THE SACRED LOVE OF MENTARI

GO TO AMERICA

Laura wanted to cry, but trying to hold him back, she turned to her mother, she hoped that she would explain all this the same Dance, because her mother had the ability to make people calm with her gentle words.

"Ma.." he hissed.

Mama Indi understood, she knew her daughter was unable to answer the question of Dance, therefore she approached, she pulled a chair and sat beside Laura, Indi mama will try to explain what happened to Tari.

Mama Indi grabbed the hand of Tari and grasped it with the intention to give reinforcement to Tari.

"Ma, ba yi ku ma na, he.ba ba ik peddle."

Mama Indi took a breath and exhaled before answering Tari's question, Mama Indi tried to smile, "Yes dear, your baby is fine."

Dance smiled hearing the explanation said by mama Indi.

Mama Indi continued, "Your baby is in the best place, baby, baby you are now in heaven Dance."

"Ma.mak sud aunty."

Mama Indi clasped her hands firmly, "You are strong, baby, when the accident happened, your stomach was hit so strongly that it caused heavy bleeding and made the baby sik...." mama Indi could not continue her words, she was silent for a while, because it was a bit hard to explain what really happened.

Tears Dance immediately spilled because she knew the continuation of the sentence to be said by mama Indi next, "Ba yiku." sobbing while holding her flat stomach.

Laura was also crying, she could feel what Dance was feeling.

"You who are patient, dear, this is a test from God." mama Indi tried to strengthen Dance.

The trajectory of the incident that night flashed in the mind of Tari, at that time he had just returned to dinner with Adam when there was a car at high speed drove from the opposite direction, and the collision was inevitable, and the collision was inevitable, remembering the events of that night certainly made Dance remembered with Adam.

"Ma s, there m, she's like-good peddling." she asked expectantly, she's already lost her baby, she also doesn't want to lose her husband either.

"Mas Adam..mas Adam could not be saved Dance, mas Adam...." Laura cried as she pleased, she was unable to continue her words.

Dance shook her head, she couldn't believe this, she lost two very dear people at the same time, it felt like she couldn't bear this heavy burden, she thought, she thought, why doesn't he just die rather than live a kara, "Ga k mu ng kin, mas Ad am can't go away I did." Dari refused to believe that her husband was now dead, "Your son isn't kinnnn."

Laura wakes up and hugs Dance, they cry together, Laura knows very well what her best friend is feeling right now, it is not easy to accept all these painful realities.

"There I am Dance, there I will always be beside you, you never feel alone Dance."

"Mas Ad am Oh my God."

Only a hug can Laura give and let Dance cry, thought Laura let Dance cry to shed her sorrow, usually the woman after crying will feel better.

****

For the first time in a few days Luke can smile a little, he is happy, happy because he heard from the nurse who took care of him that the girl named Mentari Wardhani who he hit is now conscious, how happy Luke was to hear the news, he did ask Sister Tuti, the nurse who cared for him to monitor the state of Dance, and report the development of Dance to her, in addition to asking Sister Tuti to monitor the development of Dance, Luke also often secretly comes to the room Dance, of course when Laura is not there, looking dead his name saw the keaadan Dance when Laura was there.

Actually, Luke's condition can be said to have healed, even the doctor had allowed Luke to go home, only Luke refused to go home on the grounds he still felt pain in his head, but Luke refused to go home, it was obviously a fabricated reason, the real reason was so that he could see Dance every day, even though he only saw her from the small glass that was on the door of his living room.

And just as Luke was doing, he could only see Dance through the small glass, see that she was conscious and crying herself, it makes Luke feel guilty because he believes the girl is crying because she remembers her husband and future baby who were killed by Luke.

Luke held his chest which suddenly felt tight, tight because it felt like he really did not have the heart to see the girl cry, wanted it to feel Luke entering and hugging her, he said, pacify him and whisper the words that everything must improve, but there is no way he can do that considering he is the one who caused all this to happen, he is the one who destroyed the girl's life and took away her happiness.

Luke leaned against the wall, staring at the hospital ceiling to prevent his tears from falling, "God what should I do to atone for my sin, it feels impossible for him to forgive." his sighs are desperate.

*****

Time changed so quickly, it was two weeks and Dance was allowed to go home by the doctor, physically, the condition of Dance had indeed improved, but not with her soul, sometimes Dance daydreaming, crying, crying, sometimes he also smiled to himself, I don't know what he was thinking, maybe he remembered the good times he had with Adam and the wonderful future they had designed together, the future they would never be able to realize considering that the man who would build a future with him had gone a long way and would never come back again.

And the plan is indeed today Dance will go home, and Eve her sister-in-law also came to deliver Dance.

Eve immediately embraced Dari as soon as she came, as she promised, Eve several times came to visit Tari to the hospital, sometimes she also brought her little daughter Orlin, but at this time Eve did not bring Orlin, orlin, he just came alone and was driven by the driver.

