The Devil Nerd's

Twenty Two



"I left with a wound, with a heart that I held tightly to the ground and you made it, but..believe me I'm not gone forever because I'm going to come back with the same wound for you. So you know my heart's not your toy."

-Zevana

***

Vana held onto her chest that was beating incoherently. His feet were nailed to the point of being unable to move. Vana's knees were squeezed, her nanargument was also difficult to divert. Vana muttered softly, "Vanno." There was a tinge of disbelief in his voice.

"Lo's here?" Vana asked who. Vana's eyes heat up then sobbing bitterly. Vana smothers her mouth to make no sound, her body slumped on the sand. There was no barrier, only a palm tree that slightly covered but Vana could see clearly that the guy she saw was Vanno. But he was not alone, it seemed a girl his age was also there while occasionally embracing and they laughed together.

Vana felt a tightness in her chest. He had just begun to believe in Vanno but now his trust had completely disappeared. Vana is only aware that Vanno has unwittingly entered her heart. Vanno had become his world in just an instant. And Vanno has become his girlfriend in an instant. Vana wishes this was a dream. But the pain felt was too real to be called a dream.

"He doesn't pant for me."

"He doesn't pant for me."

"He's not. hik.he's not pantes for me." Vana shook her head strongly while patting her chest harder. "What's my fault?"

"Why? Why it hurts. Why you should go in if you want to get out. Why Van? Why is it so easy to get into my heart. Why Van? Vanno .. answer me." Lirih Vana, asked the empty wind in front of him.

"What's my fault? I was hoping too much for you. Am I too baper with my same treatment? Do you know that? You're evil as I am."

"Gue guess you accept me for who I am." Vana remembers meeting him from the beginning with Vanno. as if Vana uses the guy continuously, although honestly Vana does love money, but in fact Vana only tests whether Vanno will withstand his behavior. At first Vana believed but not for now.

Vanno prefers to meet the girl and make her wait.

"Gue know .. I'm matre, I'm not as pretty as him and me..." Vana hit her head. "Dumb girl."

Vana laughs wryly. "I cry, pretentious and love him even though he just played me. Huh uh?! She thinks I'm a barbie she can play with at will. I cannot be sick. I can't be sad, can I not think?"

"Aishh... I said what the hell? i why?"

"Damn!" Vana's eyes narrowed ruthlessly. "Gue will make you regret! I'm like a weak girl who just needs a guy's protection. You're wrong."

"Gue will make you crumble until you bow down apologizing to me one day."

***

Vana almost fell if only he could not balance his body. Vana glanced at the oang she accidentally hit flat. Without looking back, Vana continued her steps.

Jasmine's forehead wrinkled, Vana's behavior this time was so strange. Jasmine chased after Vana and restrained her shoulders. "Why Van?" Tanya Jasmine investigated.

"What?" It was about the movement of Vana's lips. Jasmine is increasingly confused because Vana looks lethargic like without nutritional intake. Though Jasmine is convinced that Vana has finished her big breakfast with her brother.

"Lo why? You're all right." Jasmine asked once more and Vana just snorted.

Fine butt! It's because of brother lo jerk!

Vana reluctantly responded to Jasmine and turned to leave.

"For Vanno's brother yah?"

Vana's steps stopped. Her eyes held back tears as Vanno's name was heard in her ears, Vana remembered all the things the man had done. When Vanno hit him on the beach. When Vanno gave me his jacket. When Vanno complies with all his wishes. When Vanno shot him. And ...

Jasmine finally understood what made Vana like iku. Jasmine let out a long breath. "Lo's no good."

Vana squeezed both hands, "Gue ..."

"Is there a pest between you."

"I.that's.." Vana was confused to say 'YES'. Just the link of his two fingers that Jasmine was unable to see behind.

"Gue promised once. If I were going to be his guarantee, I would be Kak Vanno's protector. You don't have to hesitate to ask for anything with me." Sela Jasmine's. In Jasmine's heart knew that there was a mistake but Jasmine did not ask further.

Stunned vana. "Anything."

"Well anything."

Vana wiped the tears at the corner of her eyes. Vana said softly feelingly.

"Jaga Vanno for me."

"Don't let him look for me."

"...and make sure he's all right."

Jasmine froze in a place unable to speak as Vana continued her speech.

"And tell me that I've fallen for him. I'll just fall for him."

Vana has fallen in love with Vanno. The reality is not capable of Vana, even though Vana has just felt pain. Vana remains unable to evade that Vana wants Vanno for her.

"Where are you going?"

"Go."

"When you get back." Jasmine stepped slightly closer to Vana who was unwilling to turn around looking at her.

"Until my sanity is gone. I'll be back."

Jasmine felt her heart stop at that very instant. Jasmine could not imagine how her brother would wait that long. "May you ask for something."

"What?"

"Don't take too long." Although it sounded selfish Jasmine still expressed her desire in earnest.

Vana did not nod or shake. Jasmine lets Vana leave herself alone. Both of Jasmine's hands clenched tightly.

"Gue follow you to lo."

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Revisions

30 January 2018