The Forced Childfree

Juan Trying Hard

Dozens of condolence messages immediately flooded the inbox in one of the messaging apps on Juan's phone. They offered their utmost condolences for what happened to Amasya. They also pray that Amasya will recover soon.

The number of messages that enter the inbox on Juan's phone. Juan was unable to respond one by one. In a video post, Juan thanked his co-workers who had expressed their condolences for the loss to Juan and Amasya. Juan thanked the prayers and support of his co-workers. Remembering Juan really needs a prayer and support from his co-workers. Juan has the support he needs.

Lunch at a restaurant. Juan re-opened the album on his mobile phone. Photo album that contains memories of Juan and Amasya, from Amasya doing a pregnancy test pack. Until Amasya was actually declared pregnant. Everything made Juan feel so missed. A heavy longing for memories that cannot be returned in such a short time.

Seeing the cheerful face of Amasya for almost 1.5 months of her pregnancy. Slowly made Juan smile. But gradually Juan began to shed tears, when Juan saw another picture of Amasya. Juan was crying so hard. Her tears kept dripping down, in tandem with a sobbing sound. Instantly Juan became a spectacle by other visitors who were eating at the restaurant where Juan had lunch.

Juan tried to be steadfast with the bitter reality that must be accepted by him. He had to accept all the realities Juan might never accept. Juan must feel all that sadness.

A waiter gave Juan tissue. He did not have the heart to see Juan who was in the midst of deep sadness. So a tissue might be able to use Juan to dry his tears.

Juan did not immediately accept the tissue. She looked at the face of the maid who gave herself tissue. Before finally Juan slowly took the tissue that the servant gave him.

"Thank you" said Juan to accept the tissue.

The servant then immediately rushed away leaving Juan. Juan immediately arrested the maid. Juan asked the waiter to accompany him to a chat. Juan was eager to tell him about the sadness he was experiencing.

But the maid refused to accompany Juan. There is no SOP that requires him to chat with guests. So it would be a big deal for the waiter to chat with Juan. The waiter immediately left Juan's desk.

"What foods can I talk to?" juan asked the waiter.

The waiter laughed.

"i'm serious. Why are you laughing like that?" juan asked back.

"I don't think there's any food to talk to. All of that food is for eating. Maybe you need a psychiatrist. Not to the restaurant." replied the waiter.

"But I'm not crazy" Juan said.

"When I have a problem, I always run away from a psychiatrist. Even though my budget is minimal. At least I can tell them a lot. None of them will judge you. Psychiatrists are not crazy places. But a place for someone who is in trouble like this father. Maybe you can go to a psychiatrist." The waiter of the restaurant was confident.

Juan immediately thought of the words from the restaurant service. He needed to go to a psychiatrist. Just venting the sadness that was in his heart. The appeal must continue to hold his sadness in the heart. Juan better come to a psychiatrist to be consulted. Maybe Juan will get a solution of what is happening to him at this time. Pretty good idea for Juan at the moment.

Juan did not order food at the restaurant. Juan immediately left the restaurant. But Juan left several pieces of money with a nominal one hundred thousand on the table. Maybe it was a tip for the waiter who had advised Juan to go to a psychiatrist. A place where Juan can tell all his life's problems.