
" Hear Assalamualaimum, thank you for taking my phone, sorry .. I let you down, I don't know this,
you already know that I was trapped sandra and her father.I can't do anything at that time, I'm screwed, confused, at that time all I thought about was you... I'm sorry..I'm really sorry, ...". cut the bang rizal when I picked up the phone from him. Long curhatan bang rizal to me.
He spoke incessantly, perhaps correctly which was like his message.he needed me to hear his curses, his grief, his turmoil.
I heard the sound of a loud bang like holding back crying, sobbing, and sometimes hugging. I also cried, I only heard everything that was talked about bang rizal. My tears can't help hearing everything.
We both cried, equally sad, equally touched. Long time we dissolve in sobs, weeping,
" Dini.... can we continue our dreams that delayed Din?. I can not accept sandra, I am very disappointed with him and his family ". bang Rizal said after a long time we dissolved in a cry that was held.
I hesitated to answer, afraid that I would disappoint him and his family, afraid that I would disappoint my parents.
" Dini..". call him again.
I took a breath to remove my sob.
" Bang... I know you are disappointed..., I am also disappointed...., I can not blame fate.., I just do not want people around me to be discouraged, hostile, hostile, hate each other and revenge each other.
Maybe we are not meant to be together, maybe we are only allowed to be friends, friends, or brothers...". I heard that isak bang rizal is getting harsher.
My tears continued to flow without stopping, my sobs could not be held, my chest was tight, my head was sick, throbbing, I held my forehead, I stroked slowly.
There is no answer bang rizal, only our sobs are mutually unpretentious.soluble in each other's minds.
" Bang...we must accept the fate that has been outlined, I do not want my brother to dissolve in sadness, accept brother sandra as brother's wife, maybe indeed brother sandra who became brother's match ". finally said.
I do not want to still hang my heart, I want to bang rizal can to release me, so as not to be a burden for him in stepping.
Likewise with me, I do not want to still be in the frills of status still tied to the promise with the rizal bang, still the fiancee bang rizal, the future wife bang rizal. because we are in the process of heading to marriage. but canceled.
" Can't we be together, I'm still expecting you, me....".
" Bang Rizal is married, I don't want to disturb people's husbands, I don't want to be attacked again, I want us to just be friends, friends tell each other, share, share, and to step with each other's goals".I explained, I don't want to bang rizal expect more..
I heard him breathe, still heard his little sob. I took a tissue to wipe my tears.
" Dini.. I will try to accept your decision, I will be your friend, I beg you, if I call or meet you please do not sniff, I will try to accept it even though it is heavy ". bang Rizal said at last in a weak voice.
" Please apologize to my father, mother, to all the families there, I also want to meet with my father and mother, want to apologize" said bamg rizal again.
" I'll tell my mom and dad" I replied. "Sister Sa...".
" Dini.. I want to say. If I can't accept sandra as my wife, I can't.... I beg you ..., do not force me. I've been very heavy to release you, do not force me with this again.
" Good bang, I just ordered the same brother, do not save my brother's taste to me too, so that brother calmly stepped ". I asked while wiping my tears.
"Yes early". brother will sympathize brother's heart to early as a friend, if possible be a brother only" replied bang rizal.
" Bang.... All the luggage of this brother I want to return bang, brother can pick up if there is time. Or will I take it to the boarding house ". I said after a long silence, I remember with all the shipping brought by the family bang rizal at that time.
" For you Dini. brother adlaskan for brother, you do not consider all the shipping, consider a gift from a brother for his sister. So that you are not heavy to wear it.
" Thank you bang, say hello and thank you to your father and mother brother, also say sorry we are with the family" I said.
" Good Din... take care of yourself, take care of your health, hopefully you get a better soul mate someday.don't forget brother, brother will be your brother from now on.
" Thank you bang ", I answered while closing the phone from bang rizal. I held my chest tight, my tears broke again..
Sandra pov's.
I'm the only child of my father and mother, they spoil me so much, all my wishes they try to fulfill.
I graduated from art school, I went to art school because I wanted to be an art teacher, because I love dancing and singing.
In my mother's extended family I was the first grandchild of my grandparents. They also spoil me, grandfather always give by-by for me if I come to his house, even though our house is only ten minutes walk away.
I have many cousins, both big and smaller than me, because my mother also had a few siblings.
There was a cousin of mine who always made me envious of a little girl, Dini. My uncle's son, my mother's sister's father.
They live close to Grandma's house, so they almost always meet her.
The first thing that made me envious was his skin and hair.Among grandfather's grandchildren only he was a fair-skinned yellow, probably descended from his mother because his mother was light-skinned. His two younger siblings are also light but not as fair as his skin.
Even the hair he and his two younger siblings are very nice, straight black, shiny. While our grandchildren are mostly a bit curly, there are also straight hair, but not shiny, tend to be dull.
I admit that they are beautiful, because her mother is also beautiful.plus make me envious . His father, who is also my mother's brother, is also light-skinned, not the same as my mother and father who are rather dark, until my skin is also a bit dark.
We grandchildren grandfathers are all actually quite envious of him, but I am more envious, so embedded in me to not want to lose in everything.
From childhood I always took precedence, so I always wanted to be number one, for who was more than me, I tried to take it or disturb him.
I will not let them have anything new or anything more than me, if they do not want to give it to me I will make it damaged or can not be used anymore.
Because of my nature, my grandparents and uncle and aunt are angry with me, who usually always put me first, so it's normal for me. Every time I come I must be welcomed with by-by or kake hands or grandmothers from the market.
The peak of anger of my grandparents and om ku, is when they bought a bicycle, but the bike is almost the same, only different colors.but I do not accept it equally, the, so I cut the tires off so they can't be used. I was in fourth grade and he was still kind of.
Until I was scolded by om umar, grandfather and grandmother did not accept my complaint that I was scolded by om umar. But my father and mother defended me by also scolding umar and him, why ask to buy a bicycle the same as my bicycle. I feel like I won because I was also scolded.
Even when I was in the sixth grade also cut the strap of their bag because they did not want to give the bag to me, the bag was very beautiful, especially in Jakarta bought a aunt, branded, and certainly expensive.
There was so much more I did to her, from dirtying her dolls, throwing her books away, watering her rice with cowboiled water, even editing her clothes a few times which I thought was nice and expensive. My behavior continues to do until now.
Until one afternoon he was escorted by someone in police clothes, even though he said his mother was only a shopkeeper, but why he was always lucky, whereas a year ago I also took his job as a paud teacher. Because after two years I graduated bachelor of arts has not been able to get a job, he who is only a graduate can directly teach at the paud.
Now that he has an officer, I want what else is on him.
Aided by father and mother to achieve all my wishes, by making her wretched, and married her future husband with various dramas and tricks.
After marrying her future husband, I became a widow.
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