The Tarnished Honor
Chapter.55
"Don't daydream, later to sambet loh,"
The baritone voice that greeted the senses of Aulia's listener woke the woman from her daydream. Aulia immediately turned her head towards the source of the voice, where there was a man whose end was constantly nearby.
"Why is it here? Yes others are all gathered inside the same child," continued Fatih dropping her butt right next to Aulia with a safe distance.
"This, is the most comfortable place for me during my stay here, first. There once was a river with clear water. Every time I stared at the stream, my feelings could be much calmer. However, it is a pity that now the river has no change with the big building," replied Aulia staring straight ahead, a large building in front of her.
Fatih also stared at the building, a building built for travelers who would stay in the city. A hotel that was built 5 years ago has buried where Aulia spent time there during her teenage years.
"Then why are you looking for me?" tanya Aulia arrived to make Fatih Men turned towards Aulia.
"10 years ago. Why did you come here and look for me?" continued Aulia when Fatih did not answer and instead looked confused.
"Oh that," Fatih replied briefly.
Fatih leaned her back against the wall behind her before continuing her answer. Then, a long, heavy sigh came from the man's mouth.
"Many of the feelings I felt after that night and the most excruciating one was the guilt that even to this very second had not disappeared from within this heart. The look of the eyes full of disappointment and destruction that emanated from the look of your eyes continued to be a nightmare that every night came to me, it was as if it did not allow me to rest even if it was just one night and the feeling grew stronger and more crushing when one life was present from that depraved deed and I was so cowardly that I did not admit it. Until, one day I was determined to find you here to ask you to come with me who will be sent by Papa to London to continue studying there. I've decided that I'm going to confess all that and ask Papa to marry us off. However, the answer I got from Mother Ane made my soul more shaken and ended up depressed. During my stay in London, I kept imagining how that tiny, innocent body you threw away, made me even more tormented. Until finally, my mind was dead-end and chose to end my life. However, again and again God seems not satisfied to give me punishment for my actions until I am safe again and return to live a life full of torture. However, I am very grateful that feeling all the torture made me realize that it is important to keep our behavior from hurting others. Sorry yes, I'm really sorry," explained Fatih at length with a vibrating tone of speech and also glassy eyes when recalling the events of 10 years ago, between her and Aulia.
"Everything has passed, Mas has also now tried to make amends by always being there for us and giving our best, especially for Aliya. Thank you, thank you for acknowledging Aliya and for being the father Aliya has been missing for 10 years." aulia answered who had now fully exploited all Fatih's mistakes in the past.
After all, holding anger and also grudges continuously will not make our hearts feel calm and peaceful. So, it would be nice if we start trying to forgive and make peace with the past and the wounds in the past.
“That's not much, there's still a lot I have to do to make up for all my mistakes, first. Including making you happy and also Aliya,” replied Fatih sounded so ambiguous in Aulia's ears.
“Means?” aulia asked confusedly and did not understand what Fatih had said just now.
“Forget it, later I will explain after the time comes,” replied Fatih further making Aulia confused.
“Come, we have been waiting inside for lunch,” continued Fatih who immediately woke up from his seat and walked first, re-entered the parlor.
Until the exclamation coming from the voice of the princess who called her name reawakened Aulia from her daydream.
“Mother, come here let's have lunch first,” exclaimed Aliya from the doorway.
“Iya Nak, Mother there,” replied Aulia who immediately woke up from her seat to approach her daughter.
The three spent the day in the home almost all day. After the day leading up to night, the Fatih family was finally ready to return to the city because there was still a lot of work to be done there.
"Often come here, Mother really misses our togetherness Aulia," said Mother Strange when Aulia came home.
"Yes Mother, later if there is more free time. Aulia and Aliya will come again to visit the children here. Then Aulia said yes Bun," replied Aulia while tightly hugging the body of the middle-aged woman who had contributed a lot in raising her.
The two had to separate again because Aulia was to be returned to the capital and a wave of hands became the cover of the meeting of the two on that day.
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5 Months later.
"Sir, today so participate in the study at Al Ikhlas cottage?" asked Gita when she saw Aulia was ready with her Muslim clothes and sling bag that had been perched on her shoulder.
"Yes, Umi Amina happened to want to meet me and said, there's something she wants to talk about," aulia answered while preparing to go to the place that 5 almost 5 months Aulia regularly came to follow the study.
Post her divorce with Hanan, Aulia often felt sad and disappointed in her life destiny and it made Aulia finally decided to follow the study recommended by one of the teachers at her school Aliya named Ustadzah Aisyah.
Until Aulia was met with Umi Amina who is now a teacher and became an advisor for Aulia's life. Now, 5 months already the relationship between Aulia and Umi Amina is so well established. Because after meeting with Umi Amina, Aulia began to feel a calmness in her life.
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