The Destiny of Love Nayyara

Let go

Three hours passed after the surgery, and now Faiz was conscious from his sleep. The first time the eyes opened, Nayya was the first one she saw. A sense of joy, sadness, happiness, fear enveloped within him.

"Nausea?" asked Azizah who was immediately greeted by Faiz. Usually the after-effects of nausea surgery, so Azizah asked her youngest son.

"Mom, Radit mas, Arya mas, can you leave us both here? Faiz wants to talk to Nayya" Arya just agrees. Radit appears to have sought Azizah's approval. Azizah nodded her head, after which the three of them came out of the ward. And Faiz and Nayya remained within.

An awkward atmosphere enveloped the two. None of them started talking. Although Faiz asked for it, Faiz was still reluctant to open his voice.

"M-mas Faiz, what are you talking about?" tanya Nayya broke the silence between the two, then Nayya sat down on the bedside chair belonging to Faiz.

"I want to cancel the wedding and withdraw my proposal" he explained making Nayya stunned. It was as if the air in the room was exhausted making Nayya feel a slight tightness in her chest.

Why suddenly? Is it because of Faiz's condition like this? Is it because Faiz has got more wives than him? Or is this even a request from Alfah? The question kept spinning in his brain.

'Astaghfirullah, astaghfirullah, astaghfirullah, why Nay became his inner gini suudzon' while shaking his head.

"Why would Faiz want to cancel the wedding? And why not just step down?" tanyanya.

"Now my condition does not allow to work, even for just the road can not. And fearing that I could not support you, therefore I would like to cancel the marriage. And now you're free you can accept applications from other men who may be better than me, and can support your inner birth" the last sentence that came out of Faiz's mouth suddenly made Nayya's heart as if slashed, and his eyes began to glaze over. Nayya most disliked the words, let alone the words issued by the person whom Nayya had been fighting for in silence. Doesn't that mean Nayya's struggle was in vain?. Even Nayya agreed to offer herself to Faiz. "I'm not sure if I'm going to back out of the marriage. Because I don't know when I can walk anymore" he explained again making Nayya nod her head.

"Y-yes if that's what Faiz wanted me to go first assalamualaikum" said he while wiping his tears that were about to spill over his cheeks.

Arya, Radit also Azizah who saw Nayya out in a hurry immediately asked what happened, but had not had time to ask him, Nayya had left with half a run. Makes all three wonder.

"Nayya why?" ask Radit.

"Let the mother follow" Radit and Arya just nodded. If it's about feelings, maybe women know better.

Arriving at the toilet, the door closed slowly. Nayya cried so hard that Azizah was able to hear the cry from outside.

Nayya overflowed all the sadness, also tired of fatigue as she waited for an answer do'a, tightness in the chest that she had been feeling, all that was relieved after she cried.

Nayya used to think that crying does not change anything in our lives. And that's true.

But as time goes by. Nayya realized that crying does not indicate that we are weak, nor does it indicate that we are crybaby, and it is clearly unable to change the destiny that has been outlined. But, by crying makes our hearts a little relieved and the burden in life feels reduced. That was what Nayya felt at the moment, even though it was only temporary.

After her cries subsided, Nayya washed her hands and washed her face that looked soaked. Then he opened the door, and how surprised outside was Faiz's mother.

"Mother why is she here? Going to the toilet too?" nayya asked a little nervously, hoping Azizah did not hear her cry earlier.

"The same story, son, why are you?" her tanyanya made Nayya surprised. Azizah heard her crying.

"Nayya is not papa kok Bu" he explained, making Azizah shake her head.

"The story is not papa with mother" he said softly while stroking Nayya's shoulder to channel strength for him.

Nayya's defense is weak, she cries again and Azizah immediately brings Nayya's body into her arms. Azizah already considered Nayya as her son-in-law even though she was still a candidate.

"Faiz is wrong what are you doing, son?" tanyanya. Afraid that Nayya would cry because of her youngest child. Inside the arms of Azizah Nayya shook her head.

"Can't Nay be happy, Mom? Why Nay had to keep hurting, not Nay's physical pain, but Nay's inner pain. Nay's tired of mom" he said making Azizah increasingly clueless. Somehow he was so open with Azizah while before he never told stories, complained, expressed the sadness that he was alone, even to his twin he never told a story.

Nayya took off her embrace with Azizah and wiped her tears. After that, he started telling stories.

"Mas Faiz wants to cancel our marriage ma'am" Nayya pulled the corner of her lips and smiled.

"Why? Is it because Faiz is sick again?" tanyanya is taken by Nayya.

"But why should it be cancelled? Can be pulled back" he explained to make Nayya shrug her shoulders do not know.

"Yes let me talk to Faiz later. You are calm, son, I'm sure Faiz is actually also heavy to say that. But believe me if you were in Faiz's position you would say the same thing. You are patient"

Nayya also nodded in understanding. Then Azizah and Nayya returned to Faiz's ward.

"Assalamualaikum" greeted Azizah as she slowly opened the door of the room.

"Wa'alaikumsalam" answered the two men inside.

"Where is Arya, where is Raditya?" ask her to Arya.

"Mas Radit has gone home ma'am, just on the phone tell the office" he explained making Azizah nod. And Arya also paid back, as well as Nayya. After the two of them left, Faiz and the mother remained inside.

"Son, why would you want to cancel her wedding don't you love her and she loves you? You should've pulled her back enough, didn't have to cancel her wedding" a rude gasp came out of Faiz's mouth.

"Faiz wasn't sure if Nayya would accept Faiz under these conditions, let alone for a while Faiz couldn't work"

"Yes, if indeed you release it, you are sincere patient, God willing, if Nayya is your soul mate, surely you will unite despite so many obstacles that you have to go through" she smiled at her youngest son.