"How are you dancing." she asked.

"As you can see, I'm good." she replied with a listless smile.

And no one will believe that answer, nor Eve, as a woman, Eve salute with the rigor of Dance, Dance so very strong in the face of the severe trials that she is currently experiencing, she said, having to lose her husband and prospective children at the same time, Eve herself if in the position of Dance at this time is sure that she will not be as strong as Dance.

Eve stroked Tari's back, "Trust Tari, you are not alone, you have mbak."

"And it's me too." Laura who has cleaned up the Dance stuff also chimed in which made Eve and Dance smile.

"The point is Dance, there are still many people who still love you, never feel alone okay, you have to live your life, even though well...." Eve stopped her words for a moment, it felt like she still could not pronounce her sister's name, "Without Adam by your side." it felt like every mention of Adam's name, Eve felt like crying, like crying, but of course he tried not to do that considering that Dance is currently in front of him, he should strengthen Tari in this case, not the other way around.

"Yes, I'll try it, although it would be very heavy without Adam's mas." replied Tari unsure.

"Hey, don't say so Dance, I'm sure, Adam there doesn't want to see you dissolve in this kind of sadness, she would want to see the woman she loves rise up and live her life well and happily, well even though one day you will feel it with another man."

"I don't think I can open my heart to anyone else, but my heart has been carried by Adam with it."

"Don't say so Dance, don't live in memory, I'm sure, someday, there will be someone who will make you happy and can replace Adam in your heart."

"I don't want it to be, for me, no one will ever be able to replace Adam."

Eve sighed heavily, well she should understand, Dance is currently still in a state of grief, and it feels very difficult to forget someone who left us who went because called by God, and it feels very difficult to forget someone who left us who left because called by God, rather than separate because of the third person.

"Everything's sorted out, we better get home now." Laura's intrusion.

"Mother."

"Why Dance."

"I want to go to Adam's tomb, Kangen Dance wants to meet Adam's mas and Tari's son." said Tari suddenly.

Laura turned her back to Dance, she was not strong, her tears instantly slid upon hearing the longing words from her best friend.

"Yes, we stopped by Adam's grave and your baby first huh." Hawaii asserts the desire of Dance.

Incidentally, Adam and the baby were buried next to each other, while returning home carrying the body of Adam at that time, Eve also asked her family to bring with her the children of Adam and Dance, initially her family refused, but at Eve's insistence, Eve also asked her family to take her, his family also took the baby with him and buried him next to his father's grave.

"Laura, let us return." said Eve.

"Ehhh yes." Laura immediately wiped her tears and turned back to face Dari and Eve.

****

Without them realizing it, since then, there was a man who had been watching and hearing their conversation from the outside, the person was Luke, who had been, Luke has been home from the hospital for a week, and from the information he got from Sister Tuti that today Tari was allowed to go home by the doctor so that Luke came to see Dari for the last time, whereas today he is going to America, Luke chose to go to America and live with his grandparents there, besides, Luke also wants to continue his study there, actually that's not the main reason, he chose to go to America to forget all the bad memories and guilt that always haunted him, almost every night Luke had a nightmare about the fateful events of the night, which was, and the nights are also often haunted by the heart-wrenching sound of Dance crying.

And as soon as the three women in the room were about to come out, Luke hurriedly went to hide, he came out of hiding when the three girls were away, staring at the back of the woman who was in the middle was none other than Dance.

"I'm sorry Dance, I'm sorry." He's been saying that sorry hundreds of times, but he doesn't dare to say it in front of his people directly, ever sieh, but he doesn't dare to say it, but when Dance was not aware at that time.

The sound of a cell phone pocketed by Luke's jacket rang which made Luke distract him from the back of the increasingly distant Dance.

"Yes ma."

"Where are you dear, soon the plane will leave you."

"Yes ma, Luke will be at the airport soon."

It turned out that it was a phone call from Mama Lili who is now in the airport, he and papa Sebastian are now in the airport to deliver their son's departure to America.

Luke rushes out of the hospital, he is escorted by his mother's driver, since the fateful event, Luke is traumatized and never carries a car again, he is afraid that the events of the night will repeat themselves.

****

Eve asked her driver to stop her car at the public cemetery where Adam and his baby sister were buried, and now Tari sits between the graves of her husband and her son.

Dari could not hold back her tears as she looked at the tombstone bearing her husband's name.

"Mas Adam." siss Tari looked at her husband's navel, Adam's tomb was still wet, "Why did you leave me alone mas, I'm afraid I couldn't get through all this alone without you, hyster."

Eve who was sitting next to Tari held the shoulder of her sister-in-law.

"Nothing I've missed you mas, I miss you so much, it must feel very heavy without you beside me."

"Tari, please let Adam rest so that he can be calm there, let him dance." said Eve.

