The Ugly Wife's

Apologies

Asyifa stared at the red burial ground where her father's body would now lie forever. Not a single tear could be seen flowing down the woman's face.

But his expression can show how broken he is right now. Even though the gaze was directed toward the burial ground, it looked completely blank as if it no longer had a life.

It was half an hour after the release of Kemal's body was buried in a public cemetery in the city where the man was born.

But the figure of Asyifa remained silent at the side of his father's tomb, without any intention to move from there. Although the rain that had fallen since earlier had made his entire body drenched, Asyifa remained in her stance.

The people who were also still near the cemetery while taking shelter from the rush of rain, could only stare sadly at the figure of Asyifa who looked as if she had just lost half her soul.

Only Zidan, Angel, and Mira stood beside Ashifa to accompany her, and tried to protect her from the rain that constantly fell to earth.

"Asyifa, let's get up. It's time we had to go home, to prepare a prayer together" Angel asked, forcedly.

It is true that they must return to the house of the family of Ashifa, in order to prepare all the preparations that will be needed for the event of prayer together for the spirit of Kemal.

But Angel's intention was not only that, he wanted to bring Ashifa home because he was afraid that his best friend would get sick because he continued to be in the rain for hours.

Lips even the face of Asyifa has now turned very pale, his eyes have become more powerful yak yak powered because of lack of sleep and rest.

"Truely said Angel, we should go home soon to get everything ready. It is impossible that the first night after your father's departure, there will be no prayer together" said Mira, seeing that Asyifa did not budge from her place.

Suddenly from the end of the road was seen a black car traveling at high speed, and stopped right in front of the cemetery gate, which was not far from the tomb of Kemal was located.

After the door was opened, Lilian appeared with her anxious face and without shoes running towards the tomb. Mother Zidan immediately rushed to embrace the body of Ashifa tightly, as if he did not want to release it again.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Ashifa. I'm sorry that you're late to be with you when your father is gone for good. And I'm sorry I just came in now to take her away"

Although his ears heard Lilian's voice clearly, his body was reluctant to respond. Even to return the condolences, his tongue felt faint.

But when a soft cry came out of Lilian's mouth, a drop of Asyifa's tears fell down her cheeks. And become more and more, until the sound can now come out.

It was as if all of Ashifa's senses could only be awakened by the sound of crying, and she only understood the language of crying, but not the others.

"Mother, a_my father___ my father left for good leaving me alone in this world!" shouts Asyifa, all her might spilling all her sorrow on Lilian.

"You are patient, Asyifa. Mother believes God must have a plan for all the trials he has given you, son"

"Why is it only Asyifa given the mother's ordeal? Why was it only Ashifa whose life was always filled with sorrow? Asyifa also wants a part, just like the others, mother"

"Karna Ashifa is a strong woman, son. God gave all those trials, because God believed and believed Asyifa would get through them"

"Asyifa is not that strong! Even today it feels like Asyifa just wants to die, so that she can be with the father and son of Asyifa! Asyifa is not strong mother, Asyifa is also a fragile human being!" asyifa shouted, while hitting her own chest with all her might.

"Don't, don't talk like that baby. Mother does not want Asyifa like that, Asyifa must be strong son. We're going through all these trials together, everyone here is definitely not going to leave Asyifa alone"

"Or don't you think I'm an unlucky carrier? That's why everyone close to me, his life will always end tragically!" asyifa began to slur.

His gaze became directionless, and also his expression was like a possessed person. Asyifa seemed to have gone mad, as the soul within her was shaken.

Lilian who tried to re-embrace the body of Asyifa also fell to the side, because of the movement of Asyifa that began to fall out. Pulling her hair with both hands, Asyifa then crouched down with an expression as if she was thinking hard.

"My biological mother got unlucky after getting pregnant with me, and then died. The baby I was carrying also got unlucky, for being in my womb. And now my father died, because he became my father. Now all the riddles of why my life is full of suffering have been completely solved, and it turns out I'm the cause of it all!"

"No Asyifa, you're not the cause, son. You are a gift from God, a gift that brings happiness to everyone around you"

"A child born of a forbidden relationship and born of an illegitimate relationship is not a gift. Even many women who are pregnant out of wedlock want to eliminate the baby in their womb, because they consider it a burden and will only bring bad luck in life. I'm sure when my real mother found out she was pregnant, she was desperate to get rid of me"

"That's not true" said a voice from behind, which sounded familiar to Ashifa's ears.

The woman immediately turned around to see whose voice it belonged to. And sure enough, it was the voice of Laras, the woman who had been torturing him all this time.

The woman who from childhood always called mother, the woman who should now be in prison. But somehow he got to her husband's funeral.

When he saw the figure of two women in uniform who seemed to always stand beside Laras, Asyifa began to understand. It turned out that the woman was still in detention, and came there under close supervision.

"Auntie Laras? Why is aunt here? Who allowed you to bring him to this place?" zidan asked looking angry.

"I'm sorry, but we're bringing in prisoners at the request of our own prisoners. Since Mr. Kemal is her husband, we inevitably have to agree to it"

"But here too there are victims who have been tortured by him, you should be able to think how the victim feels if he meets him!"

"I'm sorry for us"

"Quick, take it away from here right now! Or aki herself will drag him away with both hands!"

The two uniformed women were just about to drag Laras away, but quickly Laras opened his mouth to interrupt.

"My twin sister Sarah, is not a woman who will have the heart to kill people, let alone her own child candidates. Different from me, she is a woman full of affection and tenderness. I still remember how happy she was after coming out of hiding and meeting you, she even offered to take care of you for a whole day. And because that's what made me hate him even more, to end his life with my own two hands"

All who heard the story of Laras, could only fall silent frozen with a feeling of surprise. Even though he knew that fact, Asyifa still shivered when he heard it again.

