went home with a bag of drugs in my hand.I looked far away somewhere. I can't bear this heavy burden, especially if I have to protect the fetus in my stomach. I rubbed my stomach slowly.

Upon arrival at home, I was shocked by the condition of the door that had been opened. I looked in wonder at the door.

"Mas! rizal is home!" I went inside the house and checked the whole room.

BRUG!

An object was heard falling quite hard from the direction of my room.I ran small towards the room.I saw Rizal was scrambling my wardrobe.

"Mas! what're you? why was my shirt ruffled?" ask me not to accept while approaching him with a gaze full of anger.

"Where's the money? where did you keep all that money?" mas Rizal seemed to focus on ruffling my clothes.

"What money? money for what? rizal lost his gamble again? you can stop gambling!"

Mas Rizal stopped and turned to me cynically.His two eyes flashed with hatred. Then his eyes shifted to look at the plastic bag I was holding.

"What'sthis? what kind of drugs are these?" mas Rizal opened all the drugs.

"Mas! stopit!" I took the drug before Rizal threw it away.

"where are you? and what drugs are those? answer me!!!" he was impatient.

I bowed in fear.

Mas Rizal was silent.he looked at me as if in disbelief.The young man stood up and approached.His gaze was truly frightening.

"You pregnant? you pregnant??? who is! who has dared to fuck you?!" His impact.

I glared sharply at him. incredulous at what he said just now.He questioned who was the father of the baby in my stomach?

I smiled bitterly.

"You think, which men would dare to fuck me. If they knew I had a crazy husband?" sulk

"You don't lie Eyebrows! I know, for sure as long as I'm not home.You're secretly bringing men into this house right?!" this time with one hand pointing at me.

PLAKKKK!!!

After my patience, and out of nowhere I got that courage until my hand landed right on his cheek.

"What kind of husband are you! how dare you accuse me of that? you think I'm a bad girl?"

Mas Rizal certainly did not accept my treatment which he considered too brave.he pulled and gripped my chin quite strong.

"I can't believe it at all! he's definitely not my son!" Mas Rizal pushed me until I fell to the floor, after which he went somewhere.

I was still on the floor, either crying or laughing. It's good that he doesn't acknowledge my son. Maybe he'll divorce me after this.

I stared at the medicine in my hand.

And in the midst of the troubles that plagued me, suddenly a neighbor from my mother came to the house.he knocked on the door impatiently. I got up though still with a chaotic feeling.

"Lise..! your father lis, your father was in an accident!" I am holding my hand tightly.

My body shuddered for a moment. My eyes stared somewhere.my mind seemed empty.

The world is playing tricks on me. It makes me fall down. Makes me feel like I don't want to live anymore.

Once upon a time, it never occurred to me that I would be the months of terrible destiny

Getting a husband who is really heartless until all the problems come to me.

Now my mother and I are only able to cry for my belly button. Calling him many times will not make him come back. Why did you leave us at a time like this when I needed her protection.

I don't even know what else to do to face my life.

My mother who was often sickly made me worry even more about her especially she lived alone.

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"Then what about your mother's tea?" mas Sandy looked at me curiously as I stopped telling stories.

"Mother died after 2 years of father's departure." I wiped my tears slowly. Sandy stretched out her hand and dried my tears.

The look of his eyes was sad, the urate of anxiety was clearly drawn on his face.

"I'm sorry for forcing the Eyebrow tea to tell you. I'm so sorry!" Steady-tossed slowly.

I smiled thinly.

"No mas. actually I am relieved because I can tell this calm in Sandy mas. all this time I always close my life story. I do not want to be the subject of people's banter. they'd laugh if they knew my true life story."

Sandy pulled my body into her chest.

"I promise I won't hurt you tea. I really love you. And I assure you, you two won't suffer any more after this!" obviously while showering me with a sweet kiss on my head.

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