Dari nodded in understanding, she had actually mengikhlaskan, only she was not strong when in front of the tomb of Adam and the baby.

"Rest in peace, Adam, I will try to live my life as well as possible, but I must be happy there because Adam is not alone, there is our baby who always accompany Adam's mas there." Dance wiped her tears.

"Dance, this." Laura handed over the flowers she had bought to Tari to sow Adam's grave.

Dari took the flower and sprinkled it on Adam's grave as well as the grave of his baby, and afterwards he prayed fervently that Adam and his baby be placed in the best place by his side.

After that, the three women decided to go home.

Initially Laura forces Tari to stay at her home for a while as her mother and father happily accept the arrival of Tari, but Tari refuses, she did not want to trouble Laura's family because Laura's family had been very good to her, besides, Tari did not want to leave her home because the house was full of memories, she said, and in the end Laura gave up asking Tari to stay at her house.

****

Currently in the airport.

It feels like Mama Lili does not want to take off her arms to her son, she feels heavy to let go of the son alone the puppet, let alone Luke must be separated thousands of kilometers from her.

"Why do you have to go, baby, can you just stay here and cancel your departure." At the last second, Mama Lili is still trying to persuade her son to cancel his departure, "Pa, do something doank so that Luke does not go, this is why papa is even silent, how is this sieh papa."

"Ma, please let Luke go, and there Luke lives with mom and dad, so we don't have to worry."

"Yes ma, Lukaskan is not there for fun too, Luke is there to continue Luke's lecture."

"Here the lecture can be Luke, no need to get to America all."

"Ma, don't be like a kid whose job is whining."

"The father is how sieh, yes it's natural that mama like this, mama can't feel separated from mama's son, indeed like a father who never loved Luke."

"This mom is there if you talk, how can you not love your own son, Luke has chosen his own way of life, so let him go, after all when it is time, Luke has chosen his own way of life, Luke will definitely come back again and will take care of our company."

"I'm sorry pa, I don't think I want to come back here anymore." words that only Luke said in his heart, because he couldn't possibly voice them, because he might not be allowed to go by his father.

"If mama misses, then she can come to America to visit Lukas, America and Indonesia is close to you" said Lukas.

"You must not make up for Luke, what is near try."

Luke chuckled at his mother's rebuttal.

Upon hearing the voice of the airport attendant asking passengers with American destinations to immediately enter the plane, Lili's mother's cry broke, how not, she had to let her son go to a very far country.

Luke hugged his mother before leaving, "Had my mother, don't cry anymore okay, once Luke arrives, Luke will tell mama."

"Once you get off the plane, go straight to VC mama ya."

"Yes ma." Luke's promise.

And finally, Luke embraced his father, the man who had always scolded him for the cruel behavior of Luke who always did his best, now Luke knows, his father often scolded him because his father loved him.

"Jaga mama ya pa." Luke's message with his papa.

Papa Sebastian nodded, "Send your greetings to your grandparents."

"May be pa."

After Luke walked away, he turned around and waved one last time to his parents, father Sebastian embracing his wife who was still crying because he was not willing to let go of their son who would go far.

"Dance, I will go far, I hope you can live your life well." Luke prayed before stepping back into the iron bird that will take him to a far-off land.

*****

Days change, months change, and now that Luke is in America for a year, he lives his life a little better in the area of Sam's uncle, Luke has really changed now, no Luke likes to drink, change his girlfriend, Luke really tries to improve his life, he spends more time studying and learning.

From the outside Luke may look healthy and fine, but no one knows what Luke is feeling right now, even after a long year has passed, the guilt still haunts him, he really can not get rid of the events of the night easily from his mind, even to this day, he could not get rid of the events of the night easily, the events of that night are sometimes still present in his dreams even though not as often as they used to be, Luke often wakes up in the middle of the night in cold sweat, and if that has happened, Luke will be afraid to sleep again, the dream came back to haunt him.

And regarding Dance, of course Luke did not forget the girl just like that, the shadow of the crying Dance also did not escape to decorate the nights, even Lukas went so far as to ask a psychologist to help him eliminate the trauma he felt, unfortunately, it did not help at all.

At the moment Lukas is in the library of the campus where he continued his education, Luke berusha looking for activities to distract him from the things he did not want to remember about that night, one of them is to crouch in the library and distract him with thick books, when the incoming message notification is heard from his phone lying on the table.

Lukas opened it, and the message was a picture message sent by Parhan, it was photos of Tari who was doing her daily activities, namely going to the office.

During this one year, through his best friend, Luke wants to make sure that Dance is okay by asking Parhan to monitor all Dance activities and report them to him, and even with all of her papa connections, she said, Luke makes it easier for Tari to get a job, it is done to atone for her guilt, though Luke knows, it was not enough to make amends for his past mistakes because what he had done seemed impossible to forgive.

*****