"I originally thought Sarah and Kemal no longer loved each other, and my sister had accepted you, so she could love you. But one day, I heard a compliment coming out of Kemal's mouth that how smart his son was, but it wasn't my name that was referred to as your mother, but rather the name of Sarah. And that very day, I did a DNA ted between you and myself, but the results that came out made my heart break into pieces. The kid I thought was my son, wasn't my real son"

"A_What's the reason that mom killed my real mother? Because I feel like I've been lied to by him and dad?" ask Ashifa boldly.

"Yes. I killed him because I had dark eyes and was filled with unstoppable anger. But after that, never a day did I regret everything I've done to her"

"Why are you telling me all this now? Do you want to make me feel more broken?"

"No, that's not my goal. Quite the contrary, I say this because I feel so guilty about you. You know what your mother said when I tried so hard to eliminate her? He begged me to keep loving and consider you my real son, just like I did a long time ago. He even repeated the request until his death. He loves you Asyifa, very"

Asyifa did not know to be happy or sad, when she heard all the stories that came out of the mouth of Laras. She was happy because her real mother loved her.

But it is undeniable that there is also a feeling of sadness in his heart, because he cannot remember and re-feel how much affection was given to him.

"Mother apologizes Asyifa" Laras said in a choked voice. The successful ones made everyone there surprised, even Asyifa was surprised.

"A_what?"

"I came here in addition to letting go of my husband, also to apologize to you. Perhaps I am not worthy of being called a mother by you, and I am also aware that my apology will not be able to heal all the wounds I have inflicted on your heart. But I still want to apologize to you, forgive Asyifa's mother"

"If you come to let go of my father, then please do as you wish. For anything other than that, I don't want to sting him"

For some reason when hearing the request of the maag Laras, the heart of Asyifa was not filled with warm feelings, but the heart felt very cold. It was like a snowstorm was going on in there.

Asyifa got up to her feet, and without turning her head in the direction of Laras, the woman walked past her just like that. But not yet three steps, his body collapsed to the ground.

"ASYIFA!"

*****

The joint prayer event, which was held to pray for the salvation of the spirit of Kemal, had just finished when Asyifa woke up from fainting.

Angel, standing guard in the room where Asyifa was lying down, quickly approached her friend, and helped her sit down. Not to forget Angel also offered a glass of water to drink Ashifa.

After draining the water with a single gulp, Ashifa circulated a gaze toward the entire room, as if looking for something.

"What's up, Ashifa?"

"There's nothing. Oh yeah, is the joint prayer over?"

"Already, just finished it. Do you want to take the guests home too? There were survivors with your father, who also came here with their families. They kept asking you, when they saw that they were intending to meet"

"I'm cape, I'm just here. If you're still asking about me, just tell me I'm still unconscious because I fainted"

"But Asyifa, I saw earlier that they also brought parcels, which seemed to want to be given to you. Can't you just go out and see them for a minute?"

"If I say I can't, well that means I can't. Why do you keep forcing me anyway, do you want me to fall unconscious like that again?"

"No, Fa. I'm sorry for subconsciously forcing you. Then I'll go out and tell them, you can just continue to rest here"

"Emm"

With an awkward gesture, Angel walked out of the room leaving Asyifa alone there. Because the girl did not think that Asyifa would act that early on to her.

When he got outside, Angel passed by Raka and Adam who turned out to have just entered the room to meet Asyifa.

"What's the matter, why are you two standing quietly like that in front of Asyifa's room?" angel asked confusedly.

"I and Raka were told by Lilian's mother to call Ashifa, because the victims who were with Kemal wanted to meet her. But hearing you seemed to be talking seriously with Asyifa, so we delayed going inside"

"I also told Asyifa that. But he said he cape and wanted to rest in the room alone, so couldn't see them"

"Well, the face she said that. I too, if I were in the position of Ashifa, would definitely not have the strength to meet the person who came to pray for my father" Raka replied, noting Asyifa's attitude.

"Emmm"

"Eh, why are your expressions and answers like that? Is there something going on between you and Asyifa? You guys didn't fight, did you?" ask Adam worried.

"No, our relationship is fine. Never mind, let's go ahead and meet those people"

Just now the three people were about to step foot forward, but stopped by the figure of Mira who suddenly appeared while carrying two large parcels in his arms.

"No need, they just got home. You better help me to bring all the parcels that are still in the living room, into the room of Ashifa"

"What's that gift? Why are there so many parcels? From anyone?" raka asked curiously, peering towards the living room.

And sure enough, there were still some large parcel boxes and small parcel boxes lying near the entrance.

"Many of the survivors and their families, there are also from the families of the victims whose bodies were found by om Kemal. The other, from some people acquaintance om"

"But why give parcels? This is a prayer event for the dead, not a birthday event"

"It was a form of their gratitude to Asyifa's father, for over the life of Asyifa's father had done them a great deal of good. So you don't think there's any harm at all" jawan Lilian, who looks like he just finished with the task of dropping off guests.

"Ah so well, mother. I'm sorry, Raka doesn't know why she says that, bun"

"It's okay. Angel, help you and Mira help bring all her parcels into Asyifa's room. Then Raka and Adam, please help Zida clean the living room of the former event. Mother wants to see Asyifa first"

"Good mother" answered the four compact.

But when Lilian turned the doorknob, it was locked from the inside by Asyifa and could not be opened.

"Asyifa, are you sleeping son? If you don't sleep, please open the door baby, you want to come in"

But Ashifa, who was busy doing something in the room and did not want to be disturbed, ignored Lilian's call. He continued to focus on a knife that was now in his grasp.

Seriate...